Poll of the Day > I hate that I hate my life....

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I'm 24 years old and just unhappy with life. The unfair part is I'm living what a lot of people dream of (unfair as in for other than myself.) I've got a beautiful girlfriend, part of the military, and making more than a lot of people would just hope to make. I'm living the dream of many, and I'm unhappy which sucks....

I've got this beautiful girlfriend that I do love. I snuggle up to her every night and think how lucky I am every night about how I'm holding her every night and wake up beside her. I love her I really do. Yet, I'm not in love with her. I have reoccurring dreams of something else that bothers me. Not so much a girl that's better looking than her, but just something else than what I've got. A picture of a girl that's just, I don't know, that Disney movie romance.....

I've got somewhat of a career with the Army National Guard (part time army (weekend warrior)) doing a job I kick ass at. I've got more awards than my active duty counterparts could dream about, and just fulfilling jobs outside of my rank because I'm just that good at it. Yet, I want another job with the military. I love the national guard, just not what I'm doing. I'm beyond good at what I do, but I want something else.

Civilian side I've got a foreman job at what I'm doing making bank. I make more than my dad makes, and I even make more than my brother who's making bank I thought before I took this job. I'm just not passionate about it.

I've got a beautiful girlfriend, making $60k-$80k a year depending on overtime and what training I get out of the guard.... and yet I'm unhappy. And it pisses me off because I've got what a lot of people dream of. I'm unhappy with life, and to make it worse I'm fortunate in life with just make me feel sicker.

I'd gladly take the pay cut off 50% a year just to become a cop in my area (which I know they make half of what I make already). Which I keep applying for and get getting rejected. I want to transfer so badly out of my Army MOS but I know I'm needed badly with my unit and just can't find the heart to transfer because of it. I love the girl I'm with, but like I said I'm just not in love with her. I keep having these reoccurring dreams of someone I'm happier with that just isn't there.

I'm unhappy with life and I just don't know what to do. And thinking about how fortunate I am just makes it worse.......
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Weird, I'm a loser that's failed at everything and I love my life.
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Instead of living the life of what others dream of. Start living the life you dream of.

You're probably off balance chemically or in need of a greater challenge in life.
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Baardmeester posted...

Instead of living the life of what others dream of. Start living the life you dream of.

That's the thing. When I turned 18 I was living off my dad and brothers expectations. I got 2 years into a 4 year degree and then dropped out. I've already gone through the depression of not living up to my peers expectations. Of that I'd rather work and make money instead of going to school. Hell, in my area I'm making more than I would had I finished my degree. I'm hitting that point that I'm just not doing what I want to do.

I think I can see myself happy in a career of law enforcement. But I just can't get hired on without that bullshit degree of criminal law. But at the same time, I'm quite passionate towards carpentry and heavy equipment operations. But no one will hire a hobbiest of 12 years in each field since I've never done either career wise....... and neither of those careers offer a degree, just experience....... actual work experience.......
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Hopefully one day you wake up and realize how stupid this kind of mindset is while you still have some time to enjoy life.
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Just remember that dying = non existence so feeling sad (even with depression, I understand it's tough to fight depression) is a waste of time. Make the most of your life
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You know what dreams are?
They are undigested thoughts, that People have.
And your subconscious mind, simply looks at a table of these "thoughts" which you can or did have at
any given time in your life, and plays a game of, lets say, "Pick up Sticks" randomly with these thoughts in order to keep you alive during sleep. Other wise you would die. Likely...

Now a re occurring dream, thats where there is one "Stick" that's always around in your head, Somewhere.. And your mind just chooses it, cause it is easy to get to, or that you are subconsciously
thinking about it.

This, however can be a bad thing, if the "Stick" that is closest to access for the Subconscious, is a Bad one. (which yours doesn't seem to be)

Say like... For me, its a fear of being underwater and not being able to see far, and there are "Objects"
under the water, near by. I have re occurring dreams of stuff like that.

Only YOU, know why or where, this "Picture" thought of yours, came from.
Ask yourself.

Best of luck.
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I hate that you hate that you hate your life.
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Dump your girlfriend, quit your job, and do something else.
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There's no better person to talk about these issues than your girlfriend.
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Renraku_San posted...

I hate that you hate that you hate your life.

I hate that you hate that he hates that he hates his life.

You obviously just need a new good video game and you'll be happy again.

Wish they would make another Dark Souls, that would solve everyones problems.

Destiny 2 will be out soon though, that might be good.
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Currant_Kaiser posted...

Renraku_San posted...

I hate that you hate that you hate your life.

I hate that you hate that he hates that he hates his life.

I hate that you hate that he hates that OP hates his life
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wolfy42 posted...

You obviously just need a new good video game and you'll be happy again.

Wish they would make another Dark Souls, that would solve everyones problems.

Destiny 2 will be out soon though, that might be good.

Destiny sucked at what it wanted to be though
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