Current Events > I am going insane AMA

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So the story thus far is I got some new Melatonin the other day to help me sleep, because my other stuff had expired. It's the same brand and type, but it's twice as strong (10mg instead of 5) because we couldn't find the weaker dose.

The MOMENT I took it, I fucked up my entire sleep schedule.
Scratch that, I no longer have a sleep schedule.

Ever since then, I've been sleeping for only 2 hours, 2-3 times a day. I'll wake up after 2 hours and just cannot fall back asleep. But it's not because I'm feeling awake and refreshed, no sirree!
Actually, I feel like death.

I've decided to stop taking the Melatonin, despite it meaning I basically wasted 26 dollars. I wound up taking like 3-4 of them over the course of the same amount of days, because I wanted to make sure it wasn't just a one-time fluke or something. Sure enough, I think these are completely fucking me up. But at this point, I think it's too late. My body has already adjusted to this new form of not-sleep. Well, by "adjusted" I mean it physically won't let me sleep.

Not helping this is the fact that I have nothing to do. Usually, by the time I get bored for the day, I've been up long enough that I can go to sleep. But NOPE! Not this time! Now, not only do I have nothing to do, but I have to S U F F E R with the knowledge that I have nothing to do! I have to remain in the world of the conscious! And I hate every millisecond of it.

I have this video up in the background because I posted it in another topic: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h702VNHCVu0

I am about 35 minutes into it and counting. THAT is how bored I am. What has my life become.

So basically, in case you need a TL;DR: This is my descent into madness.

Draw lots of dicks.

Don't post them here as that would violate the ToU; but draw them.

Trumble posted...

Draw lots of dicks.

Don't post them here as that would violate the ToU; but draw them.

WHO'S BEEN DRAWIN' DICKS?!

I am a horrible artist though

Are you seeing things that aren't there?

imjusthere4fun posted...

Are you seeing things that aren't there?

Not yet. Well, saying "not yet" kinda implies it'll happen, but I'm pretty sure it won't, because it's not that I'm getting NO sleep. I'm still probably getting 5-6 hours across the whole day, it's just split up so I'm still really tired.

Probably doesn't help that my body is (or at least, was) used to ~12 hours a night, all at once.

If you have nothing to do, do you at least have things to think about?

You like porkchops?

ViewtifulJoe posted...

If you have nothing to do, do you at least have things to think about?

Yes

And that's the problem.

Big_Nabendu posted...

You like porkchops?

nah

MarbyIsBack posted...

Yes

And that's the problem.

Okay well is there anything you enjoy thinking about in there?

ViewtifulJoe posted...

Okay well is there anything you enjoy thinking about in there?

Not particularly. If I start to get lost in my head, all the depressing stuff rattling around in there would just make me feel worse, so I typically try to avoid that.

The exception is when I go to bed, as thinking about depressing shit actually tends to lull me to sleep, at least when combined with a melatonin. I've basically mastered weaponizing my depression to help knock me out at night.

But since sleeping isn't really an option right now anyway...

Practice sex moves

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=HAixEKnx1i0

Well that makes it sound like going insane is nothing new.