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Sorry for a sob topic, but I'm kinda lit rn and feeling pretty damn down. It's been 4 years since my dad ate a bullet, and yet I still get super emotional about it, to the point where I got down on myself for still being so susceptible to this shit.

Idk if the booze and drugs help or or hurt, but whatever at least it makes me dumber and not think about it.

Fuck suicide.

I'm sorry to hear about your dad, but it's normal to feel that way even if years have passed.

I had a good cry late last year thinking about a family member who died almost 20 years ago.

party_animal07 posted...

I'm sorry to hear about your dad, but it's normal to feel that way even if years have passed.

I had a good cry late last year thinking about a family member who died almost 20 years ago.

Thanks man, and yeah I know the shit comes in waves, as im sure you know. Random ass triggers of memories, and then all of a sudden you're right back in the dumps and the hole in your chest is wide open again.

I'm sorry about you dad, understandably not an easy thing to come to terms with.

If it's any condolence death of a loved one is always hard to emotionally process regardless of how it occurred. There are people who spend their entire life affected by a loved one's death who passed on of natural causes. Obviously, the suddenness of something like suicide has its unique trauma, but I guess my point is there's no shame in dwelling on a loss like that. Pretty much everyone does.

Appreciate it, yeah I just don't want to be one of those people that ends up making their whole personality off loss if you get what I'm saying.

Eh idk I'm sure tomorrow will be a better day, unless my girl forces me to see Morbius... She has a crush on Leto. Which tbf, doesn't everyone?

HovaRex posted...

Thanks man, and yeah I know the shit comes in waves, as im sure you know. Random ass triggers of memories, and then all of a sudden you're right back in the dumps and the hole in your chest is wide open again.

I know everyone is different, but letting myself cry is what helps me. I grew up a bit emotionally stunted so crying is a big deal.

RIP to your dad. Been nearly six years since my middle school best friend decided to jump off a bridge. Still think about him daily.

As bad as suicide is for surviving loved ones, it's better than the alternative of not having that option to escape your misery if you decide you have to.

party_animal07 posted...

I know everyone is different, but letting myself cry is what helps me. I grew up a bit emotionally stunted so crying is a big deal.

Yeah I feel like I've been repressing it pretty bad, but I've cried my fair share too. Also I've noticed I get teary eyed at that campy stuff about family in like Holiday movie and shit like that.

Solid Snake07 posted...

I'm sorry about you dad, understandably not an easy thing to come to terms with.

If it's any condolence death of a loved one is always hard to emotionally process regardless of how it occurred. There are people who spend their entire life affected by a loved one's death who passed on of natural causes. Obviously, the suddenness of something like suicide has its unique trauma, but I guess my point is there's no shame in dwelling on a loss like that. Pretty much everyone does.

Thank you, and yeah it's the suicide sucks cause of all the unanswerable questions obviously. Really though it's the violence of it that's hardest to deal with at least for me

SomeLikeItHoth posted...

RIP to your dad. Been nearly six years since my middle school best friend decided to jump off a bridge. Still think about him daily.

Thank you, and RIP to your friend as well.

Giblet_Enjoyer posted...

As bad as suicide is for surviving loved ones, it's better than the alternative of not having that option to escape your misery if you decide you have to.

I do agree. His autopsy actually revealed an undiagnosed cancer. So his choices are at least something I can understand even if I can't condone it.

HovaRex posted...

I do agree. His autopsy actually revealed an undiagnosed cancer. So his choices are at least something I can understand even if I can't condone it.

Damn, sorry dude.

Fucking cancer. Its taken too many people. Not sure what your medical accessibility is, so maybe your Dad was worried about the financial side of it, as well as the physical. I knew an older lady a while ago who didnt bother with the treatments because it was advanced and she wanted to go out on her own terms. Things like that make ya sad and mad too because we havent beaten these diseases yet.

Edit: I just realized the undiagnosed part.

HovaRex posted...

I do agree. His autopsy actually revealed an undiagnosed cancer. So his choices are at least something I can understand even if I can't condone it.

As bad as cancer is,

some people don't want to live and no one should be forced to do so against their will

it's sad for their loved ones but they should try to understand and respect the decision of the person that decided to end their own life

Idk if the booze and drugs help or or hurt.

Please dont self medicate, that will only lead you down a self destructive path, please get professional help.

*hugs TC*

Sorry bro

Sending hugs and kisses your way TC. It's okay to be emotional about this. It's okay to be angry, mad or anything else. And it's never easy saying goodbye to a loved one, especially in such a way.

I lost one of my best friends and my mentor to suicide just last year.

I still probably havent fully processed it, but I know that every so often I feel a soul-crushing desire to drown my pain with copious amounts of alcohol.

Ive essentially given up drinking because Im afraid I wont be able to stop if I start again.

Suicide leaves such a profound sorrow behind, and it leaves loved ones with so much guilt. You know theres probably nothing you couldve done to change it, but.. part of you will always think you couldve.

And that sucks.

Keep your head up, TC.

Suicide is traumatic, don't feel bad for still feeling the aftershocks of what happened. That shit leaves a lasting impression on people.

We're not invincible stone walls that can weather any storm. Traumatic shit like suicide physically changes your brain chemistry and makes it harder to recover from it. It's a legitimate struggle.

I'm not gonna tell you that you shouldn't beat yourself up over it, but only because I understand that it will probably happen regardless of what you want and I don't mean to judge or hold you to a standard I shouldn't if that's the case. Rather, I want to let you know that whatever you feel about your dad is valid, and this is a legitimate struggle that could last anywhere from another week to the rest of your life - but which can be overcome at best, and managed at worst.

I don't know you, but I believe in you and your ability to heal. The most important thing to remember is that there's no time limit on healing.

I really appreciate all the kind words. Feeling alot better in the sunshine. Thank you fam

My condolences. Fuck suicide, indeed.

Ten years ago, my brother died with a belt around his neck. :(

I have dealt with my fair share. Saw most of them coming. But the ones that really suck are the ones that come out of left field. No signs, no letter no anything.

I'm sorry to hear about that. It sounds like your emotions and words are still really raw about it. That's understandable. It might help to start therapy about it or continue it, especially since you're using substances to deal with feelings related to it and possibly other things.