Current Events > I think I've outgrown Counting Crows

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I was listening to a bunch of their songs last night, and it just kinda clicked. Like there's always been that little bit of a buffer because of lines like "I'll miss you while she slips into something comfortable, and I'll miss you when I'm slipping in between" - eww - but I think the angsty, unlucky-in-love vibe of it all is a step behind my own personal development.

Like I'm not gonna act like I'm this mad Casanova douchebag slaying mad poon all weekend every weekend. As a matter of fact, I'm pretty unlucky in love. I won't get into it because CE's userbase is like a gang of sharks that can smell cringe in the water from 5 miles away, but I've been rejected a lot and I'm not super sexually experienced with women. Men, sure - I'm open online about my bisexuality. But not so much with the ladies.

That being said, I had a moment recently after a not-great hookup with a trans girl. I've been doing the hookup thing for way too long, and I realised that if I was gonna like meet someone and have sex and all that, I want to find someone I get along with beforehand and just sort of settle in with them beforehand. idk, I'm just more self-conscious and I wanna start settling down.

Counting Crows appeals to that sort of wistful loneliness, Adam Duritz got dumped a lot, but I put a lot of stock into that melancholic looking back at things that went wrong. Nowadays, I wanna look forward and put myself into finding someone.

Another aspect of it is when I saw them live back in April. The music sounded great, but I've been commenting that the band looked really old and it kinda took me out of it all. I think I realised why - Adam Duritz is a 60 year old man singing songs about heartbreak that hit the public when he was 30. They're songs of heartbreak and longing that I associate with my own youthful angst, coming from a sixty year old man. And like I get that Elton John and Rod Stewart and Barry Manilow etc. still do their old love songs because of what they mean to their audience, but it was just kind of a jarring experience. The music was phenomenal, they put their entire crussy into that concert, but there was a weird dissonance to it.

I still like the music to a degree, but I think what really connected me to it is gone. My priorities are changing as a person, and confronting the ageing of it has left me in a really weird headspace. It's not that I don't like the band or their music any more, it's that it doesn't strike the same chord it used to for a couple of different reasons. I still like songs like Omaha and Rain King and all that, but singing about like "we're not together and I miss that but I've gotta process our love and here's a bunch of grandiose expressions of how I feel" is just kinda out of my wheelhouse now.

August was basically a love letter to his X.

Mr. Jones and he are gonna be disappointed.

Colorblind is their only song I like

Have_A_Cigar posted...

Colorblind is their only song I like

Colorblind is the only song of theirs I dislike lmao. I guess we're mortal enemies or something.

I wasn't super flash on Somewhere Under Wonderland though.