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WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 12:29:47 PM #1:	I was doing alright for a good while; antsy from not hanging out with people and stressed by the state of the world and everything, sure, but it was manageable. The past 2 weeks though, between the state of the world and my own personal struggles with my career, love life, and everything else, my anxiety and depression have hit a boiling point. Have barely been able to sleep at all, and when I do manage to sleep my dreams are super depressing and I just wake up in even more of a funk than before. Last night my depression hit me the hardest that it has in a very long time, and some of the not-so-great thoughts I've worked so hard to move past started trickling back in, and like, god damn, I thought I'd moved past that shit on my mental health journey a long time ago, and now I just feel like I'm backsliding. I just have this huge sense of isolation and loneliness that I can't shake, even though the past couple weeks I have actually been hanging out with people a little bit again, but it only helps in the moment, soon as they leave I'm back to the paranoia and shit. I just feel very stuck in every single aspect of my life right now and it's not a good feeling. Alright, that's the end of my sad rant, love ya CE. <3 --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941477662] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>I was doing alright for a good while; antsy from not hanging out with people and stressed by the state of the world and everything, sure, but it was manageable. The past 2 weeks though, between the state of the world and my own personal struggles with my career, love life, and everything else, my anxiety and depression have hit a boiling point. Have barely been able to sleep at all, and when I do manage to sleep my dreams are super depressing and I just wake up in even more of a funk than before. Last night my depression hit me the hardest that it has in a very long time, and some of the not-so-great thoughts I've worked so hard to move past started trickling back in, and like, god damn, I thought I'd moved past that shit on my mental health journey a long time ago, and now I just feel like I'm backsliding. I just have this huge sense of isolation and loneliness that I can't shake, even though the past couple weeks I have actually been hanging out with people a little bit again, but it only helps in the moment, soon as they leave I'm back to the paranoia and shit. I just feel very stuck in every single aspect of my life right now and it's not a good feeling. Alright, that's the end of my sad rant, love ya CE. <3 </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
NoMeLx22x 06/30/20 12:32:19 PM #2:	This is almost word for word what I'm dealing with in my life right now. And it's been really rough for me lately. I've started therapy and I'm 3 weeks in hoping to get some good out of it and try to get my life on track. If nothing else just know that you're not alone in this man. And it's always worth living and working through it cause eventually we're going to come out better on the other side. --- Sigs are for losers. <cite>NoMeLx22x posted [p:941477787] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>This is almost word for word what I'm dealing with in my life right now. And it's been really rough for me lately. I've started therapy and I'm 3 weeks in hoping to get some good out of it and try to get my life on track. If nothing else just know that you're not alone in this man. And it's always worth living and working through it cause eventually we're going to come out better on the other side. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
SocksForWoksMAX 06/30/20 12:33:26 PM #3:	Being unfairly modderated all these years makes me annoyed as well. --- stop the riots / destroy communism <cite>SocksForWoksMAX posted [p:941477846] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Being unfairly modderated all these years makes me annoyed as well. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
sLaCkEr408___RJ 06/30/20 12:34:40 PM #4:	Tldr, but from the topic title and few words I did see, I think we're similar tc. <cite>sLaCkEr408___RJ posted [p:941477899] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Tldr, but from the topic title and few words I did see, I think we're similar tc. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
DoctorPiranha3 06/30/20 12:35:57 PM #5:	It's a very terrible year <cite>DoctorPiranha3 posted [p:941477966] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>It's a very terrible year</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 12:37:15 PM #6:	NoMeLx22x posted... This is almost word for word what I'm dealing with in my life right now. And it's been really rough for me lately. I've started therapy and I'm 3 weeks in hoping to get some good out of it and try to get my life on track. If nothing else just know that you're not alone in this man. And it's always worth living and working through it cause eventually we're going to come out better on the other side. I've been seriously considering getting into therapy, my biggest concern is just cost; don't have a ton of money right now, and I've heard so many horror stories of any decent therapist being ridiculously expensive and a lot of insurance not covering mental health stuff without a doctor referral. I need to do more research into it though, I think it could be really helpful, cause shit's been rough lately. I appreciate it man. I usually try to keep positive, and I keep trying to tell myself that shit will get better, but the past few days in particular have really wrecked me emotionally and it's been a struggle. --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941478023] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>NoMeLx22x posted... </cite> <quote>This is almost word for word what I'm dealing with in my life right now. And it's been really rough for me lately. I've started therapy and I'm 3 weeks in hoping to get some good out of it and try to get my life on track. If nothing else just know that you're not alone in this man. And it's always worth living and working through it cause eventually we're going to come out better on the other side.</quote>I've been seriously considering getting into therapy, my biggest concern is just cost; don't have a ton of money right now, and I've heard so many horror stories of any decent therapist being ridiculously expensive and a lot of insurance not covering mental health stuff without a doctor referral. I need to do more research into it though, I think it could be really helpful, cause shit's been rough lately. I appreciate it man. I usually try to keep positive, and I keep trying to tell myself that shit will get better, but the past few days in particular have really wrecked me emotionally and it's been a struggle. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 12:39:12 PM #7:	sLaCkEr408___RJ posted... Tldr, but from the topic title and few words I did see, I think we're similar tc. Tldr is I'm sad, lonely, my anxiety has flared up insanely bad, and my mental health feels like it's backsliding and that scares me. It's a rough time for everyone right now, shit's not great at the moment. :/ DoctorPiranha3 posted... It's a very terrible year Very much so. --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941478102] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>sLaCkEr408___RJ posted... </cite> <quote>Tldr, but from the topic title and few words I did see, I think we're similar tc.</quote>Tldr is I'm sad, lonely, my anxiety has flared up insanely bad, and my mental health feels like it's backsliding and that scares me. It's a rough time for everyone right now, shit's not great at the moment. :/ DoctorPiranha3 posted... </cite> <quote>It's a very terrible year</quote>Very much so. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
SmidgeIsntBack 06/30/20 12:39:44 PM #8:	My depression was getting pretty bad to the point that I had to go inpatient for a couple weeks. Since then though I think I've somehow managed to tighten my empathy valve enough that all the fear and anger and horror happening across the country every day isn't effecting me like it used to, though I still try to keep updated on everything. --- Podcast/Audiobook Board https://www.gamefaqs.com/boards/1364- View my ASCII art and others' at https://thenewhotness.info/ <cite>SmidgeIsntBack posted [p:941478120] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>My depression was getting pretty bad to the point that I had to go inpatient for a couple weeks. Since then though I think I've somehow managed to tighten my empathy valve enough that all the fear and anger and horror happening across the country every day isn't effecting me like it used to, though I still try to keep updated on everything. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
NoMeLx22x 06/30/20 12:42:30 PM #9:	Yeah I had a little bit of a breakdown a few days ago and am still kinda reeling from it. The therapist that I have is $75 a session which I've been doing every week until a feel the need to go every other week. It's only been three weeks and I feel slightly better but we haven't really gotten to the meat of my issues yet. The one thing I will say is you can't out a price on your mental health. So maybe call your insurance company and see if there is any mental health facilities that they cover trips for, or do some googling on therapists in your area to see prices. Or even ask around to some close friends. There's a chance that one of them is in therapy or has gone and might know of one with a decent price. You'd be surprised how many people are in therapy, just no one wants to talk about it which is a shame. --- Sigs are for losers. <cite>NoMeLx22x posted [p:941478250] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Yeah I had a little bit of a breakdown a few days ago and am still kinda reeling from it. The therapist that I have is $75 a session which I've been doing every week until a feel the need to go every other week. It's only been three weeks and I feel slightly better but we haven't really gotten to the meat of my issues yet. The one thing I will say is you can't out a price on your mental health. So maybe call your insurance company and see if there is any mental health facilities that they cover trips for, or do some googling on therapists in your area to see prices. Or even ask around to some close friends. There's a chance that one of them is in therapy or has gone and might know of one with a decent price. You'd be surprised how many people are in therapy, just no one wants to talk about it which is a shame. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
PiOverlord 06/30/20 12:43:12 PM #10:	I think this pandemic has just cemented that my life is not the path that I hoped for to put it lightly. --- Number of legendary 500 post topics: 33, 500th posts: 28; PiO ATTN: 5 RotM wins 1, LETTEN MY ARROW FLYEN TRUE <cite>PiOverlord posted [p:941478288] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>I think this pandemic has just cemented that my life is not the path that I hoped for to put it lightly. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 12:46:33 PM #11:	SmidgeIsntBack posted... My depression was getting pretty bad to the point that I had to go inpatient for a couple weeks. Since then though I think I've somehow managed to tighten my empathy valve enough that all the fear and anger and horror happening across the country every day isn't effecting me like it used to, though I still try to keep updated on everything. If it was just how shitty the world is right now, or just my own personal life shit, I think I could cope, but the fact that both have reached a terrible peak at the same time is fucking me up that I have basically nothing good to fall back on right now. I feel like I'm just starting to kill off my emotions to not feel anything about anything, and that's not a place I want to get to either. NoMeLx22x posted... Yeah I had a little bit of a breakdown a few days ago and am still kinda reeling from it. The therapist that I have is $75 a session which I've been doing every week until a feel the need to go every other week. It's only been three weeks and I feel slightly better but we haven't really gotten to the meat of my issues yet. The one thing I will say is you can't out a price on your mental health. So maybe call your insurance company and see if there is any mental health facilities that they cover trips for, or do some googling on therapists in your area to see prices. Or even ask around to some close friends. There's a chance that one of them is in therapy or has gone and might know of one with a decent price. You'd be surprised how many people are in therapy, just no one wants to talk about it which is a shame. I know I've heard some places are willing to work with low income people too, so I should look into that as well. Therapy is something I've wanted to do since high school, just never had the means or support to really reach out and actually do it. --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941478433] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>SmidgeIsntBack posted... </cite> <quote>My depression was getting pretty bad to the point that I had to go inpatient for a couple weeks. Since then though I think I've somehow managed to tighten my empathy valve enough that all the fear and anger and horror happening across the country every day isn't effecting me like it used to, though I still try to keep updated on everything.</quote>If it was just how shitty the world is right now, or just my own personal life shit, I think I could cope, but the fact that both have reached a terrible peak at the same time is fucking me up that I have basically nothing good to fall back on right now. I feel like I'm just starting to kill off my emotions to not feel anything about anything, and that's not a place I want to get to either. NoMeLx22x posted... </cite> <quote>Yeah I had a little bit of a breakdown a few days ago and am still kinda reeling from it. The therapist that I have is $75 a session which I've been doing every week until a feel the need to go every other week. It's only been three weeks and I feel slightly better but we haven't really gotten to the meat of my issues yet. The one thing I will say is you can't out a price on your mental health. So maybe call your insurance company and see if there is any mental health facilities that they cover trips for, or do some googling on therapists in your area to see prices. Or even ask around to some close friends. There's a chance that one of them is in therapy or has gone and might know of one with a decent price. You'd be surprised how many people are in therapy, just no one wants to talk about it which is a shame.</quote>I know I've heard some places are willing to work with low income people too, so I should look into that as well. Therapy is something I've wanted to do since high school, just never had the means or support to really reach out and actually do it. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Cocytus 06/30/20 12:47:06 PM #12:	Everything you can let go, let go. Liberate yourself. <cite>Cocytus posted [p:941478464] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Everything you can let go, let go. Liberate yourself. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
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WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 12:47:52 PM #14:	PiOverlord posted... I think this pandemic has just cemented that my life is not the path that I hoped for to put it lightly. That's a big part of it for me as well. I had just made a big move to a big city to try and get into filmmaking; and the second I do, every production gets shut down cause of COVID, so now I'm stuck working dead end survival jobs till things can reopen and I can actually pursue what I want to do with my life. --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941478486] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>PiOverlord posted... </cite> <quote>I think this pandemic has just cemented that my life is not the path that I hoped for to put it lightly.</quote>That's a big part of it for me as well. I had just made a big move to a big city to try and get into filmmaking; and the second I do, every production gets shut down cause of COVID, so now I'm stuck working dead end survival jobs till things can reopen and I can actually pursue what I want to do with my life. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 12:49:02 PM #15:	Cocytus posted... Everything you can let go, let go. Liberate yourself. Imma become a monk and hermit in the woods, and commune with nature. It'll be great. [LFAQs-redacted-quote] <3 I know things will get better eventually, and that's what I gotta keep telling myself, just god damn things have felt pretty hopeless lately; shit's fucked. :( --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941478551] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Cocytus posted... </cite> <quote>Everything you can let go, let go. Liberate yourself.</quote>Imma become a monk and hermit in the woods, and commune with nature. It'll be great. <cite>[LFAQs-redacted-quote]</cite> <3 I know things will get better eventually, and that's what I gotta keep telling myself, just god damn things have felt pretty hopeless lately; shit's fucked. :( </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
kingdrake2 06/30/20 12:50:18 PM #16:	WafflehouseJK posted... so now I'm stuck working dead end survival jobs till things can reopen and I can actually pursue what I want to do with my life. it probably won't get better until sometime next year :(. rough patches ahead FML. --- Explorers In The Further Regions Of Experience, demons to some, Angels To Others: Pinhead <cite>kingdrake2 posted [p:941478598] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>WafflehouseJK posted...</cite> <quote>so now I'm stuck working dead end survival jobs till things can reopen and I can actually pursue what I want to do with my life. </quote> it probably won't get better until sometime next year :(. rough patches ahead FML.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 12:53:36 PM #17:	kingdrake2 posted... it probably won't get better until sometime next year :(. rough patches ahead FML. Yep, and it fucking sucks. I've been trying to focus on writing my screenplays in the meantime since that's something i can keep doing even while everything else is shut down, but I've just been so depressed and anxious about everything that getting into my writing mindset has been almost impossible too. I did finish one feature length screenplay that I'm very proud of that I submitted to a major competition that I'm waiting to hear back from, but the chances of something coming of that are incredibly tiny, yet it's also kind of the one last bastion of hope I have in my life right now. :/ --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941478774] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>kingdrake2 posted... </cite> <quote>it probably won't get better until sometime next year :(. rough patches ahead FML.</quote>Yep, and it fucking sucks. I've been trying to focus on writing my screenplays in the meantime since that's something i can keep doing even while everything else is shut down, but I've just been so depressed and anxious about everything that getting into my writing mindset has been almost impossible too. I did finish one feature length screenplay that I'm very proud of that I submitted to a major competition that I'm waiting to hear back from, but the chances of something coming of that are incredibly tiny, yet it's also kind of the one last bastion of hope I have in my life right now. :/ </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
NoMeLx22x 06/30/20 12:54:33 PM #18:	WafflehouseJK posted... That's a big part of it for me as well. I had just made a big move to a big city to try and get into filmmaking; and the second I do, every production gets shut down cause of COVID, so now I'm stuck working dead end survival jobs till things can reopen and I can actually pursue what I want to do with my life. If there's one positive to take away from this, it's that you at least found something that you wanna do in life. Cause that's something that has yet to come for me. --- Sigs are for losers. <cite>NoMeLx22x posted [p:941478812] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>WafflehouseJK posted... </cite> <quote>That's a big part of it for me as well. I had just made a big move to a big city to try and get into filmmaking; and the second I do, every production gets shut down cause of COVID, so now I'm stuck working dead end survival jobs till things can reopen and I can actually pursue what I want to do with my life.</quote> If there's one positive to take away from this, it's that you at least found something that you wanna do in life. Cause that's something that has yet to come for me. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 12:57:35 PM #19:	NoMeLx22x posted... If there's one positive to take away from this, it's that you at least found something that you wanna do in life. Cause that's something that has yet to come for me. I guess that's fair; one thing that hurts though is knowing exactly what I want to do, and just feeling like I'm unable to attain it. But I just have to keep working for it, that's the only way it'll ever happen, it's just been tough keeping a positive mindset lately. We'll all get to where we need to be, we got this CE. Shit will get better, even if shit's rough right now. <3 --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941478946] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>NoMeLx22x posted... </cite> <quote>If there's one positive to take away from this, it's that you at least found something that you wanna do in life. Cause that's something that has yet to come for me.</quote>I guess that's fair; one thing that hurts though is knowing exactly what I want to do, and just feeling like I'm unable to attain it. But I just have to keep working for it, that's the only way it'll ever happen, it's just been tough keeping a positive mindset lately. We'll all get to where we need to be, we got this CE. Shit will get better, even if shit's rough right now. <3 </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Jiggy101011 06/30/20 1:03:49 PM #20:	PiOverlord posted... I think this pandemic has just cemented that my life is not the path that I hoped for to put it lightly. I've been in a funk for the last few weeks in regards to my job. When I got let go from my job in early 2019 I decided to throw myself back into sales because thats what a majority of my resume had on there, and I needed to find a job as I was the "bread winner" as they say. Now a year in at my new job I've realized why I stopped working sales, its incredibly difficult to ignore everything going on in the world and focus on my numbers. My wife landed a nanny job where she's bringing in $800 a week in cash and its just making me want to just up and quit. But everyone keeps asking me what is it I want to do and I have no clue. I'm 31 and have absolutely 0 idea what I want to do in my life and its frustrating. --- Gamertag: F1RE v2 PSN ID: F1REx Leader of the Xbox One board <cite>Jiggy101011 posted [p:941479253] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>PiOverlord posted... </cite> <quote>I think this pandemic has just cemented that my life is not the path that I hoped for to put it lightly.</quote> I've been in a funk for the last few weeks in regards to my job. When I got let go from my job in early 2019 I decided to throw myself back into sales because thats what a majority of my resume had on there, and I needed to find a job as I was the "bread winner" as they say. Now a year in at my new job I've realized why I stopped working sales, its incredibly difficult to ignore everything going on in the world and focus on my numbers. My wife landed a nanny job where she's bringing in $800 a week in cash and its just making me want to just up and quit. But everyone keeps asking me what is it I want to do and I have no clue. I'm 31 and have absolutely 0 idea what I want to do in my life and its frustrating. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
SmidgeIsntBack 06/30/20 1:10:36 PM #21:	WafflehouseJK posted... I did finish one feature length screenplay that I'm very proud of that I submitted to a major competition that I'm waiting to hear back from, but the chances of something coming of that are incredibly tiny, yet it's also kind of the one last bastion of hope I have in my life right now. :/ You shouldn't rely on slim hopes to keep you going, be proud of what you accomplished (congrats btw!!!) and think of ways to take the pressure off from time to time. If you're not fully recharging from one day to the next, it's just going to snowball. --- Podcast/Audiobook Board https://www.gamefaqs.com/boards/1364- View my ASCII art and others' at https://thenewhotness.info/ <cite>SmidgeIsntBack posted [p:941479560] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>WafflehouseJK posted... </cite> <quote>I did finish one feature length screenplay that I'm very proud of that I submitted to a major competition that I'm waiting to hear back from, but the chances of something coming of that are incredibly tiny, yet it's also kind of the one last bastion of hope I have in my life right now. :/</quote> You shouldn't rely on slim hopes to keep you going, be proud of what you accomplished (congrats btw!!!) and think of ways to take the pressure off from time to time. If you're not fully recharging from one day to the next, it's just going to snowball. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 1:14:42 PM #22:	SmidgeIsntBack posted... You shouldn't rely on slim hopes to keep you going, be proud of what you accomplished (congrats btw!!!) and think of ways to take the pressure off from time to time. If you're not fully recharging from one day to the next, it's just going to snowball. It's just rough because like, anytime I think I've moved on from what's bothering me, it comes back in full force almost out of nowhere and I'm right back to where I started. Most days when I'm not at work, I just haven't been doing much of anything. Not even just productivity wise, but I haven't really been playing video games, or even watching movies which are like, my biggest passion. --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941479713] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>SmidgeIsntBack posted... </cite> <quote>You shouldn't rely on slim hopes to keep you going, be proud of what you accomplished (congrats btw!!!) and think of ways to take the pressure off from time to time. If you're not fully recharging from one day to the next, it's just going to snowball.</quote>It's just rough because like, anytime I think I've moved on from what's bothering me, it comes back in full force almost out of nowhere and I'm right back to where I started. Most days when I'm not at work, I just haven't been doing much of anything. Not even just productivity wise, but I haven't really been playing video games, or even watching movies which are like, my biggest passion. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
SmidgeIsntBack 06/30/20 1:18:27 PM #23:	Yeah that's how I get worse, when I stop doing things like coding or gaming or making ASCII art. I also isolate, and don't get outside unless it's to get groceries. Vitamin D deficiency is in vogue right now if you didn't know, so put on music or a podcast and just walk around the block each day. --- Podcast/Audiobook Board https://www.gamefaqs.com/boards/1364- View my ASCII art and others' at https://thenewhotness.info/ <cite>SmidgeIsntBack posted [p:941479868] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Yeah that's how I get worse, when I stop doing things like coding or gaming or making ASCII art. I also isolate, and don't get outside unless it's to get groceries. Vitamin D deficiency is in vogue right now if you didn't know, so put on music or a podcast and just walk around the block each day. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 1:24:32 PM #24:	SmidgeIsntBack posted... Yeah that's how I get worse, when I stop doing things like coding or gaming or making ASCII art. I also isolate, and don't get outside unless it's to get groceries. Vitamin D deficiency is in vogue right now if you didn't know, so put on music or a podcast and just walk around the block each day. I actually have been going on late night runs lately on days I don't have work, and honestly those have been pretty nice. Though it kinda goes back to another case where in the moment I feel better, but then as soon as I'm done everything comes rushing back; I'm just having a very hard time maintaining any sense of contentment right now. I think getting back into my writing will help; maybe not full on screenplays right now, but even just some poetry or something every day or so. Some form of artistic expression since that's a major thing I'm lacking right now. --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941480127] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>SmidgeIsntBack posted... </cite> <quote>Yeah that's how I get worse, when I stop doing things like coding or gaming or making ASCII art. I also isolate, and don't get outside unless it's to get groceries. Vitamin D deficiency is in vogue right now if you didn't know, so put on music or a podcast and just walk around the block each day.</quote>I actually have been going on late night runs lately on days I don't have work, and honestly those have been pretty nice. Though it kinda goes back to another case where in the moment I feel better, but then as soon as I'm done everything comes rushing back; I'm just having a very hard time maintaining any sense of contentment right now. I think getting back into my writing will help; maybe not full on screenplays right now, but even just some poetry or something every day or so. Some form of artistic expression since that's a major thing I'm lacking right now. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 4:59:57 PM #25:	Sadness bump --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941489674] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Sadness bump </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
SmidgeIsntBack 06/30/20 5:09:27 PM #26:	You're doing more than I am then. It sounds like you might want to practice mindfulness. Do you ever meditate? I use the InsightTimer app which has been good for getting me into it. I always feel better after taking 5 or 10 minutes to sit still and breathe slowly. --- Podcast/Audiobook Board https://www.gamefaqs.com/boards/1364- View my ASCII art and others' at https://thenewhotness.info/ <cite>SmidgeIsntBack posted [p:941490094] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>You're doing more than I am then. It sounds like you might want to practice mindfulness. Do you ever meditate? I use the InsightTimer app which has been good for getting me into it. I always feel better after taking 5 or 10 minutes to sit still and breathe slowly. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 5:10:32 PM #27:	SmidgeIsntBack posted... You're doing more than I am then. It sounds like you might want to practice mindfulness. Do you ever meditate? I use the InsightTimer app which has been good for getting me into it. I always feel better after taking 5 or 10 minutes to sit still and breathe slowly. I've tried once or twice, but I've never been able to have the focus to do it consistently, I always end up getting lost in my thoughts and defeat the whole point of it. --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941490147] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>SmidgeIsntBack posted... </cite> <quote>You're doing more than I am then. It sounds like you might want to practice mindfulness. Do you ever meditate? I use the InsightTimer app which has been good for getting me into it. I always feel better after taking 5 or 10 minutes to sit still and breathe slowly.</quote>I've tried once or twice, but I've never been able to have the focus to do it consistently, I always end up getting lost in my thoughts and defeat the whole point of it. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
SmidgeIsntBack 06/30/20 5:11:52 PM #28:	It requires practice, like anything else. A guided meditation track is best for learning, at least for me. --- Podcast/Audiobook Board https://www.gamefaqs.com/boards/1364- View my ASCII art and others' at https://thenewhotness.info/ <cite>SmidgeIsntBack posted [p:941490206] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>It requires practice, like anything else. A guided meditation track is best for learning, at least for me. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 5:13:38 PM #29:	SmidgeIsntBack posted... It requires practice, like anything else. A guided meditation track is best for learning, at least for me. I should look into that; might be helpful in clearing my mind of some of this shit that's been freaking me out. Last night I tried journaling my emotions for the first time, and like, I think it kinda helped a bit in the moment, but now I'm just terrified that someone someday will find it and judge me for my fucked up emotions and shit. We love paranoia, it's a swell time. --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941490280] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>SmidgeIsntBack posted... </cite> <quote>It requires practice, like anything else. A guided meditation track is best for learning, at least for me.</quote>I should look into that; might be helpful in clearing my mind of some of this shit that's been freaking me out. Last night I tried journaling my emotions for the first time, and like, I think it kinda helped a bit in the moment, but now I'm just terrified that someone someday will find it and judge me for my fucked up emotions and shit. We love paranoia, it's a swell time. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
TreyFlowers 06/30/20 5:16:51 PM #30:	I have loved isolation. The less people I see, the better. Although I have been in lockdown with my wife so I have the one person I want to be with. Might be different if I were alone, but honestly I don't think it wouldve been. I've lost weight, eating healthier, happier that I'm not surrounded by people all day. --- Last night, what we talked about, it made so much sense But now the haze has ascended, it don't make no sense anymore <cite>TreyFlowers posted [p:941490408] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>I have loved isolation. The less people I see, the better. Although I have been in lockdown with my wife so I have the one person I want to be with. Might be different if I were alone, but honestly I don't think it wouldve been. I've lost weight, eating healthier, happier that I'm not surrounded by people all day. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Guerrilla Soldier 06/30/20 5:17:06 PM #31:	i went through this last year, when i was force to work from home because my company closed down their local HQ it takes about 6 months to get over it, until then it's brutal. i also had to deal with being alone after a very long relationship, so that didn't make matters any better, hah. you'll make it, don't worry about it, all of it calms down after a while. btw i'm on cruise control right now. i've never been more relaxed in my life. it definitely gets better. --- Disclaimer: There's a good chance the above post could be sarcasm. Die-hard Oakland A's fan --- Keep the A's in Oakland! <cite>Guerrilla Soldier posted [p:941490419] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>i went through this last year, when i was force to work from home because my company closed down their local HQ it takes about 6 months to get over it, until then it's brutal. i also had to deal with being alone after a very long relationship, so that didn't make matters any better, hah. you'll make it, don't worry about it, all of it calms down after a while. btw i'm on cruise control right now. i've never been more relaxed in my life. it definitely gets better. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
EverDownward 06/30/20 5:41:19 PM #32:	One thing that worries me is if I end up dying from cancer sooner than humanity can overcome Covid, I'll most likely be at a local hospital and nobody will be allowed to see me before I go. Not my family, not my friends - nobody, all because of this shitty virus. --- take me somewhere nice "Miss, can you tell me your address? I need an address...I need an address, so we can send help." <cite>EverDownward posted [p:941491550] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>One thing that worries me is if I end up dying from cancer sooner than humanity can overcome Covid, I'll most likely be at a local hospital and nobody will be allowed to see me before I go. Not my family, not my friends - nobody, all because of this shitty virus. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 06/30/20 8:04:25 PM #33:	TreyFlowers posted... I have loved isolation. The less people I see, the better. Although I have been in lockdown with my wife so I have the one person I want to be with. Might be different if I were alone, but honestly I don't think it wouldve been. I've lost weight, eating healthier, happier that I'm not surrounded by people all day. I like isolation in small doses, but I do still have friends that I want to spend time with, and I miss going out on dates and shit. I've lost a little bit of weight, but mainly cause I just haven't been eating much cause of anxiety. Guerrilla Soldier posted... i went through this last year, when i was force to work from home because my company closed down their local HQ it takes about 6 months to get over it, until then it's brutal. i also had to deal with being alone after a very long relationship, so that didn't make matters any better, hah. you'll make it, don't worry about it, all of it calms down after a while. btw i'm on cruise control right now. i've never been more relaxed in my life. it definitely gets better. I'm holding out for the "gets better" point, but right now things are feeling pretty rough. EverDownward posted... One thing that worries me is if I end up dying from cancer sooner than humanity can overcome Covid, I'll most likely be at a local hospital and nobody will be allowed to see me before I go. Not my family, not my friends - nobody, all because of this shitty virus. Shit dude, I'm so sorry. Hopefully everything works out for you man. --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941497887] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>TreyFlowers posted... </cite> <quote>I have loved isolation. The less people I see, the better. Although I have been in lockdown with my wife so I have the one person I want to be with. Might be different if I were alone, but honestly I don't think it wouldve been. I've lost weight, eating healthier, happier that I'm not surrounded by people all day.</quote>I like isolation in small doses, but I do still have friends that I want to spend time with, and I miss going out on dates and shit. I've lost a little bit of weight, but mainly cause I just haven't been eating much cause of anxiety. Guerrilla Soldier posted... </cite> <quote>i went through this last year, when i was force to work from home because my company closed down their local HQ it takes about 6 months to get over it, until then it's brutal. i also had to deal with being alone after a very long relationship, so that didn't make matters any better, hah. you'll make it, don't worry about it, all of it calms down after a while. btw i'm on cruise control right now. i've never been more relaxed in my life. it definitely gets better.</quote>I'm holding out for the "gets better" point, but right now things are feeling pretty rough. EverDownward posted... </cite> <quote>One thing that worries me is if I end up dying from cancer sooner than humanity can overcome Covid, I'll most likely be at a local hospital and nobody will be allowed to see me before I go. Not my family, not my friends - nobody, all because of this shitty virus.</quote>Shit dude, I'm so sorry. Hopefully everything works out for you man. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
kingdrake2 06/30/20 8:05:48 PM #34:	EverDownward posted... One thing that worries me is if I end up dying from cancer damn. count_hamstein (might've gotten the name wrong) had final posts until the cancer got him or her. --- Explorers In The Further Regions Of Experience, demons to some, Angels To Others: Pinhead <cite>kingdrake2 posted [p:941497945] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>EverDownward posted...</cite> <quote>One thing that worries me is if I end up dying from cancer</quote> damn. count_hamstein (might've gotten the name wrong) had final posts until the cancer got him or her.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
RedJackson 06/30/20 8:13:47 PM #35:	** man, I hope it really gets better for you - my love is music and it's really the only thing that allows me to escape Use this! https://youtu.be/TjcOJmoJwpk?t=23 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSoPeZMHMf4&list=PLn4OMw9mEilN6sVe-1lgWt9TaXNMnaz0c&index=2&t=0s https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zLQ4ukqMec&list=PLn4OMw9mEilMJL3JqvlKvqHm2rfaqevek&index=40&t=0s <cite>RedJackson posted [p:941498289] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>** man, I hope it really gets better for you - my love is music and it's really the only thing that allows me to escape Use this! https://youtu.be/TjcOJmoJwpk?t=23 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSoPeZMHMf4&list=PLn4OMw9mEilN6sVe-1lgWt9TaXNMnaz0c&index=2&t=0s https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zLQ4ukqMec&list=PLn4OMw9mEilMJL3JqvlKvqHm2rfaqevek&index=40&t=0s </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Dark_SilverX 06/30/20 8:19:39 PM #36:	Think of our Savior, Donald J. Trump and all of that pain and suffering will go away. It'll get better. --- Maketh thy Countries Greateth Again don't compare games to feces -- if you've an opinion worth mentioning, do so civilly <cite>Dark_SilverX posted [p:941498559] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Think of our Savior, Donald J. Trump and all of that pain and suffering will go away. It'll get better. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
EverDownward 06/30/20 10:02:01 PM #37:	kingdrake2 posted... damn. count_hamstein (might've gotten the name wrong) had final posts until the cancer got him or her. I know Popcorn_Fairy died from heart cancer pretty fast. I didn't even know heart cancer was a thing until he told us he had a malignant growth on his heart. I've been fighting mine for a little over three years now. A little over half of stage iv colon cancer patients make it to five years, but this year has been real rough for me and I dunno what's going to happen. I'm pretty tired, honestly. WafflehouseJK posted... Shit dude, I'm so sorry. Hopefully everything works out for you man. Same for you, dude. I've seen you in my music threads from time to time, and you're a cool guy. We'll pull through, I suspect. --- take me somewhere nice "Miss, can you tell me your address? I need an address...I need an address, so we can send help." <cite>EverDownward posted [p:941502530] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>kingdrake2 posted... </cite> <quote>damn. count_hamstein (might've gotten the name wrong) had final posts until the cancer got him or her.</quote>I know Popcorn_Fairy died from heart cancer pretty fast. I didn't even know heart cancer was a thing until he told us he had a malignant growth on his heart. I've been fighting mine for a little over three years now. A little over half of stage iv colon cancer patients make it to five years, but this year has been real rough for me and I dunno what's going to happen. I'm pretty tired, honestly. WafflehouseJK posted... </cite> <quote>Shit dude, I'm so sorry. Hopefully everything works out for you man.</quote>Same for you, dude. I've seen you in my music threads from time to time, and you're a cool guy. We'll pull through, I suspect. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
PiOverlord 07/01/20 1:47:59 AM #38:	You ever consider speedrunning Waffle? It may be a little out of what you are used to with gaming, or maybe you already do it, but it can help you out with making you feel like you are a part of a community and accomplishing something. --- Number of legendary 500 post topics: 33, 500th posts: 28; PiO ATTN: 5 RotM wins 1, LETTEN MY ARROW FLYEN TRUE <cite>PiOverlord posted [p:941510441] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>You ever consider speedrunning Waffle? It may be a little out of what you are used to with gaming, or maybe you already do it, but it can help you out with making you feel like you are a part of a community and accomplishing something. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
WafflehouseJK 07/02/20 3:26:06 AM #39:	PiOverlord posted... You ever consider speedrunning Waffle? It may be a little out of what you are used to with gaming, or maybe you already do it, but it can help you out with making you feel like you are a part of a community and accomplishing something. I just don't know if I have the patience for sppedrunning tbh. --- "She was like, 'Oh, did you see that firefighter? Hes so cute.' And I was like, Mom, I just got blown up." <cite>WafflehouseJK posted [p:941558406] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>PiOverlord posted... </cite> <quote>You ever consider speedrunning Waffle? It may be a little out of what you are used to with gaming, or maybe you already do it, but it can help you out with making you feel like you are a part of a community and accomplishing something.</quote> I just don't know if I have the patience for sppedrunning tbh. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
toyota 07/02/20 3:31:56 AM #40:	Be kinder to others. dont mod people over such minor and bs reasons. everytime you do you could very well be affecting that persons mental health seeing that with lockdowns a lot of people are going through similar feelings of isolations <cite>toyota posted [p:941558501] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Be kinder to others. dont mod people over such minor and bs reasons. everytime you do you could very well be affecting that persons mental health seeing that with lockdowns a lot of people are going through similar feelings of isolations </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Brilliant 07/02/20 3:46:47 AM #41:	toyota posted... Be kinder to others. dont mod people over such minor and bs reasons. everytime you do you could very well be affecting that persons mental health seeing that with lockdowns a lot of people are going through similar feelings of isolations I'm sure that's what is needed now, and if those people are doing things that affecting other users mental health? --- Shining like the sun <cite>Brilliant posted [p:941558689] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>toyota posted...</cite> <quote>Be kinder to others. dont mod people over such minor and bs reasons. everytime you do you could very well be affecting that persons mental health seeing that with lockdowns a lot of people are going through similar feelings of isolations </quote> I'm sure that's what is needed now, and if those people are doing things that affecting other users mental health?</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Parappa09 07/02/20 3:57:08 AM #42:	i'd hug you if I could bro, mental health is taking a real downturn this year but like you said it's horrible when everything comes crashing down at once i hope the screenwriting contest goes well --- https://imgur.com/uUaFvGj <cite>Parappa09 posted [p:941558862] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>i'd hug you if I could bro, mental health is taking a real downturn this year but like you said it's horrible when everything comes crashing down at once i hope the screenwriting contest goes well </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
PiOverlord 07/02/20 4:47:49 AM #43:	WafflehouseJK posted... I just don't know if I have the patience for sppedrunning tbh. I wouldn't call myself a patient person, but I have a blast with it. Imo, there's a speedrun for everyone. In the beginning, you will pb a lot, so it won't feel like a trial of patience either. --- Number of legendary 500 post topics: 33, 500th posts: 28; PiO ATTN: 5 RotM wins 1, LETTEN MY ARROW FLYEN TRUE <cite>PiOverlord posted [p:941559622] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>WafflehouseJK posted... </cite> <quote>I just don't know if I have the patience for sppedrunning tbh.</quote>I wouldn't call myself a patient person, but I have a blast with it. Imo, there's a speedrun for everyone. In the beginning, you will pb a lot, so it won't feel like a trial of patience either. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Saxon 07/02/20 5:00:25 AM #44:	It could be worse...you could be dead. That's no cup of tea assuming death is the end of the road for your entire consciousness. Some might might like that idea, but on a long enough time scale it'll be like you never existed in the first place once everyone who knew you and loved you is dead too. All you'll be from then on is a name on a tombstone providing it stands the test of time. . <cite>Saxon posted [p:941559790] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>It could be worse...you could be dead. That's no cup of tea assuming death is the end of the road for your entire consciousness. Some might might like that idea, but on a long enough time scale it'll be like you never existed in the first place once everyone who knew you and loved you is dead too. All you'll be from then on is a name on a tombstone providing it stands the test of time. .</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
MabusIncarnate 07/02/20 5:02:12 AM #45:	You are never, ever alone in this. So many people are with you. This is such a drastic, dramatic change in life that we know and understand. Not adapting is entirely understandable, but we will figure it out. This time last year so many people knew what their plan was, what the future holds, and where their lives would be 20 years from now and all of a sudden it's all ripped away. It's scary, it's not normal, but we are all in it together and we get through it together. We need to survive to adapt, and adapt to progress forward, and progress forward to build our lives for the future. We gotta do it, but we are all doing it together, we are all effected and we all need to learn a new normal. Put your energy into building a new now, and we'll all figure this out brother. --- Ten million dollars on a losing campaign, Twenty million starving and writhing in pain. =~=; Vicious_Dios Original - https://tinyurl.com/y9fpdoll <cite>MabusIncarnate posted [p:941559812] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>You are never, ever alone in this. So many people are with you. This is such a drastic, dramatic change in life that we know and understand. Not adapting is entirely understandable, but we will figure it out. This time last year so many people knew what their plan was, what the future holds, and where their lives would be 20 years from now and all of a sudden it's all ripped away. It's scary, it's not normal, but we are all in it together and we get through it together. We need to survive to adapt, and adapt to progress forward, and progress forward to build our lives for the future. We gotta do it, but we are all doing it together, we are all effected and we all need to learn a new normal. Put your energy into building a new now, and we'll all figure this out brother. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Smashingpmkns 07/02/20 5:06:30 AM #46:	Stay up TC. Plenty of people are feeling this way. Just know that you're not alone in this shit even if everything feels so divided. --- Clean Butt Crew <cite>Smashingpmkns posted [p:941559860] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Stay up TC. Plenty of people are feeling this way. Just know that you're not alone in this shit even if everything feels so divided.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Saxon 07/02/20 5:21:54 AM #47:	2020 was a momentous paradigm shift in reality and you're just going through all the processes of grief. Sadness Denial Anger And finally acceptance Then you just have to disconnect from it all to move forward. <cite>Saxon posted [p:941560072] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>2020 was a momentous paradigm shift in reality and you're just going through all the processes of grief. Sadness Denial Anger And finally acceptance Then you just have to disconnect from it all to move forward.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
The_Creep_2020 07/02/20 5:24:58 AM #48:	Know you are not alone. The world is an insane place at the moment - fear, conflict, uncertainty and isolation are the prevailing mood everywhere. Not ideal for anyone who suffers from anxiety or depression, as I know myself from past experience. Please feel free to send me a DM if you want someone to talk it through with, or just keep your mind off things a little bit. Time zones may be askew, but I keep strange hours. --- Nothing is true. All is transmitted <cite>The_Creep_2020 posted [p:941560118] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Know you are not alone. The world is an insane place at the moment - fear, conflict, uncertainty and isolation are the prevailing mood everywhere. Not ideal for anyone who suffers from anxiety or depression, as I know myself from past experience. Please feel free to send me a DM if you want someone to talk it through with, or just keep your mind off things a little bit. Time zones may be askew, but I keep strange hours. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Thatuser 07/02/20 5:33:41 AM #49:	I don't foresee things getting better soon. If anything, regardless of who wins in November, there will be pushback. Especially if they legitimize mail in voting. Those social distance spots in public aren't temporary. Things will get worse before they get better. <cite>Thatuser posted [p:941560248] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>I don't foresee things getting better soon. If anything, regardless of who wins in November, there will be pushback. Especially if they legitimize mail in voting. Those social distance spots in public aren't temporary. Things will get worse before they get better. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
The_Creep_2020 07/02/20 5:38:26 AM #50:	Thatuser posted... I don't foresee things getting better soon. If anything, regardless of who wins in November, there will be pushback. Especially if they legitimize mail in voting. Those social distance spots in public aren't temporary. Things will get worse before they get better. That is true, but things will eventually get better. Even if current conditions become the new normal, we will adjust. Remember, in each moment you are living in the future. I am currently writing this on a tiny slab of glass, plastic, silicon and metal. It can tell me what music I may like, based on what Ive already listened to. I can order pizza without having to see another human being. I can talk on a videophone or play video games with someone on the other side of the world. What wonders will our future bring? --- Nothing is true. All is transmitted <cite>The_Creep_2020 posted [p:941560322] in I think th... [t:78814355]...</cite> <quote>Thatuser posted... </cite> <quote>I don't foresee things getting better soon. If anything, regardless of who wins in November, there will be pushback. Especially if they legitimize mail in voting. Those social distance spots in public aren't temporary. Things will get worse before they get better.</quote> That is true, but things will eventually get better. Even if current conditions become the new normal, we will adjust. Remember, in each moment you are living in the future. I am currently writing this on a tiny slab of glass, plastic, silicon and metal. It can tell me what music I may like, based on what Ive already listened to. I can order pizza without having to see another human being. I can talk on a videophone or play video games with someone on the other side of the world. What wonders will our future bring? </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
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