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TopicWhat are you listening to
MrMallard
04/14/21 3:28:21 AM
#355
I've been fucking with a lot of Counting Crows and King Gizzard lately.

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TopicWhat are you listening to
MrMallard
03/10/21 7:22:30 AM
#200
I'm in a weird place rn, started listening to a band called Hem but I think I only like a couple of their songs.

I started listening to this band called the Weepies last year, they're kinda in flux rn because I listened to them too much but I can't find a band that reaches the same standard.

https://youtu.be/49mklNozHck
https://youtu.be/2WkqKC4wv78

They vary between songs like these that are really stripped down and simple, like the bare essentials of a song, and these really chill, glossy tunes that pull out all the stops. I really like their music, and I hope they put out a new album in the next couple of years.

If you like Scrubs, you might recognise their song "World Spins Madly On" from the deja vu episode where JD's plot with the janitor is identical to an earlier episode - the riddle about making change where one of them isn't a nickel.

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TopicIs It Wrong to Try to Pick Up Waifu in a Topic?
MrMallard
03/08/21 5:32:07 AM
#335
Good show TC. Can't believe my waifu was the last one.

You really stepped up when you didn't need to. You took on someone else's task that they bailed on twice, and you made it work over a ridiculous amount of time that you could have spent on yourself. You went above and beyond for the happiness of some dumb internet randos, and that deserves some recognition.

It's users like you, who make these projects come true or who tie everything together with a gimmick, who make these online spaces feel like a community. Thank you.

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TopicIs It Wrong to Try to Pick Up Waifu in a Topic?
MrMallard
03/07/21 5:58:12 PM
#325
KaZooo posted...
really goes to show what kind of tall order this was, and further builds on how much ground TC covered selflessly and that's not without saying he has a life to keep up with as well outside of this.

We can joke and make light of "oh it's just CE shenanigans", but these take time and effort, and every finished product has been consistent in quality.

2 years is quite a wait, but I tell you having a dedicated waifu is the most worth it.
Imagine being someone who didn't get on the list, and will never have a waifu.
I agree with all of this.

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TopicIs It Wrong to Try to Pick Up Waifu in a Topic?
MrMallard
03/07/21 11:06:51 AM
#317
Oh my god, I finally got a waifu character! I managed to get my name in the running with Proofpyro's original list, which all got scrapped when he got burnt out. Then I managed to get on the second list, where he burnt out again. I feel like I've spent months on this list, and close to 2 years since the original list.

Thank you for taking up this task. It feels nice to get something made for you, and I really appreciate you continuing through this list of users until it was my turn.

I really like the hair colour and the pose she's doing with her hands.

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Topic70's music playlist
MrMallard
03/05/21 1:49:08 PM
#334
Make Me Smile (Come Up and See Me) - Steve Harley & Cockney Rebel

https://youtu.be/9pzJE3eP7S8

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Topic"When they go low, we go high"
MrMallard
02/22/21 11:45:01 AM
#148
"I already apologized a bunch of times for cultivating a racist space, you guys are assholes for bringing it up so much, at least I'm trying to move past it instead of being caught up on old news like you reductionist types"

*invites user who regularly uses slurs to a new discord server, defends said user in the face of backlash and creates a room specifically for that user to hang out when the backlash gets too hot instead of getting rid of them*

"Out of context!!! *posts the same screenshot four times and doesn't address the rest of the garbage levelled against him*"

Sounds like a Caution thread alright

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TopicFeminize me, Cap'n. v4
MrMallard
02/22/21 11:00:44 AM
#344
lww99 posted...
Bread butter pickles are the absolute worst

Thighon posted...
okay first off, pickles are great unless they're sweet

You two know exactly what tf is up

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Topic"When they go low, we go high"
MrMallard
02/22/21 10:50:19 AM
#138
Dude spammed the same image four times on the subreddit. You know we only needed to see it the first time, right? Posting it that many times makes you look incredibly buttmad.

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Topic"When they go low, we go high"
MrMallard
02/22/21 6:47:46 AM
#131
Of course Caution would have a Brian Griffin avatar on Discord, lmao

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TopicFeminize me, Cap'n. v4
MrMallard
02/21/21 11:47:06 PM
#328
I heard a while back that a good way to get electrolytes as a trans woman is to snack on pickles and/or try drinking the brine. You lose a lot of electrolytes through peeing, and because pickle brine is high in salt, it can help you retain electrolytes and minerals and stuff.

I'm not a trans woman, and I'm commenting on something I heard a while ago so it might not be as accurate as I would like. I am saying it in good faith though - it might be something worth looking into.

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TopicHow do girls pee if they don't have balls?
MrMallard
02/20/21 9:22:10 PM
#31
Revnir posted...
But wait...

Wait just a sec.

How come when I pee my balls don't get smaller?
The balls are hard shells where the pee is stored, and there are pain receptors all around the shell. They're protected by a layer of fat to cushion any force that would crack the pee shell and leak waste into your body.

A hard shell can't expand and shrink, so your fat nuts don't shrink when you pee.

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TopicRush Limbaugh has died.
MrMallard
02/18/21 10:55:10 PM
#431
Slayer_22 posted...
Did this actually happen?
Dude admitted to it

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TopicRush Limbaugh has died.
MrMallard
02/18/21 9:18:24 PM
#419
Bad_Mojo posted...
I did one terrible thing over a decade ago, and you and a few other still continue to bring it up. Why?
Because you PRETENDED TO HAVE CANCER

That's not something that just washes off over time. That's some vile shit. You can dedicate your life to good causes, you can be the best in your field, but once you fuck that one metaphorical goat, you're going to be known as a goatfucker. The only thing you can do to erase the stigma is to go somewhere where you aren't known for fucking goats.

Glad I know, now I can tag you as someone who faked having cancer.

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TopicRush Limbaugh has died.
MrMallard
02/18/21 9:13:40 AM
#380
Conflict posted...
Dude, shut the fuck up. Not shedding tears for someone who spread hatred, racism and homophobia doesn't make you a "terrible person", and it's completely moronic to think so. Not to mention you're not exactly a beacon of honor yourself since you pretended to have cancer



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TopicAtheists think there is no afterlife. You just cease existing.
MrMallard
02/18/21 6:14:05 AM
#9
There's nothing after life, sunhawk. You stop being able to see, to feel, to listen. And you don't care about it at all, because you - the person you are, what makes you alive - has ceased to exist.

Nothing exists after death, and we all die one day. Make the most of your time on earth, because there's nothing after it.

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TopicBBC allegedly adds grey filter to picture of China
MrMallard
02/18/21 6:03:28 AM
#177
I know TC isn't here to defend himself, but I want to raise a point against his deflection schtick.

Yes, the US has detainment facilities in which immigrants are treated inhumanely. Approximately 500 children are lost in the system because they were separated from their parents who were then deported. ICE distributes misleading literature in Spanish to try and ensnare immigrants whose stronger language is Spanish. There are reports of forced hysterectomies, and of ICE retaliating against prisoners who spoke up about squalid conditions in these facilities by making them wipe down surfaces with caustic chemicals without appropriate PPE or ventilation. Let's not get it twisted - America has some fucked up detainment facilities. And that's only talking about immigration - the practice of prison labor is fucked up too.

So we're on the same page. America has inhumane detainment facilities, and that's worth addressing.

How the fuck does that invalidate claims of China's re-education camps? Facilities where Uighur Chinese people are broken down over the course of months, where deviation from the "lesson" - whether it be sitting in silence or repeating propaganda for hours at a time - involves being taken away and never seen again? Where "deviation" is collapsing from exhaustion or coughing because you're sick? What about being interrogated for hours at a time, made to praise the CCP and to confess to false crimes after years of detainment and brainwashing?

What about those facilities who reach out to Uighurs abroad, asking them to return to China alone to settle debts, before throwing them in jail for years on trumped up charges?

Those facilities exist. The CCP has a long history of detaining political prisoners for years on end without a trial, reaching them in other countries claiming they have outstanding business so they have an excuse to entrap them. And they have a history of interrogations that go for days on end, as well as torture. Academics, pro-democracy protestors - thrown in jail for YEARS and subjected to these inhumane practices.

And for over a decade, the CCP has been throwing a religious minority into these camps to be subjected to all of this - as well as forced sterilization, forced labor and forced organ transplants.

America has inhumane detainment facilities. So does China. You can criticize both - both can exist at the same time. And yeah, it's dumb as fuck when your redneck dipshits call it "unamerican" to criticize human rights violations being perpetuated by the United States - just like it's fucking moronic to shout "sinophobia" about China's detainment facilities, and their decades of human rights violations.

It's not one or the other, TC. Both exist. Both are bad. Both can be criticized in the same breath, and they can be focused on individually for the things they individually do terribly. That doesn't make us hypocrites, and it doesn't wash the blood off of Xi Jinping's hands. Fuck him, fuck the CCP and fuck anyone who denies the existence of those camps. The people of China, majority and minority populations alike, deserve better than the scum that heads their government.

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Topicaustralian children show pre sjw days
MrMallard
02/18/21 2:09:35 AM
#14
You realise these are outtakes, right?

These clips weren't in the final product shown to children.

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TopicTed Cruz travelling to Cancun while Texas is getting fucked
MrMallard
02/18/21 1:59:36 AM
#61
RoadDoggDX posted...
Good. I'd say something about the plane but I already have my main on a Warn thanks to Rush Limbaugh.
Rush Limbaugh took a lot of people with him

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Topic$150 for Mass Effect Legendary Cache, does not come with the game
MrMallard
02/17/21 11:09:47 PM
#8
It's interesting, but I wouldn't pay $150 for it even with the game. It's all a bunch of cheap shit I have no use for.

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TopicPortland Police defend trash
MrMallard
02/17/21 10:59:05 PM
#57
AngelsNAirwav3s posted...
There are tons and tons of lawsuits from people who have gotten food poisoning after eating food from a store or restaurant, what are you even talking about
How about out of a dumpster?

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TopicLiterally nothing new on Switch until the end of June
MrMallard
02/17/21 10:41:55 PM
#6
What do you mean? New games come out on the Switch almost daily

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TopicToday's Nintendo direct really showed a big problem with modern Nintendo
MrMallard
02/17/21 9:46:06 PM
#46
Gwynevere posted...
We didn't see a single mention of Donkey Kong, Kirby, FZero, Mother, Star Fox, Chibi Robo, Metroid, Kid Icarus, Game and Watch, Wario, Yoshi, etc. Hell, not even Pokemon

Nintendo has the biggest wealth of IPs of any game company out there, and all they have to show us is fucking Mario Golf and Skyward Sword HD? This is what's truly upsetting about Nintendo shutting down fan projects. They'll sit on IPs that people love for years, sometimes decades, doing nothing with them, but wont allow fans to enjoy them via their own creations. It's truly mind boggling
First of all, Mario Golf is awesome, so shit your mouth

Combativeness aside - I genuinely love Mario Golf, and I'm really looking forward to this new one. It's not a huge disappointment to everyone because you personally don't like Mario Golf, TC.

Secondly, this direct also had Zelda, Splatoon and Monster Hunter. While I agree that IPs like F-Zero, Metroid and Donkey Kong don't see as much screentime as other Nintendo IPs, it wasn't as huge of a waste as you seem to think.

Lastly, you're really stretching in your list of IPs. Game and Watch stuff has been relegated to Wario microgames for decades at best - and they dusted the IP off for a physical Super Mario Bros. collectible system just recently. Chibi Robo has like three games, and the only one that most fans seem to like was from Nintendo's least profitable era of gaming. I don't think it's even an in-house IP. The last time they announced a DK game, people were pissed it wasn't Metroid. There was no way, short of announcing a new game in every fan favorite franchise, that this direct (or any other) was going to meet fan expectations.

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TopicPortland Police defend trash
MrMallard
02/17/21 9:18:29 PM
#35
More proof that we have enough food to go around, most of it just gets wasted.

"but they have to worry about liability!" - these people are eating trash. Once it hits the dumpster, it shouldn't be the store's problem any more. That's why dumpster divers started dumpster diving - to make use of perfectly fine food or products that were being thrown away, to get use out of something deemed useless and without worth. If nothing else, to roll the dice to see if they can prevent unnecessary waste.

Now it's not even a grey area to take something deemed trash. Electronics are smashed so no-one can use them, even if they're perfectly fine. Clothes are cut into ribbons. Dumpsters are padlocked so no-one can get into them. Dumpster diving went from being a grey area to being outright criminalized.

This store wasn't getting any use out of that food. Granted, the food was at risk of being spoiled. But once they throw it out, they shouldn't have any say in what happens to it. They don't benefit from it in any way whether someone takes it out of a dumpster or whether it's taken to the dump. And in return, they shouldn't be considered liable for any misfortune that comes from someone eating some spoiled meat out of a dumpster.

It's a better arrangement than pouring bleach over salvageable food to deter people, or from calling the fucking police to defend a dumpster of viable food that they deemed worthless by disposing of it.

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TopicList characters you liked that EVERYONE else hated
MrMallard
02/17/21 7:59:00 PM
#48
I don't mind Hope's arc in Final Fantasy 13. It's been a while, but isn't one of the main complaints that Hope tries to stab Snow after he saves them both from the cops or whatever? Hate doesn't disappear because someone does you a solid. It doesn't matter if the person you hate doesn't realise or understand why you hate them. The pain Hope felt over his mother's death led to a desire to kill Snow for it, and it took time for him to mature and look past that.

I think Hope was realistic in that sense. He didn't comprehend that his mother gave her life to the cause, and he attributed blame to Snow in response. He should have known better, but he didn't because he was a traumatised kid who watched his mother die. After being validated by Lightning - and subsequently trying to get talked out of it by Lightning once she had her own character growth - Hope steeled himself to kill Snow out of hate. I don't think that's as cringe as everyone makes it out to be.

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TopicBayonetta 3. Metroid Prime 4. SMTV. Breath of the Wild 2. Where art thou?
MrMallard
02/17/21 7:49:00 PM
#13
The big mystery for me is Metroid Prime 4. I wanna know what's up with that. I feel like it'll be a launch title for the Nintendo Switch XL or whwtever

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TopicNintendo Direct thoughts
MrMallard
02/17/21 7:41:39 PM
#1
Pyra was an interesting choice for Smash. I haven't played Xenoblade Chronicles 2, but the trailer looked nice and I think she has a lot of character. Couldn't be happier that it wasn't Geno, lmao

I'm curious about what No More Heroes fans think of the third game having aliens. Suda games are all pretty weird, so I imagine most folks are like "sweet, more weirdness", but still.

I fucking love Mario Golf. This new game looks great, I love how the new Speed Golf game mode looks. I love that you can use your Miis and level them up. It looks like a great golf game, and I'm going to be picking this one up.

Those Famicom mystery games look pretty cool. Interesting retro throwback. I'm also interested in that game by the Danganronpa devs - it looks cute, but I feel like it's gonna be pretty fucked up in places too.

I dunno if anyone's raging about the Capcom arcade game being a DLC fest, because they did the same thing on PS3. They give you a game for free and you have to buy the rest. If anyone thought they were getting a slew of old games for free, that's on them.

Ninja Gaiden collection is cool. I like that Hyrule Warriors is getting DLC, hopefully it'll be comparable to the first Hyrule Warriors game in time. I wanna beat the first one and then move onto a version of Age of Calamity with comparable content. I understand that the first game has a fuckton of content, and that for Age of Calamity to have that amount of content is kind of ridiculous, but if there's still an impressive amount of content to sink my teeth into - comparable, not exactly equal - I'm going to be a very happy camper. Unless Persona 5 Strikers burns me out on Musou games.

What's the deal with that Stubbs the Zombie game? I kinda wanna buy it and share it with one of my friends, it seems really quirky and fun.

Interesting choice to port Legend of Mana and SaGa Frontier. It really is the age of PS1 ports and remasters. Not a fan of these types of action RPGs, but Frontier looks cool and I'd love to play it if it has more turn-based combat instead of real-time stuff like the Mana games.

My understanding is that people take issue with Skyward Sword's waggle controls. With them adding a controller option, you would think that people would have died down about the game a little bit. But people are still up in arms about it being the worst Zelda game. What's especially funny is that rumours have been flying around since last year, and people have been going "Skyward Sword when" - now it's announced, people are acting like this was a deliberate act of malice designed to blindside Zelda fans expecting BOTW2 news.

Honestly, since it has a control scheme that doesn't rely on motion controls, I'm more likely to give Skyward Sword a go. The character design can be pretty ugly, as is custom for a lot of 3D Zelda games (TP's muscle baby being a prime example), but I love how the scenery looks and I love that soft bloom that everything has. I don't know if I'm gonna get it, but I would think that this would be the same sort of redemption that Twilight Princess got. Like let's face it, even though Link is especially ugly in this game, the designs for Fi, Ghirahim and proto-Ganondorf fuck hard. The scenery looks gorgeous. I hope this prompts people to re-evaluate Skyward Sword, especially in regards to the seeds it planted that sprouted in BotW.

And also - Eiji Nomura said that BotW2 news should be coming down the pipeline this year. That's progress. I understand Zelda games tend to get delayed a lot, Skyward Sword and BotW took years to come out, but I'm holding out hope for BotW2 news. They haven't mentioned it at all since the teaser trailer, and Nomura addressed it directly in this Direct. I feel secure in saying that we'll be hearing about Breath of the Wild 2 by the end of the year.

That being said, I'm a newly minted Zelda fan who's not used to the Zelda cycle, so take my optimism with a grain of salt.

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TopicRush Limbaugh has died.
MrMallard
02/17/21 7:12:19 PM
#354
Cool. Not gonna mourn a dude who would read off a list of AIDS victims and play celebratory music over it. Rush Limbaugh was scum, he hurt a lot of people. His legacy is that of bigotry and hate, and the consequences of his actions continue to hurt people to this day.

I feel bad for his family, because losing a loved one is never easy. I hope his kids are okay. Other than that, I find it really hard to feel bad, and I'm not going to make an effort to do so.


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TopicCome onnnnnnnn Geno for Smash tomorrow!! >_>
MrMallard
02/17/21 11:18:39 AM
#39
bruh you punch a trans woman in kiwami, lmao

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TopicCome onnnnnnnn Geno for Smash tomorrow!! >_>
MrMallard
02/17/21 11:15:34 AM
#37
Kiryu Kazama for smash

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TopicHow do girls pee if they don't have balls?
MrMallard
02/17/21 11:13:42 AM
#16
God started this

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TopicHow do girls pee if they don't have balls?
MrMallard
02/17/21 10:58:32 AM
#5
Balls and ovaries are the same thing, they just produce opposite elements of a human life. So girl pee is stored in the ovaries, since functionally they're basically just lady balls

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TopicCome onnnnnnnn Geno for Smash tomorrow!! >_>
MrMallard
02/17/21 10:53:23 AM
#31
I would pay Sakurai a cool 50,000 in beer money if Geno showed up in a trailer and got burned into ash by Fire Man from Mega Man.

Robot Master character when, each of the different costumes can be a different fan favorite robot master.

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TopicOlympic silver medalist accused of being drug kingpin
MrMallard
02/17/21 10:36:35 AM
#5
Hayame Zero posted...
"Ice" is Aussie slang for meth.
My understanding is that ice is a form of meth. Like you have meth, crystal meth, speed and ice. They're all derived from amphetamines, but they're different products by virtue of their constitution and their effects.

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TopicNintendo Direct @ 5PM ET. YouTube Stream.
MrMallard
02/17/21 10:33:26 AM
#4
It's 2.30 am in Australia. How long until the stream - half an hour?

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TopicDisney is turning Cruella into a hot goth girl
MrMallard
02/16/21 8:53:20 PM
#28
SSJKirby posted...
jokes on you she was always hot


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TopicE32005 is SUSPENDED!
MrMallard
02/16/21 8:46:29 PM
#23
What did he do?

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Topickg88222 is SUSPENDED
MrMallard
02/16/21 8:42:15 PM
#19
This dude has a calcified pineal gland

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TopicSo the announcement tomorrow is a Wario game right??
MrMallard
02/16/21 11:29:24 AM
#6
Wario Land Collection when

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TopicI think I'm over my alcohol addiction
MrMallard
02/16/21 11:18:54 AM
#1
It's been 2 months since I had a drink. I was bemoaning my sobriety like three days ago, but everything seemed to click into place and I feel like I can be okay without alcohol now.

There are three things that have led to everything clicking.

* I've been re-evaluating my relationships after an amicable rejection. The woman I confessed to is a friend of mine and she means a lot to me, so I wanted to get back to a place of normalcy by re-establishing our friendship in my mind and getting back to the root of why I like being around her. But during this process, I started thinking about how I feel around my best friend, and I honestly felt like I haven't been comfortable around him for years. Spending time with him now is like walking on broken glass, the amount of rage I have to choke back whenever I see him or hear him talk is painful - and I realised that one reason I was drinking so much was that it was the only way to cope with being his friend.

* I realised that since I've stopped drinking, I've had a voice. Without alcohol to numb whatever I'm feeling at the moment, my only options are to face my problems in a constructive way or to collapse under the weight of the world. So I've developed healthier coping mechanisms to survive. I speak to the people in my life who make me feel safe and secure. I'm vulnerable with them. I've never been truly vulnerable with any real-life person in my adult life. And now I'm in an environment where I feel safe doing that.

* I remembered this quote from Boston Legal the other day - when you're an addict, you get mentally stuck at the age you were when you started using. I spent years using alcohol as a crutch, with any meaningful discourse in my life coming from short outbursts when I couldn't handle being treated in a certain way for any longer. Since I've stopped drinking, my life feels like it's in motion again - so this quote has really resonated with me.

I've made threads trying to justify the idea of me drinking again for stress relief. But I realise how stupid that is now. I realise how stunted I became due to alcohol abuse, and it's through removing alcohol from my life that I've been able to face some of the immediate issues in my life that are making me unhappy.

Some time in the last week or two, I had an episode where I couldn't see a future with me in it. I knew it existed, I had no plans to die any time soon - and I still don't - but I simply felt like there was no worthwhile future for anyone around me with me in it. I could see a happy future where I wasn't there.

Now, I feel more hopeful about myself than I have in years. I think it could be a slight manic uptick on my part - I'll be sad again in the future, I have no doubt. But with everything that's happened in the past few days, I can't help but feel like I've overcome something tremendous. I don't need to drink to be happy - I have people in my life that make me happy without having to numb myself. And I realise that there are people in my life that I literally had to numb myself to be around.

The next step is to hopefully get some antidepressants. I filled out a DASS test with a clinical psychologist, and it indicated that I was in the 87th percentile of people with depression. I'm now filling out a mood chart, and it has been grim so far. The only day Where I haven't indicated any depression at all was during an all nighter, which left me so agitated I ended up going to bed out of frustration. It's a process.

But I'm not affected by alcohol any more. I'm past that. And emotionally, I feel healthier than I've ever been.

I'm done with drinking. It's over.

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I can feel it in my bones, I'm gonna spend another year alone.
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TopicThere's a Nintendo direct tomorrow Smash bros is the headliner
MrMallard
02/16/21 10:00:52 AM
#17
Drpooplol posted...
How do people still give a shit about Smash Bros, I have no idea.
I like seeing which character gets to bung around with Mario and Solid Snake next. I don't give a fuck about the game.

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TopicI saw Mad Max: Fury Road for the first time. What a fucking masterpiece
MrMallard
02/16/21 9:55:53 AM
#35
clyde_frog posted...
I dont understand the love for it. I mean yeah the filling and pie crust is next to none, but at the end of the day its just a really good pie.


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TopicI saw Mad Max: Fury Road for the first time. What a fucking masterpiece
MrMallard
02/16/21 9:54:51 AM
#34
kelemvor posted...
Kinda skipping down the thread to avoid spoilers, so I apologize if this was already asked.

Is this a good stand alone movie or do I need to watch the old Mel Gibson movies first?
@kelemvor - I saw it without seeing any of the Mel Gibson ones. It's a great movie on its own merits.

My understanding is that the Mad Max movies are all very different and more-or-less unconnected.


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TopicIf I could teleport i'd teleport my cold ass to Australia.
MrMallard
02/16/21 7:39:39 AM
#11
Good call, it's extremely humid rn. Feels like I'm in a 360 degree hot tub where you can breathe the water tbh

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