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Jeff_AKA_Snoopy posted...

I have been thinking recently that I'm not only losing my partner but also my best friend. I'm far more scared to lose my best friend over my partner, you know?

Big time. But you'll make it man.

Lorenzo_2003 posted...

Well, I appreciated it at least and I think others will too.

That part about starting over being scary is especially true for me. I think TC is struggling with that as well because theyre not there yet and it can make a person feel guilty about their expectations and overall feelings. Ive seen peer pressure even be a part of that when the grieving person didnt grieve the way everyone expected them to, which caused some drama. That becomes, or can become, an extra layer of guilt or fear. Ehh, its a rough situation even if you prep yourself to handle the loss.

Yes, very true.

Jeff_AKA_Snoopy posted...

I feel like I'm doing OK all things considered.

I'm heading into work daily, I'm still putting in good work and everything like that. Emotionally, spiritually, logically, I feel I am prepared to be a widow, all things considered. I haven't seen my psychologist in a little bit now (I only get 500 dollars a year covered and each session is 200) but he really helped me to work through some shame and whatnot I had with some of my feelings.

It is true that I will lose the love of my life and that it will be devastating. It is true that will fundamentally change my life in negative and positive ways. It is OK to be ready to give up that care giver role that I have had to take on for the last five years or so. It is appropriate for me to prepare myself for what life is going to look like when my wife passes away (not if, when).

It is also true that I have been mourning the loss of who my wife was for some time. Not to say I do not love the woman she is, but her health conditions have changed the trajectory of who she would have become had that not been the case. I've been a primary care giver for a disabled wife for many years now and I've only in the past few months allowed myself to be comfortable discussing how difficult it has been on myself.

When I was seeing my psychologist last year I felt a lot of self hatred and shame for having any sort of negative feelings about the situation. I would always downplay how difficult it is to be in MY position by defaulting to how terrible it is for my wife to live it. I'm far more comfortable now in expressing how difficult it is to be a primary care giver for a disabled partner. This is not how I envisioned my mid to late 30's, and it can be true that it is both a burden, and a burden I choose to take on to help my partner complete her journey towards laying down her own burdens.

Both of those things can and ARE true, and it took a good amount of therapy for me to give myself the opportunity to express that and feel it.

I mourn daily the loss of an idealized future that we foresaw together. I mourn the loss of the person my wife and I wanted her to become as we aged together. I am a very strong person and for lack of a better, healthier word... I can take it. And I will until my wife gets MAID and is allowed to die with dignity.

What that will look like once we have approval on both sides? I have no idea. Focus on helping my wife cross the finish line. Celebrate an amazing dozen plus years together, mourn the loss of my wife and best friend, and then start the journey anew.

You're a great guy and devout husband. Hoping, praying the best for you. <3

If you dig up an ant hill with a shovel and put it on top of a different ant hill, the ants from the different hills will fight to the death.

Imit8m3 posted...

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I've always wondered that.

John Milton was blind and poor when he wrote Paradise Lost (1658-63), published 1667.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Milton#Paradise_Lost

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/8/5/3/AABQgxAAEJ1V.jpg
Milton Dictating to His Daughter, Henry Fuseli (1794)

"Milton's magnum opus, the blank-verse epic poem Paradise Lost, was composed by the blind and impoverished Milton from 1658 to 1664 (first edition), with small but significant revisions published in 1674 (second edition). As a blind poet, Milton dictated his verse to a series of aides in his employ. It has been argued that the poem reflects his personal despair at the failure of the Revolution yet affirms an ultimate optimism in human potential. Some literary critics have argued that Milton encoded many references to his unyielding support for the "Good Old Cause""

YellowSUV posted...

Some PlayStation 1 games were printed until 2019.

That's crazy.

Imit8m3 posted...

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/3/1/6/AAZgIXAAEIuc.jpg

Some last eternity if you die from alcohol poisioning.

Geroge C. Scott and Marlon Brando both turned down their Oscar wins for Best Actor.

Tanks are called tanks because when they were first being brought to the fronts in the first world wars they were used the word "TANK" on the crates they shipped them in to hide the nature of what kind of artillery was actually in there.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tank#Etymology

"On 24 December 1915, a meeting took place of the Inter-Departmental Conference (including representatives of the Director of Naval Construction's Committee, the Admiralty, the Ministry of Munitions, and the War Office). Its purpose was to discuss the progress of the plans for what were described as "Caterpillar Machine Gun Destroyers or Land Cruisers." In his autobiography, Albert Gerald Stern (Secretary to the Landship Committee, later head of the Mechanical Warfare Supply Department) says that at that meeting:

Mr. (Thomas J.) Macnamara (M.P., and Parliamentary and Financial Secretary to the Admiralty) then suggested, for secrecy's sake, to change the title of the Landship Committee. Mr. d'Eyncourt agreed that it was very desirable to retain secrecy by all means, and proposed to refer to the vessel as a "Water Carrier". In Government offices, committees and departments are always known by their initials. For this reason I, as Secretary, considered the proposed title totally unsuitable.[a] In our search for a synonymous term, we changed the word "Water Carrier" to "Tank," and became the "Tank Supply" or "T.S." Committee. That is how these weapons came to be called Tanks."

YugiNoob posted...

My favorite channel reacting to the Damn That's Interesting reddit caught my eye with this armor lol

https://youtu.be/CuXdNgNV_i4?t=515

Pretty cool. I really enjoyed the deal about the McDonalds tree seed.

Mike the Headless Chicken

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mike_the_Headless_Chicken

Mike the Headless Chicken (April 20, 1945 March 17, 1947)[1] was a male Wyandotte chicken that lived for 18 months after his head had been cut off. After the loss of his head, Mike achieved national fame until his death in March 1947. In Fruita, Colorado, an annual "Mike the Headless Chicken Day" is held every May.

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Blue_Thunder posted...

Every name for a road that you see on maps has a specific meaning; several are listed below:

Road: Any path that connects between 2 points.

Street: A road with buildings on both sides.

Avenue: A road that generally runs perpendicular to streets and have trees/buildings on both sides.

Boulevard: A wide street with trees and other vegetation on one or both sides and, often, a median to divide traffic.

Court: A street ending in a loop or a circle, aka a cul-de-sac.

Crescent: A winding, curved road that typically attaches to another road at each end.

Drive: A long road that winds around a geographical feature such as a river or mountain.

Lane: A narrow road that typically leads to a residential zone. Lanes are often found in rural areas.

Place: A road or street with a dead end that's not a loop or circle.

Terrace: A street following the upper portion of a slope.

Way: A small street branching off a road. These passages are usually short and often feature a dead end.

Very cool. Ok, I got one. Hold on...

Never forget World War I and consequently World War II was all started because of the assassination of one man, Archduke Franz Ferdinand...

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Archduke_Franz_Ferdinand_of_Austria

The Sisters of Mercy - Nine While Nine

https://youtu.be/QtBQsfsURGo

Alexander O'Neal - If You Were Here Tonight

https://youtu.be/Qdo-M2CJp20

.p

Talking Heads - This Must Be The Place

https://youtu.be/o9gK2fOq4MY

The Cure - Boys Don't Cry

https://youtu.be/vA_q1kKuo9o

Starship - We Built This City

https://youtu.be/K1b8AhIsSYQ

Michael Jackson - Smooth Criminal

https://youtu.be/Y0pYGmfhaGc?t=69

Lionel Richie - All Night Long

https://youtu.be/nqAvFx3NxUM

Culture Club - Karma Chameleon

https://youtu.be/JmcA9LIIXWw

Ask the Magic 8 Ball, only way to be sure...

https://www.horoscope.com/us/games/divination/game-magic-8-ball.aspx

Anony1125 posted...

man I should have just hidden my money under my mattress
this isn't working at all the way I thought it would

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/9/3/7/AAO7dSAADvPh.png

That's sobering.

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Is that game updated for PS5 graphics?

The Misfits - All Hell Breaks Loose

https://youtu.be/c9G4LQ9H_50

Fuck yeah, shit.

It's sad.

Make it another

The Pretenders - Back On The Chain Gang HQ Music/Video

https://youtu.be/CK3uf5V0pDA

Cyberpunk (pc)
God Of War (pc)
MGS V (pc)
Death Stranding (pc)

You?

CE_gonna_CE posted...

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/2/6/2/AAb05zAADu1W.jpg

Hehehe, for real.

Just got a six pack of Corona.

Guns are here to stay.

RATT - Round and Round (2007 Remaster)

https://youtu.be/UzGhTCAPD_4

Depeche Mode - Never Let Me Down Again (2006 Remaster)

https://youtu.be/aOt0bUAzqD4

AWESOMe!

Very sorry. Hope things go as easy as possible.

NFL logic: "We need better helmets"

https://www.cnn.com/videos/us/2022/09/30/hurricane-ian-devastation-lee-county-berman-ac360-sot-vpx.cnn/video/playlists/top-news-videos/

The reporter asks how long will it take to get get back to normal...I'm thinking are they even going to go back...

It better.

Scohen posted...

why is she the best person to play that flute, IYO?

Take 30 seconds...name me someone better....

That's what I thought.

Welcome, friend. Nah, I think most people around here are generally nice to newcomers. You just got to speak up and engage a little. This place is like a little electronic byob dive bar, and that's why we come. So let your freak flag fly.

If you ask a focus group of clowns their opinion on something, you're going to get a bunch of clown opinions. I can't even think who better to play that flute.

It's the only way that his inherent nature can blend with the misfit of his attorney profession.

Youse wrong for dat. And who the hell are the 16 people that said yes...?

Way back in the late 90s, they made these short cartoons on the net based on that prison show Oz on HBO, but they did it with the real animals from the Wizard of Oz story in prison. Shit was hilarious. And I have looked for that shit...it is lost to time, or I just don't know the right keyword, damn sure don't know the title.