Current Events > Today is the first day in my depression recovery, I hope.

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It's become very, very bad, and I've finally set up a phone appointment with a doctor. I don't even know if I selected the correct doctor to help me since I didn't see any one have, "Mental health," as a title. They could still let me know who I could talk to, right? It's at 3 today, and I'm pretty nervous to be honest.

My main concern is that I'm not going to be able to describe how I feel since I'm so introverted, so I've made myself a list and will add to it today if I think of anything. Or they're going to think I'm lying or being too dramatic. And I'm not, not by a long shot. I badly need help

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May Loki be on your side.

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Well, I'm proud of you. Getting help is not easy when you're in the thick of it. So I think you're doing a great job. Making the list is an excellent idea. Give your mind a break, and just go to the list. Just hang in there man. It's hard now, it won't always be like this. You're on the right track. Just keep working your plan. Hang in there. Thank you for sharing.

Cocytus posted...

Well, I'm proud of you. Getting help is not easy when you're in the thick of it. So I think you're doing a great job. Making the list is an excellent idea. Give your mind a break, and just go to the list. Just hang in there man. It's hard now, it won't always be like this. You're on the right track. Just keep working your plan. Hang in there. Thank you for sharing.

Thanks. I hope I can get some help. Has anyone here had anything like this before? Like, whats going to happen. I need some medication, I think.

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Okay, just have to make it though work, but that's where I'm usually the most happy at.

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Lmk how it goes dude I hate seeing ppl struggle.

I've been dealing w mental health issues since I was a kid so shoot me a PM if you feel like it if you have any questions abt what to expect etc

Good luck bud!

Starting taking anxiety medication back in October and for what its worth, Im feeling way better now. That medication will knock you out though because its basically pure seratonin, so make sure you have some sort of caffeine around lol

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You think you have depression? I have bipolar 1. I was born in the depression. Molded by it.

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Best of luck to you. Have you tried talking to a therapist? They put me in contact with a good psychiatrist who got me the meds I needed.

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weekoldhotdog posted...

You think you have depression? I have bipolar 1. I was born in the depression. Molded by it.

I don't know what I have. I've been really depressed for a long time now

15 or so more mins until my phone call with the doctor.
Xatrion posted...

Have you tried talking to a therapist?

No. I just picked the first doctor available and I'll let them make the best suggestion for me. I would love to go and talk to a therapist, but now with the pandemic it would be hard for me. I don't like doing FaceTime, I want to be there in person.

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Good luck, these are trying times.

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Don't be afraid to go into detail. They won't be bothered by anything, they're there to listen.

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EnvoyOfTheLight posted...

Don't be afraid to go into detail. They won't be bothered by anything, they're there to listen.

Yeah, I wrote a list this morning so I don't leave anything out. I've added to it while I was at work

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I'm shaking now. I'm so nervous

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Seeing a therapist allowed me to take the steps to process my own anxiety and depression.
I'm glad to hear that you are taking your mental health seriously.

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Bad_Mojo posted...

Yeah, I wrote a list this morning so I don't leave anything out. I've added to it while I was at work

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I'm shaking now. I'm so nervous

Haven't divulged much about yourself before?

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did it happen yet? If so how did it go? and I can relate to the feeling of anxiety you are experiencing, I felt the same way when I went to see a therapist

It went really well. We talked about 20 mins, the main concern she had was making sure I wasn't going to self-harm. Talked it out, got a number for a person to talk to tomorrow to start looking for someone to talked to once or twice a week. And then got prescribed some Sertraline. Half a pill for the first week, and then a whole one after that. I could have got 3 months, but I just picked up a month worth to see how it goes for me.

Now that it's over, I'm happy I've taken this step. It's been a long time coming. Thanks for all the support

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Bad_Mojo posted...

It went really well. We talked about 20 mins, the main concern she had was making sure I wasn't going to self-harm. Talked it out, got a number for a person to talk to tomorrow to start looking for someone to talked to once or twice a week. And then got prescribed some Sertraline. Half a pill for the first week, and then a whole one after that. I could have got 3 months, but I just picked up a month worth to see how it goes for me.

Now that it's over, I'm happy I've taken this step. It's been a long time coming. Thanks for all the support

Be sure to let the doctor know if you encounter any negative side effects, i think everyone is affected differently and if a medication isn't working for you then you could always try a different one

Ceresmie posted...

Be sure to let the doctor know if you encounter any negative side effects, i think everyone is affected differently and if a medication isn't working for you then you could always try a different one

Yeah. She's going to call in two weeks to check in on me. And I'm talking to someone tomorrow, I think. I have a number

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Day 2 -

I slept a bit better last night. It still took me a long while to fall asleep, but it wasn't because I was thinking horrible thoughts all night, it was because it was a bit too hot in my room.

Didn't hit myself last night, so that's good

Took my 1/2 pill around 7pm, today I'm going to take it after I eat the breakfast I'm having right now. Then on Monday, which I don't have to work, I'll take a whole pill

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Good for you, tc. I'm really proud of you.

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It is so difficult to take the initiative to get help. So happy for you! It's so cliche but it does get better!

So this half-pills seems to be hitting me a bit harder than last night, and I have to leave to work in an hour, lol. I'm not really tired, but I feel relaxed

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Ah, they put you on Zoloft, eh? I know it affects everyone differently, but make sure you take it regularly. I was on it for years before they switched me over to lexapro. Worked well for a while, but man, it gave me some severe... intestinal issues if I forgot to take it one day.

Wish you the best of luck, man. You got this

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SteveNasti posted...

Ah, they put you on Zoloft, eh? I know it affects everyone differently, but make sure you take it regularly. I was on it for years before they switched me over to lexapro. Worked well for a while, but man, it gave me some severe... intestinal issues if I forgot to take it one day.

Wish you the best of luck, man. You got this

Thanks. Yeah, I think that's what it is. That isn't what it says on the bottle, so maybe it's some generic kind? I don't know why I would have to get generic, though, I have good insurance and plenty of money. I'm pretty new to taking medication in general. I hardly even get sick to take cold stuff and I don't get headaches to take pain medication.

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Bad_Mojo posted...

Thanks. Yeah, I think that's what it is. That isn't what it says on the bottle, so maybe it's some generic kind? I don't know why I would have to get generic, though, I have good insurance and plenty of money. I'm pretty new to taking medication in general. I hardly even get sick to take cold stuff and I don't get headaches to take pain medication.

Yea Sertraline is the generic name. There ain't no difference, so don't worry about all that.

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Okay, thanks

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Having my first conversation with a therapist today. Well, setting it up soon and hopefully I can get one this afternoon. Not sure how it works, tbh. Ill find out in an hour or so

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Bad_Mojo posted...

It went really well. We talked about 20 mins, the main concern she had was making sure I wasn't going to self-harm. Talked it out, got a number for a person to talk to tomorrow to start looking for someone to talked to once or twice a week. And then got prescribed some Sertraline. Half a pill for the first week, and then a whole one after that. I could have got 3 months, but I just picked up a month worth to see how it goes for me.

Now that it's over, I'm happy I've taken this step. It's been a long time coming. Thanks for all the support

Awesome!

props, man.

it's not always easy to open up to others, especially with something so sensitive.

I'm rooting for you.

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First meeting is next Wednesday at 3pm on the phone.

Thank you, everyone, for the support.

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I think today I'm going to take my half pill after work and not before. I'm happy at work, always have been. It's when I get stuck home alone that I start feeling down. These last two days have been easy for me, but as the night gets further alone I get more and more down. So yeah, I think I'll take it after work.

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tag for support for tc. I feel you friend, and hope we all do better on ourselves this year. You got this tc.

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Bad_Mojo posted...

I think today I'm going to take my half pill after work and not before. I'm happy at work, always have been. It's when I get stuck home alone that I start feeling down. These last two days have been easy for me, but as the night gets further along I get more and more down. So yeah, I think I'll take it after work.

Awesome that you are solving this out step by step like this - but seems like you're absolutely right on the money man

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Hope it goes well for you, goodluck

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Okay, a few thoughts -

Like I said, I didn't take my pill before work today thinking it would be better to wait to take it after work because that's when I would get my most depressed. I only made it an hour, though, and I could feel myself getting sad again. The two ladies I worked with here talking to each other, and I felt left out. I've never felt that way before, not the entire time I've worked with them. But today it kind of made me sad, so ended up working only 1 hour before I took it.

So, I don't know what this is, tbh. Does it means that the pill is working for me and now that I know how happy I can be it makes me miss it? Did I get down because of a withdrawal from it? It shouldn't be effected me this much this soon, can it?

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