Board 8 > Ever thought that if you were just a little bit insane you'd murder someone?

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I have. I had to inform this person of such. There was a lot of yelling, mostly on my end. But I felt better.

Not better better. Bad enough that I still feel more than a bit on edge right now.

Letting it all out occasionally feels good but I also don't feel good. Conflicting and such.

Being sane sucks but I am a rational person that will continue for the forever to stay sane.

Also sorry for being vague b8 but I don't immediately feel like getting too personal. I've told segments of the story surrounding this here at times so I don't think anything is really a secret but trying not to rehash it in my brain too much. Mostly just trying to let out a little bit of my emotions a bit. Thanks for being a little bit of an outlet b8.

Also sorry the topic title is a bit ambiguously morbid. To be clear, don't murder. My mind has simply rationalized that murder at some point in the last 30 years would have made my life a lot easier. Unfortunately I am a rational person that knows that easier does not mean better. So no murder. Occasional repressed scorn that must be let out every however many years.

Thanks for sharing. I think it's good that you're acknowledging your dark thoughts. Maybe not outright murder but I've definitely considered physically harming someone. I hope you have outlets to temper or channel that energy.

I am a little bit insane and I haven't. I feel I want to sometimes, but it's just anger.

sadly, i know the feeling

from one former crazy-feeling person to one still in the thick of it, the only actual release valve is to alter your life situation such that you don't interact with the person anymore. you won't get to feel sane and healthy until you do- your body is literally crying out to you for change

i don't want to hear about why that's currently impossible- you don't have to convince me of anything

people do crazier stuff than walking away from responsibilities they didn't create

keep trucking along, keep keeping your cool, and keep your mind and heart open to other ways of life

I thought I was almost out of it years ago. Then life went and pulled the rug out from under me at the last minute.

Now the hardest part of this may be convincing my brain it is okay to relax and sleep.

Once I got to sleep I think I was fine. But now that I'm up I realize I just wanted to stay in bed for a good while. Oh well.

world of warcraft is not that serious

Not murder, but kleptomania. Id be stealing shit all the time and even now I have no interest in doing it but cant help but notice situations where it would be super easy to steal

Yeah don't do that.

This is a weird fucking topic

nah. when i get really mad at someone i just want to completely remove them from my life and never speak to them again

Not like anyone I know personally. But when you see all the injustice in the world and all the people that just get away with perpetuating it and never face any consequences, it's hard not to wish for retribution.

I am VeryInsane and the only thought I've had is myself

(Don't worry, I don't feel that way anymore)

VeryInsane posted...

I am VeryInsane and the only thought I've had is myself

(Don't worry, I don't feel that way anymore)

I want you to know your name actually did pop into my mind while I was making this topic.

Seek professional help

How would you do it?

I kind of understand TC, cause the shit some people get away with makes me wish I had the power to decide who lives and who dies sometimes.

I would never do it because I think taking another's life is the worst thing possible, but sure I've thought about what it'd be like. I definitely wouldn't be able to live with it.

i'm not completely sane as is and no. i lose my cool often enough but no matter how angry i get, i never get the urge to physically attack people.