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Define people are going nuts. What exactly does that mean? What are you basing that on?

Tired-Insomniac posted...

You invited them to get naked and sacrifice a small goat.

which word was goat?

StarsOfCCTV posted...

That doesn't really make sense. There's the same number of women as there are men. If you are saying that there are more men than women on dating apps then there must be more women who are dating people they meet in person.

or a small pool of dudes dating many women?

Hast thou seen the white whale?

SiO4 posted...

My cat is not into that.
Funny thing is, sometimes when I first try to pick him up, he literally bucks me like a horse.
He usually lets me pick him up after that. Be for being held as you to burp a baby.
Cradling him would send him into some kind state.
I am not even sure what it would be because I know him enough to know he nope out of it.

~I might try though to see how it goes.
Wish my arteries luck!

Im so intrigued now.

He doesnt seem to mind.

John Green seems like a nice man but hes a hack.

TheRealDill2000 posted...

The deaths from the Corona virus are not on Trump's hands. The responses are handled at the state level. He has already made America great again, and I'm offended at being called a right winger. I lean pretty far to the left to the point that some coworkers have called me communist.

and I bone down so good some ladies have called me Don Juan.

also do you still hate dogs?

Competent leadership.

You SHOULD buy Im pretty sure you technically dont.

Its very rare these days that I buy a game and dont finish it, but uh... you see where Im going with this.

I actually liked the weapon durability mechanic. No joke.

Dont look at me - I had hope.

Back to life. Back to reality.

Something tells me this topic was not made in good faith.

I agree. Sequel looks weird - but the original game was awesome.

I've never played them - should I play the PS4 one? What are they like? Is it like a platformer? Someone sell it to me.

[screams in Rydell]

Most of the complaints seem to be directed at the Tower Knight. Besides that, like the shots you posted, I think it looks AMAZING.

I haven't looked closely but it depends on the release dates of things like Demons Souls, Horizon and Spiderman. If one of those comes out before the end of the year then that's probably when I'll get one.

Creature from the Black Lagoon, and... I dunno a gargoyle or something.

I'm currently reading Shogun by James Clavell, it's great, but fat as a phone book. It's historical fiction. Just read Hyperion by Dan Simmons, which is a great sci-fi, I'd recommend that too. Or something like The Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follet. The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas if you're interested in a black perspective on 'current' events.

That is so classic Hanzo mains.

VanananaHeyHey posted...

tl;dr: Don't bother reading it, it turned into a whole pity party. Basically, I had a narcissist mom who kept me isolated and discouraged me from setting or working toward goals.

My circumstances were pretty normal from the outside and other people on CE have definitely had worse things going on. My life is and always has been blessed. I lived in the same house my whole childhood and my parents were married, unhappily but very stably. We didn't have a lot of extra money, but we never had to worry about groceries or heat or car repairs, so solidly middle-class in a good school district and all that.

But I had/have a narcissist, hoarder, quintessential Boomer mother who also has some undiagnosed social disorder. I'm not trying to be mean, she truly has no understanding of social cues of what's appropriate, is unable to follow simple conversations, is a pathological liar... She is in constant competition with me even now, at 31. She likes to project this attitude of being a breezy hippie, but she's a micromanaging toddler with no actual foresight and no inner bliss.

I wasn't allowed to have friends over I can still count how many times it happened because it was so rare. Her reason was always that she "just didn't feel like dealing with it" and that the house was "trashed," but we weren't allowed to get rid of anything and any attempt to systematically tidy up had her devolving into screaming within ten minutes. I wasn't allowed to go over to friends' houses because "then we'd have to invite them over here sometime." Our house is gorgeous because my dad spent all his free time (he worked a full-time job and she didn't) cleaning and maintaining the house and property. So other than her hoarding, which was kept out of sight from the main area we would be entertaining in, it was all just bullshit.

She was a freelance seamstress, but she complained whenever she got work and would just shut herself in her sewing room watching cop shows and smoking weed, using the project she wasn't working on or billing as an excuse to not let me have friends over or take me anywhere. "You can't take things so seriously" is what I was always told when I wanted to do something, when a promised outing was denied/"forgotten," when I had a goal I wanted to keep track of, when I thought an unfinished goal of hers might be fun to do together, when I had a frustration about something and wanted help from her... Just always, her answer was to chillax and quit.

I was dissuaded from sports or extracurriculars; I wasn't allowed to quit once I signed up, but the whole season, she would complain about how much of a burden it was to drive me around and put toxic earworms into my mind about the people there or the rigors of the hobby or the infeasibility of it becoming a lucrative, worthwhile or skillful use of my time, so I usually gave up after a year unless it was something I really wanted to hope for. She also gaslit me about those things I did like and was good at; she called me 'unathletic' my whole life, despite me swimming by age three, doing five years of dance, climbing trees and hauling bricks my whole childhood, three years of competitive swimming, two years of intramural weightlifting club, using a stationary bike for twenty miles a day in high school while reading my homework, and then rowing in grad school. And she kept me on starvation diets from about age 8 until I moved out, despite being morbidly obese herself.

I wasn't allowed to have toys in my room, so I spent all my time in the basement playing by myself, surrounded by her half-fished projects she got bored with (like me). This isolation extended into high school; dates were allowed to come over for Sunday dinner and a movie on the couch, but there were no parties in or out of the house, I had to be home by 8:30 on nights that I worked and I wasn't allowed to drive to school on days I didn't work. The only thing I was allowed to do was high school theater in the props department, because she taught the tech kids to sew (for free, just as an excuse to not have full-time work or to help my dad with the house). She gave the tech kids fun and useful life advice about dating and drugs, then would come home and accuse me of doing the partying that they had told her about them doing. And, like, punish me for it. I got onto CE when I was 14 or 15 because it was the only place I could make friends without her being the famous "Cool Mom" who overshadowed me. She even made me give her my AIM password and would log in to pretend to be me sometimes.

I got to have a literal handful of sleepovers and five birthday parties between birth and 21. I was expected to come home multiple times a month during undergrad. She told me from the time I was a kid that it would be my job to take care of them both when they were old and "change her diapers." I actually did move back in with them when I was 28 with my spouse, but it's so intolerable that we've been looking to move out. I love my dad and he's my idol, but he got the Bad Ending with her.

Damn, sorry to hear that. I hope you can still have a good life and feel like you experienced some of the things you missed, or at least close enough to be fulfilled!

Well well well.

literally shaking and crying rn

... okay not really but I am going to watch this trailer several more times.

Awwwwww yeah.

apocalyptic_4 posted...

Only regret is not hooking up with this girl I met in college. Also wish I took my finances more seriously when I was younger. No major regrets yet.

Did you ever finish The Wire?

Lyrica posted...

I didn't want to dedicate the time. But then I ended up going to school for approx 8 years anyway.

4 years - Bachelors in nursing
2 years - Masters in nursing
1.5 years - Post master's in nurse practitioner

And now I'm planning on going for my doctorates in nursing, smh. I regret going for nursing but I'm so far in that I might as well finish what I started.

Surely all those quals would lead to a fulfilling career in its own way?

dave_is_slick posted...

I literally don't remember a single thing about her.

maybe you just forgot to take your brain medicine.

PsychicHippo posted...

Majoring in the arts, or at least stopping at only a BA. I might as well have not gone to school at all.

you must have learned some transferable skills. Enriched your life? All that jazz?

AlisLandale posted...

Theres a couple of things I could do. And I actually am trying. But its a battle against myself in a lot of ways. I feel like Ive been trying forever, its just hard to overcome homeostasis and not backslide into old habits.

Im really pushing though to improve myself, really. I guess I dont want too much out of life than to be able to look back and not regret wasting it all

I dont know if this will help at all but one thing I did was a To Done list. I had a normal wall calendar and every single day my goal was to have at least one thing written down for that day that was self improvement. I was pretty broad with it though, so reading a book counted, learning a new recipe, socialising with friends, and if I had multiple things, great. Eventually I hated having blank days so I would push to at least do something even if it was late and it was just reading or writing or whatever.

Do you know or do you think?

AlisLandale posted...

lol.

Im married to the woman I love and have a pretty decent life in Korea atm.

Im constantly plagued by angsty melancholy and general bitterness about everything though. I joke around by saying Im perpetually miserable, but its pretty accurate. The only way I know how to function socially and emotionally is to accept and be content with the idea that everything sucks and will never get better.

which sounds really edgy, but it actually gives me a weird feeling of peace that contrasts with the misery that generates it.

idk. Id say Im good enough. Lol

Hmm, I function in a similar way, though maybe not as dire as all that. What do you want from life? Do you know anything you could do that would improve it?

Lyrica posted...

Not going to med school when I had the chance.

Why didnt you?

AlisLandale posted...

Thanks. Yeah Im pretty ok these days. >_>

Pretty okay? Explain yo self son.

AlisLandale posted...

Oh. >_>

I suppose in simplest terms, there were things about myself I didnt fully understand. With the proper education and guidance, I might have been able to pursue them.

But by doing that, Id pretty much lose every friend I had at the time, and drastically change the relationship I had with my parents, which was never that good to begin with, but would have turned out...interesting.

The flip side tho is that I would have resolved these things when I was 12 and have developed into a more complete person, and not just beginning to come to terms with them at 30, fufufufufufu

Ahh, I understand. Interesting - thank you for that. Well I hope youre doing okay now.

cjsdowg posted...

I just couldn't stand her. She live in a upper middle class family, and all she did was judge other people and complain. Most of the popular kids are nice to her and she is mean to them. She was mean to Jean her best friend anytime she tried to do more. "Oh you playing sports now.. then fuck you." Her parents were great parents who cared about her and she ragged on them time after time.

I wonder how much of that was 90s myopia. Like if it was set today what kind of person would she be? Still so disaffected? Would the writers make the family so well off?

Does it need to be a coworker as a reference? I used my supervisor but she was the only person I told because she was awesome.

Veggeta X posted...

Thanks. Now I can stop responding to your nonsense.

I was just asking a genuine question dude. Calm ya farm.

AlisLandale posted...

There are some things I know now, about some questions I had when I was much younger, that had I known at the time, my life would have gone in a completely different direction. Like, total 180 in terms of everything. General happiness, prospects, social circles...

Thinking about it now I wonder if like, had I known these things and life turned out differently, would that happiness be worth losing what I have now? Because my current life is actually really shitty, but there are a handful of things I have that really do make it worth it.

Its like theres two possible timelines. Timeline Prime is me being a bitter, miserable wanker but having a handful of amazing things, and Timeline Alternate is having a genuinely good life, without those best things.

idk...

I really wanna hear the details of this too if you can be bothered to type it out sometime.

Veggeta X posted...

Before I continue explaining, lemme ask you this. Do you genuinely really want to know?

I guess it depends how much of a troll youre being. How much does a show or movie have to beat its audience over the head? Or is there a point where you just have to accept a lot people are going to miss certain aspects unless its spelled out for them?

VanananaHeyHey posted...

I fucked up in college and grad school big-time, both socially and academically. I grew up in weird circumstances, so I didn't know how to focus or make friends and in retrospect I really missed out on a lot.

can you expand on what your circumstances were growing up?

Veggeta X posted...

Exactly. Kinda like how in the movie Fight Club, the audience loves Tyler Durden even though the end point of the movie is to show what an awful ideal he had.

so whats your point then?

Veggeta X posted...

Doesn't matter if the audience does.

doesnt matter... to what?

Definitely.

I loved the original so Im keen!

--Zero- posted...

Black
Condemned Criminal Origins
Taz-Mania
Aero the Acro-Bat
Bucky O Hare
Gallerians Ash
Eternal Darkness
Sunset Riders
Legaia 2
The Incredible Machine
Commander Keen
Shinobi
Clay Fighters
Earthworm Jim
2xtreme
Super Bowling Snes

I really enjoyed Black. And to this day Eternal Darkness is one of my favourite games ever.

I enjoyed 3 after being disappointed with 2. I should play it again sometime. I remember playing through 1 about 8 times. Including recently with the 3DS release. Still holds up.

Remember Heavenly Sword?