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I was doing alright for a good while; antsy from not hanging out with people and stressed by the state of the world and everything, sure, but it was manageable.

The past 2 weeks though, between the state of the world and my own personal struggles with my career, love life, and everything else, my anxiety and depression have hit a boiling point. Have barely been able to sleep at all, and when I do manage to sleep my dreams are super depressing and I just wake up in even more of a funk than before.

Last night my depression hit me the hardest that it has in a very long time, and some of the not-so-great thoughts I've worked so hard to move past started trickling back in, and like, god damn, I thought I'd moved past that shit on my mental health journey a long time ago, and now I just feel like I'm backsliding.

I just have this huge sense of isolation and loneliness that I can't shake, even though the past couple weeks I have actually been hanging out with people a little bit again, but it only helps in the moment, soon as they leave I'm back to the paranoia and shit.

I just feel very stuck in every single aspect of my life right now and it's not a good feeling.

Alright, that's the end of my sad rant, love ya CE. <3

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