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Topic	Its funny how most humans and society are devolving into sensitive wrecks
GrandConjuraton 06/28/20 10:10:45 PM #72	People aren't more or less sensitive in comparison to any other times; the only thing that is different is how outrage is being expressed. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	1 billion dollars but you only live for 20 more years
GrandConjuraton 06/28/20 9:43:20 PM #4	Freddie_Mercury posted... whats the downside --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I honestly don't see any point in me being alive, and it crushes me.
GrandConjuraton 06/26/20 2:04:30 PM #36	AvantgardeAClue posted... This happens to even the most seasoned authors. Theres a reason that theres that condition to describe people who think theyre bad at something theyre actually skilled at; it happens to me all the time. The difference is recognizing that AND powering through it. .......and writing drunk and editing sober That's part of the problem, unfortunately. I don't have an overly high degree of willpower. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I honestly don't see any point in me being alive, and it crushes me.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 11:47:00 PM #34	JimCarrysToe posted... Hey if ya like video game related skits heres a channel you can binge and forget about things for a few hours, they're really funny. Oh no, not escort missions, >.< Gobstoppers12 posted... This is definitely a CE topic. Along with an equally unhelpful and unsubstantive post to go in it. LeperMessiahXX posted... Get help. Talk to people you love and consider getting a therapist, that's the only advice I can really give. Life is worth living, and you are just as worthy as anyone else to live. Does my therapist and psychiatrist count? --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I honestly don't see any point in me being alive, and it crushes me.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 11:20:33 PM #28	Guerrilla Soldier posted... i know this doesnt help but like, that applies to literally almost every single person that's alive definitely every single animal, too, if you don't count 'they can be eaten for food' as a point Most people have some aspect of their lives to sponge some joy from and have people that they can actually connect with. Comparing me to anyone else will usually bear no fruit, for better or (more often) worse. Ivynn posted... When were you last happy? As an overall state of being? Never, honestly. I've been unhappy my whole life, but I didn't realize until ten years ago how bad things actually are. Most of my life was spent in a sort of unaware haze, and a great deal of that was self-imposed... but when reality finally smacked me in the face, there wasn't any turning back from that. The dive into deep depression has been an endless one. AlisLandale posted... Lol I know almost exactly how you feel. i wish I had something comforting to say, but I dont. But if it makes you feel any better, just know some random person on the Internet just got done telling their friend pretty much the exact same thing last night. so...youre not totally alone in your loneliness. It doesn't make me feel any better, but that's because it's not a feeling I would want to see in someone else, :/ . It's not a good thng. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I honestly don't see any point in me being alive, and it crushes me.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 11:11:08 PM #25	MFBKBass5 posted... I know this might not be a serious post, but I agree. My doggo has helped me through SO much. When I quit my job a few years ago as was at the very bottom, having my puppy by my side literally saved my life. I have a hard time taking care of just myself, so I dunno if taking care of another living being would be well-advised, :/ MT_TRAEH posted... i cared once, discussed what i did and im still alive/doing something but i guess you didnt care for that either No offense meant, but I don't think I even recognize your username... so I don't really know what you're talking about. MFBKBass5 posted... Does a lot of your sadness come from not having anyone else and worrying about what people think? I have that issue from time to time. I get worried people judge me and think Im a loser constantly. But at the end of the day, no one else matters but you. Find what you enjoy, and enjoy your time on this earth. I promise you...things could ALWAYS be worse. Put things in perspective. Sounds like you have a roof over your head. You have food to eat. Water to drink. Either a computer or phone with internet. Again. Find something you enjoy, and focus on that. Turn off all that extraneous noise that gives you grief, and focus on things that make you happy. Honestly? I don't know. I feel like I would be in a better place (mentally speaking, I mean) if I actually did have people to connect with because I do feel an extremely high degree of loneliness, but... there are a lot of different things that weigh me down. I don't think I could ever describe myself as being happy at any real point in my life, but it's been especially bad for the last ten years. Loneliness has been my only real companion through life, x.x ColdOne666 posted... I know how you feel bro, I've always struggled with depression and anxiety and now I'm stuck at home with a broken leg. It really sucks, just remember it will get better. When? MedeaLysistrata posted... You dont have to justify your existence... or maybe you do, idk I think the main thing matters is if you're content with yourself or your existence, but i'm definitely not content with my existence and I know that I have a lot of personal issues... Honestly, I struggle with how I feel about myself. I value my individuality above all else and wouldn't want to be anyone else, but at the same time, I have a strong loathing for myself. I know that doesn't really make any sense, but that's just how it is. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I honestly don't see any point in me being alive, and it crushes me.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 10:50:44 PM #18	AvantgardeAClue posted... The point of life is finding something that makes you happy, genuinely happy to be doing it and you anticipate it not always, but when you do it its something that has almost no substitute in terms of euphoria. For me its novel writing. Theres something out there, you just havent realized it yet. Yeah, I definitely don't know what that's like, :/ . I mostly just do what little I do to pass time, and any bit of joy I can find in anything is entirely fleeting; it's good for a short time, but then I quickly go back to feeling empty and unfulfilled. I've tried starting on two different novels myself, but... I can't motivate myself to stay on-track with it and don't have a lot of confidence in my writing, either, despite plenty of people telling me that i'm good at it. NotYou posted... eh, I don't see much point in me being alive either but while I'm here I might as well do something Such as? MFBKBass5 posted... I know the feeling, TC. I struggle with serious depression, and it sounds like you do too. I feel very alone often. Dont have many friends I hang out with person much, as most live in other cities now. Im single and live alone. This quarantine has been absolutely brutal and has made my question my own existence quite often. Have you ever talked to a therapist? See post 11 for the answer to the question. The funny thing is (or perhaps not so funny, but I digress) is that this whole covid situation hasn't really affected me in any tangible way, on a personal level... I've been a shut-in for seven years and don't have any contact with people outside of my family, so in a sense, this all just business as usual for me. The main problem is that "business as usual" for me is that it's always been difficult for me to deal with, and I feel like I am going to snap under the strain of it all. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I honestly don't see any point in me being alive, and it crushes me.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 10:41:48 PM #11	RedRoad posted... Have you tried talking to a professional? If you have, how was the experience? I've been seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist for three years. I've experienced very little improvement (and what improvement I have had is probably just due to the meds i'm on), but I like them as people and it gives me people to speak with that aren't just immediate family... I don't have anyone in my life outside of my mom, dad or sister, so that's something, I guess. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I honestly don't see any point in me being alive, and it crushes me.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 10:34:59 PM #2	And CE doesn't care, just as expected. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I'm not religious but if I was going to start I'd probably worship Mothra
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 10:32:06 PM #10	Mothra best kaiju --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Trump Rally got two of the Secret Service agents infected with Covid
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 10:30:11 PM #3	The only thing that matters to him is how much he can stroke his own ego, and he doesn't care who suffers for it in the process. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I honestly don't see any point in me being alive, and it crushes me.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 10:24:07 PM #1	~~Disclaimer to any potentially triggerhappy mod:~~ ~~This is not a suicide topic or one threatening it; it's just a Blogfaqs topic for my feelings~~ Nothing brings me any real joy and I have trouble connecting to pretty much anyone. I can't relate with the experiences of the average person and have missed out on so many things in life... I feel so isolated and unwelcome in the world that I hardly even consider myself a part of it all, and it hurts me so much. In all honesty... I wish that I could just pass my remaining lifespan to someone more worthy than myself, or at the very least, someone that would appreciate it more; it is wasted on me. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	C/D: You always feel alone.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 9:07:50 PM #27	bump --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	C/D: You always feel alone.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 6:30:16 PM #21	mattymad posted... Life is pretty good. Hah. Funny. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	C/D: You always feel alone.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 6:17:24 PM #9	bump --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	C/D: You always feel alone.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 1:39:26 PM #3	Lost_All_Senses posted... Neh. But it has been progressively harder for me to be entertained when alone. All my hobbies stopped bringing me joy. No idea where to go from here. And as miserable as that sounds, I'm still indifferent to it lol Wish that I could feel that way. I'm anything but indifferent... --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	If you're having a hard time seeing Biden as the better option...
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 1:36:09 PM #183	B-Factor posted... We disagree. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	C/D: You always feel alone.
GrandConjuraton 06/24/20 1:26:01 PM #1	Confirm --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I don't give a FUCK about The Winds Of Winter.
GrandConjuraton 06/23/20 2:10:08 PM #7	That's exactly how I feel at this point. He's proven that he doesn't care even the slightest amount about his fans or his series, and I will never give that greasy old man another dime. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	J.K. Rowling finally starting to get canceled.
GrandConjuraton 06/23/20 1:44:46 PM #8	Good. She's a terrible human being and it's well-deserved. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Do you fucking swear/cuss?
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 11:33:40 PM #16	Only when I lose my temper. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	For a anime based on a video game there is like no fighting in .hack//sign
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 11:05:26 PM #20	Did you even do any research at all before watching this? Even cursory glances at pretty much anything would have told you that this isn't an action series, and expecting otherwise is asinine. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Caution man good.
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 8:42:29 PM #37	ThisGuyAreSick posted... like half the people in this topic It's somewhat sad how low the bar of "meltdown" seems to be for you, but I suppose that can't be helped, :P --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Caution man good.
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 5:12:11 PM #22	ThisGuyAreSick posted... lmao @ everyone itt melting down Who exactly is having a meltdown? --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I'm leaving this board and websight
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 3:27:27 PM #18	JustMyOpinion posted... Just shut the fuck up and leave. We aren't that fortunate. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Do you plug the charger in first or your phone then your charger in?
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 3:21:22 PM #6	MachineJaipur posted... What about those who work? I'm bored, so don't mind me, x.x --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Man collected info on racist FB Group and is forwarding it to their employers.
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 3:17:21 PM #19	DarkRoast posted... Companies have the right to fire someone who openly goes against their views and mission as a company - according to Republicans in every situation except, apparently, this one. It's totally appropriate to fire LGBT people for that sort of reason, but for being racist? Nah, it's all cool bruh! --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	It's getting REALLY hard to buy DVDs for certain films.
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 3:13:10 PM #2	Especially when it can become material for a Sunhawk topic. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Just bought a couple of new non-fiction books from Amazon. Details inside.
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 3:10:44 PM #3	Sunhawk posted... Flop --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Do you plug the charger in first or your phone then your charger in?
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 3:07:48 PM #4	>2020 >having a phone >going outside --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Man collected info on racist FB Group and is forwarding it to their employers.
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 3:04:06 PM #11	Mezcla posted... this is america they are free to be racist assholes. their employers are also free to fire their racist asses. Yep. The people who really do shout "My freedom!" and mean it don't really seem to realize that and just want to play the victim card... even though they have no right to do so. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Man collected info on racist FB Group and is forwarding it to their employers.
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 2:59:05 PM #3	The23rdMagus posted... Oh, look, the inevitable consequences of one's actions. "Muh freedom!" --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	have you ever argued with your alts in GFAQs?
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 2:56:00 PM #40	I've used alts to be in agreement with myself or to seemingly keep a topic moving, but that was many years ago and when I had two or three more accounts than I do now, x.x . This one used to be one of those alts before I closed down my main last year. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Weren't people saying the warmer weather in the summer was going to kill corona?
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 2:48:29 PM #9	Tmaster148 posted... People who were pushing that we re-open were also the ones downplaying the severity of the pandemic. The economy, though! --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Arctic Circle sees 'highest-ever' recorded temperatures 38C (100F)
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 2:47:12 PM #2	This is a natural phase of global warming, though! Humans have no effect on it at all, so there is no issue to be addressed. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Orwell perfectly described the Democratic party and its satellites in '1984'
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 2:27:58 PM #10	Bananana posted... That picture makes me giggle every time I see it, x.x --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Orwell perfectly described the Democratic party and its satellites in '1984'
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 2:26:13 PM #5	EnragedSlith posted... Shut the fuck up --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	I am MorningRose, aka zeroflamecutter. Ask me anything.
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 2:22:21 PM #111	BlingBling22947 posted... Do you celebrate the 4th of July? We usually have a small cookout between us as a family, but it's been a while since we've bought any fireworks. I like fireworks, but... we have people nearby who shoot their own, so we can just go outside and watch theirs if we really wanna watch, >.< --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	down to 215. started at 260 back in february.
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 2:15:50 PM #9	Good job, TC. Keep up the good work, :D I've lost 42 pounds since January, myself. 243 -> 201 --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	For a anime based on a video game there is like no fighting in .hack//sign
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 2:05:25 PM #17	ultimate reaver posted... sign is very slow but thats part of what makes it good. Every attempt to make it more actiony like key of twilight and roots are a lot less interesting This. It's one of my top favorite anime series, and I really appreciation its focus on characterization instead of action. Tsukasa is a great character and is a large part of my own enjoyment due to relatability, but isn't exactly a character that everyone will like, I guess... --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	trump on slowing down covid19 testing: we've done too good of a job testing
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 1:49:23 PM #33	EvalAngell posted... Back to this talking point? Trump ordered nursing homes to take in sick elderly and for it to spread like wildfire? Learn the facts kid. Go look and see where the damage was mainly done around the country and whose orders it came under. Trump spent a while claiming that the whole thing was a hoax instead of actually doing anything. There's no other way to spin that than negative if you aren't utterly delusional. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Statue of well known Confederate general and slave owner defaced
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 1:46:16 PM #4	Vicious_Dios posted... False. They serve as a reminder to us of what not do again. In theory, they should... but we need to do a better job of making sure that message gets across by making a museum of shame or something for them, x.x --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Who's da hottest CEgal nowadays?
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 1:43:02 PM #34	trappedunderice posted... Yes In one of my AMAs, I assume? In any case... Thank you, >.< . I don't usually have a lot of confidence on how I look, so it always feels nice to hear some validation on that end. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	trump on slowing down covid19 testing: we've done too good of a job testing
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 1:35:41 PM #2	Having the largest amount of Covid cases is what he meant by making America "great" again, it seems. --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
Topic	Caution man good.
GrandConjuraton 06/22/20 1:33:50 PM #16	Bluebomber182 posted... caution discord racist --- You were the lugubrious spirit, the geist that warned this frozen silent storm https://imgur.com/WXUtvXj
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