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Cutting, punching, etc. People fall into this bad habit. I read up on it. It's about control. Some feel they lost control of their lives and this is a dangerous yet easy add some control back. Some get better as they channel their emotions into something positive.

What are your experiences with self harm. Why did you do it. When did you recognize you were doing. How did you stop it

sLaCkEr408___RJ posted...

What are your experiences with self harm. Why did you do it. When did you recognize you were doing. How did you stop it

this isn't allowed here

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I guess alcoholism falls under this category for me.

One big reason I do it is because I like being drunk. But I think there's a part of me that enjoys being mentally inhibited because it makes activities more challenging. When I play video games or read a book while intoxicated, it feels like I'm being challenged more, and makes the activity all the more thrilling.

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It was easy relief from my accumulating neuroses and general depression, lol.

it started as a sort of experimental thing. Like, Ive heard about this for ages, wonder what happens if I do it. It gradually escalated, but stopped before I did anything that caused permanent damage.

I dont recall stopping for any specific reason, though As I got better at coping with my issues I just didnt need it anymore.

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I've never been a cutter or caused physical harm to myself out of depression.

I do have self-destructive tendencies when I lose my temper. I've been through years of therapy to help me control my rage.

I have lost my temper and have broken household appliances, punched holes in the wall, broke glass in cars and have lost relationships due to domestic abuse.

I have found that giving my negative emotions power, allowed them to control me and make my current situation worse by reacting out of anger instead of rationality. As a result, I now try to let my anger go as soon as I feel it bubbling up. This has made me more laid-back and far less unpredictable.

At the very least, I'm no longer hurting myself or the people I care about.

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Has anyone here played Air Pressure?

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For the past few weeks, maybe months i have found myself tensing up like I am about to hit something. I usually end up punching the air, but sometimes I aim at my own body, leg, or even face. It's gotten to the point where I've accidentally done it in front of someone.

This happens at times when I become very stressed. And my stress has been intense lately. I used to imagine me beating myself up when I get stressed. Now it's actually happening.

The little bit I've read up about it warns me how addictive it can be I believe them because what they say is relatable. I hit myself and it does give me temporary relief, but I do it so often that I have a hard time NOT doing it. Like I got even more stressed out when I actively tried not self harming.

The fuck

malenz posted...

Has anyone here played Air Pressure?

Is that like the Choking Game?

Or is it an actual videogame?

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WARNING! Adult subject material.
https://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/529708

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I wonder what percentage of suicide attempts are related to the victim feeling like they lost control over their lives. Close to 100% I would guess

malenz posted...

WARNING! Adult subject material.
https://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/529708

Doesn't work on my phone at least.

I was abused when I was younger. Anytime I did something bad I got hit pretty hard. And I was a shitty kid so I was hit pretty often.
Now whenever I fuck up I have this weird...need to be physically hurt as some sort of punishment. When no one does that, I do it to myself.
It's fucked, yo.

I stopped it with extensive counselling and therapy >_>

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malenz posted...

WARNING! Adult subject material.
https://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/529708

All i see is a baby duck with its asshole in the shape of a heart pointed towards me

For me it's wanting to lash out against something/someone, but not wanting to hurt others so I take it out on myself. Haven't done it in a long time, but I don't think I'm totally over it.

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I never actually tried it until a friend of mine mentioned he used to do it.

Kid me thought Oh, I never thought of that!, so I used it as a way to punish myself when I felt like I deserved a punishment. Seeing as I had a negative self-worth, it was rather frequent. Then Id get mad that I was too scared to cut deeper. So Id try more yadda yadda.

Nowadays I just have cool battle scars on my arm that I can potentially lie or be honest about. Whichever one provides a better reaction. Strange how a mindset can change in years time.

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please don't slef harm I've sort have done so but cmon

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Aeriis posted...

I'm sorry to hear you've been going through this, TC ): I don't know you very well but I recognize your username as someone who used to post here back in the good ol' days.

I think I remember you. Aeries was your original account.

ApherosyLove posted...

I was abused when I was younger. Anytime I did something bad I got hit pretty hard. And I was a shitty kid so I was hit pretty often.
Now whenever I fuck up I have this weird...need to be physically hurt as some sort of punishment. When no one does that, I do it to myself.
It's fucked, yo.

I stopped it with extensive counselling and therapy >_>

I can relate to this as well. I did get beat up as punishment but I never viewed myself as abused. It makes sense tho

Southernfatman posted...

For me it's wanting to lash out against something/someone, but not wanting to hurt others so I take it out on myself. Haven't done it in a long time, but I don't think I'm totally over it.

This is one reason I started looking into my emotional health. I considered punching someone and had to hold myself back.

Aeriis posted...

my original account was actually Hermiione! I started posting here around 2006

Ah my bad. I do remember you still.