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1. That all of your happy times were behind you?
2. That you'd never fall in love?
3. That you'd never have a fun exciting hook up?
4. That you'd never get to feel smart?
5. That you'd never get to feel attractive?
6. That non of your dreams will ever come true?
7. That nothing you work on will ever matter to anybody?
8. That the warm feeling of joy/childhood that gave color to the universe was forever dead for you?

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joe

stop doing this to yourself

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This is the topic of a person who is depressed.

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SrRd_RacinG posted...

This is the topic of a person who is depressed.

Less depressed more succumbed to the incel mindset

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Topics like these make me want to leave CE

I can't relate to you people. Life is beautiful, I come here to laugh at jokes and talk video games

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Like 20 years ago. I'm 39 now. I gave up a long time ago

Coloradough posted...

Topics like these make me want to leave CE

I can't relate to you people. Life is beautiful, I come here to laugh at jokes and talk video games

This, like talk about projection here you know?

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Coloradough posted...

Topics like these make me want to leave CE

I can't relate to you people. Life is beautiful, I come here to laugh at jokes and talk video games

Please share your positivity. I love hearing people who can't fathom hopelessness, it helps heal some of my poisoned worldview.

I wish I had a more positive place to hang out too. I prey I'm wrong about everything. But I can't ever believe it no matter how hard I try.

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Aki_Sora posted...

12

Really?

12 was nice. I could still feel all the positive feelings at 12.

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Get some zoloft TC

ThirstForBLOOD posted...

Get some zoloft TC

I've been on different meds. They generally just make life more pretend which doesn't help my problems.

I'm trying, I'm still spending like a third of my paycheck to see a psychologist weekly.

But I'm pretty sure the time in which my life could have turned around is behind me. And ironically this thought which grows worse with time is the thought that has always poisoned me.

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joe40001 posted...

I've been on different meds. They generally just make life more pretend which doesn't help my problems.

I'm trying, I'm still spending like a third of my paycheck to see a psychologist weekly.

But I'm pretty sure the time in which my life could have turned around is behind me. And ironically this thought which grows worse with time is the thought that has always poisoned me.

Sounds like you're overthinking stuff. Play some games/get drunk/watch a movie or something

ThirstForBLOOD posted...

Sounds like you're overthinking stuff. Play some games/get drunk/watch a movie or something

When I try to do things like that I simply don't feel any positive emotion.

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1. 11 or 12
2. Happened twice. Won't happen again
3. 21 or 22
4. 16
5. 10
6. 20
7. 11 or 12
8. 11 or 12

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joe40001 posted...

Really?

12 was nice. I could still feel all the positive feelings at 12.

I'm 25 now and my feeling still the same when I was 12 no difference.

All I do now it repeat everything

Wake up morning > go to work > go home > sleep

And I still have no first love I really jealous to see people falling love for the first time.

Ohh I also don't drink, go to club/party and smoke

On my off day I always at home
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joe40001 posted...

When I try to do things like that I simply don't feel any positive emotion.

Sometimes its more important to just be occupied by something than to get emotional gratification from it

There is a point when pity gives way to contempt. I think we are at that point here.

Gotta love a topic about depression full of people that are poster children for why people never talk about depression until it is far too late.

I think my true happiness died at 12 or 13. My ability to live numbly has been dying for the last couple of years (now 42) and I just want to sleep until I die.

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lightwarrior78 posted...

Gotta love a topic about depression full of people that are poster children for why people never talk about depression until it is far too late.

I think my true happiness died at 12 or 13. My ability to live numbly has been dying for the last couple of years (now 42) and I just want to sleep until I die.

This isn't just depression, it's depression that has been manipulated by toxic Internet bullshit. The best thing for tc is to stay away from reddit

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Short answer to all;

Before I was 14.

I'm 37 now and it's been as miserable an existence as you might expect.
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None of this applies to me so I wouldn't know

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1. Hasn't
2. Hasn't
3. Don't want any more of those
4. Hasn't
5. Hasn't
6. Hasn't
7. Impossible
8. 13

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joe40001 posted...

1. That all of your happy times were behind you?
2. That you'd never fall in love?
3. That you'd never have a fun exciting hook up?
4. That you'd never get to feel smart?
5. That you'd never get to feel attractive?
6. That non of your dreams will ever come true?
7. That nothing you work on will ever matter to anybody?
8. That the warm feeling of joy/childhood that gave color to the universe was forever dead for you?

Never had any happy times.
30.
30.
15.
15.
20.
Always knew.
Never had that.

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Joe, youre losing it

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Joe's drinking again guys.

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dj1200 posted...

Joe, youre losing it

I'm depressed af, what do you want from me?

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TC, you ought to try some psychedelics if you haven't. Seriously.
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none of these have ever dawned on me and i will try my damnedest to make sure they never do

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joe40001 posted...

Please share your positivity. I love hearing people who can't fathom hopelessness, it helps heal some of my poisoned worldview.

I wish I had a more positive place to hang out too. I prey I'm wrong about everything. But I can't ever believe it no matter how hard I try.

My positivity comes from knowing I have a secure job and am good enough at it that I would be one of the last to be let go. My kids bring me a ton a joy because I can relive vicariously through them as I share the things that made my childhood special. My wife also brings a lot of happiness to my life because I have someone that helps me stay on a better path and someone to lean on when I need support and someone to support when they need it because helping people makes me feel good.

I hope this post helps cure some of that poisoned view.

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1. What happy times?
2. I never wanted this though.
3. See above.
4. I don't want to be smart, being stupid is nice.
5. I am attractive. Or so I've been told by some. Maybe they lied but it's fine.
6. I never had any dreams though.
7. People have to realize this?
8. I didn't have a happy childhood.

._.

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Beefbud posted...

none of these have ever dawned on me and i will try my damnedest to make sure they never do

Good for you, you are approaching these things right.

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In my experience, this type of depression can only be fixed by taking positive steps to change everything about your life. While some depression is purely mental, depression like what I'm seeing in this topic is caused by a deep dissatisfaction with one's social life, career (or lack thereof), inadequate financial stability, and poor or nonexistent romantic/sex life. Taking meds isn't gonna work, "just being more positive" isn't gonna work, you are depressed because of concrete real life factors that most people will never understand.

My advice is to just throw everything in your life away and start fresh. Quit your job (if you have one), sell all your unnecessary belongings, stop posting on message boards, and devote your time toward something that you feel will make other people's lives better, even if it's just volunteer work. So many people are stuck at the bottom because they are clinging to the comfort of the familiar. Ironically they often get to a point where they throw it all away by committing suicide, yet it never occurs to them to just throw it all away while still staying alive. You have nothing to lose, take advantage of that.

joe40001 posted...

1. That all of your happy times were behind you?
2. That you'd never fall in love?
3. That you'd never have a fun exciting hook up?
4. That you'd never get to feel smart?
5. That you'd never get to feel attractive?
6. That non of your dreams will ever come true?
7. That nothing you work on will ever matter to anybody?
8. That the warm feeling of joy/childhood that gave color to the universe was forever dead for you?

Find a good therapist

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20 years ago

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BanjoBoomer posted...

In my experience, this type of depression can only be fixed by taking positive steps to change everything about your life. While some depression is purely mental, depression like what I'm seeing in this topic is caused by a deep dissatisfaction with one's social life, career (or lack thereof), inadequate financial stability, and poor or nonexistent romantic/sex life. Taking meds isn't gonna work, "just being more positive" isn't gonna work, you are depressed because of concrete real life factors that most people will never understand.

My advice is to just throw everything in your life away and start fresh. Quit your job (if you have one), sell all your unnecessary belongings, stop posting on message boards, and devote your time toward something that you feel will make other people's lives better, even if it's just volunteer work. So many people are stuck at the bottom because they are clinging to the comfort of the familiar. Ironically they often get to a point where they throw it all away by committing suicide, yet it never occurs to them to just throw it all away while still staying alive. You have nothing to lose, take advantage of that.

I agree with most of this. Although if someone is living paycheck to paycheck as many people do, suggesting that they quit their job isn't exactly reasonable even though ultimately it probably is one of the things they need to do.

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You need some joy in your life. Watch vtubers

Which meds did you try, joe?

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Temporal posted...

Which meds did you try, joe?

Fetzima
Citalopram
Buproprion
Escitalopram
Vyvanse
Vyvid
Sertraline

And like 5-10 more I don't remember the name of.


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Ilishe posted...

Find a good therapist

I found a really good one in 2017.

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BanjoBoomer posted...

In my experience, this type of depression can only be fixed by taking positive steps to change everything about your life. While some depression is purely mental, depression like what I'm seeing in this topic is caused by a deep dissatisfaction with one's social life, career (or lack thereof), inadequate financial stability, and poor or nonexistent romantic/sex life. Taking meds isn't gonna work, "just being more positive" isn't gonna work, you are depressed because of concrete real life factors that most people will never understand.

Yes.


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joe40001 posted...

Fetzima
Citalopram
Buproprion
Escitalopram
Vyvanse
Vyvid
Sertraline

And like 5-10 more I don't remember the name of.

Did you have any success with Wellbutrin (Bupropion)?

How many milligrams were you prescribed?

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Temporal posted...

Did you have any success with Wellbutrin (Bupropion)?

How many milligrams were you prescribed?

I don't remember, so far the one that seems to work best for me is citalopram, but even that has some serious downsides.

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Haven't felt any of these yet TC. Hopefully never.

sLaCkEr408___RJ posted...

Haven't felt any of these yet TC. Hopefully never.

I too hope you never feel these, it's traumatic to feel them all all the time.

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You okay there, fella?

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joe40001 posted...

I too hope you never feel these, it's traumatic to feel them all all the time.

Hang in there

sLaCkEr408___RJ posted...

Hang in there

Oh I have/will.

Unfortunately, despite what people say, simply waiting out depression doesn't heal it, often it makes it worse, because your regrets compound.

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