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SO....Christmas Eve night in Minnesota. Im at the bar, and my friends left. Had about an hour left, so I started binging Hennessy and coke. Why? Memories of a child I lost. I just didnt wanna think.

I got to texting like I like to do, and a female coworker I have a thing for offered to pick me up, even though I said I had a place to walk to. The last thing I remember clearly was her showing up and saying lets go.

WELL, fragmentary blackout time. I dont remember the drive. I dont remember going into her home.

What I DO very vaguely recall is being in a dark room and throwing up. Next thing I know, Im trying to leave cuz I feel bad. Suddenly, theres a guy telling me I cant leave. I recall a fistfight (that I lost). Somehow, I got outside. Mind you, its cold as all FUCK outside. Like 20 degrees.

I recall wandering a bit. At some point, she was there with a car telling me to get in. I refuse. I think the guy who hit me was there, too. Cops show up and take me to detox.

Next day, I get out. Except she texted me some details I dont recall, fuzzy or anything. Which horrified me. Basically, I started the fight with her male friend (what I barely remember is him pushing me from leaving and I tried to punch him), throwing up all over her sheets (I hate myself), apparently asking her to have sex. Supposedy I started yelling at her (I have ZERO memory of this), got emotional (I cried), yelled at her landlord, hit my head on the stairs, etc.

So I blacked out. I told her that, and sincerely apologized. But she says when the cop took my breathalyzer, I was barely over the legal limit. So she thinks I did all that shit in my right mind.

But that doesnt make any sense...I dont know in what time period ANY of this happened. All the googling I did showed throwing up can INCREASE your levels. I do recall being more coherent after wandering outside after awhile. It was literally a temperature that can kill you up here, and I actually recall laying in a field for a bit before they found me.

I vaguely remember getting punched several times in the head, but I remember the cuffs being way too tight. I cant refute or deny her claims cuz I only remember like two things. And even those didnt match up with what she told me.

Naturally, she fucking hates me now, and I feel incredibly guilty about what happened. She was trying to be kind to me, and in some drunken insanity, I tried to fight everyone after allegedly puking and being denied sex? The absolute fuck? Dont remember doing that. I THINK I told her I loved her though

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Sounds like you had a good Christmas
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I had a christmas hangover that went straight into the flu.

woo

Sometimes we cause our own destruction without any knowledge/memory of it. I had a night like this many years ago and I lost two really great friends. Nobody ever told me what happened. I think they thought I was pretending I blacked out so I wouldn't have to take responsibility, but I was asking what happened so I could take responsibility. The whole thing was a lesson in moderation.
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MabusIncarnate posted...

Sounds like you had a good Christmas

Yeah, I woke up in detox. Destroyed a friendship (and romance. We were semi involved). Shes also a coworker so I took a leave off work for personal reasons while I figure out what the fuck to do

SquirrelyDan posted...

Sometimes we cause our own destruction without any knowledge/memory of it. I had a night like this many years ago and I lost two really great friends. Nobody ever told me what happened. I think they thought I was pretending I blacked out so I wouldn't have to take responsibility, but I was asking what happened so I could take responsibility. The whole thing was a lesson in moderation.

Do you remember parts? Google tells me I had a fragmentary blackout. But it was like 90% cuz the rest she told me may as well be a fairy tale

you should probably cut back on the alcohol a bit.
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VipaGTS posted...

you should probably cut back on the alcohol a bit.

Trust me. I know. I hate myself

Kensaimage posted...

So I blacked out. I told her that, and sincerely apologized. But she says when the cop took my breathalyzer, I was barely over the legal limit. So she thinks I did all that shit in my right mind.

I mean if you threw up in her sheets and were acting completely abnormal, I think she should know you were hammered.
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Kensaimage posted...

SquirrelyDan posted...

Sometimes we cause our own destruction without any knowledge/memory of it. I had a night like this many years ago and I lost two really great friends. Nobody ever told me what happened. I think they thought I was pretending I blacked out so I wouldn't have to take responsibility, but I was asking what happened so I could take responsibility. The whole thing was a lesson in moderation.

Do you remember parts? Google tells me I had a fragmentary blackout. But it was like 90% cuz the rest she told me may as well be a fairy tale

I recall the 2 friends calling me at work to see if I wanted to go to a rave after work in Vermont. I agreed. Halfway there they tell me my ex gf (how I met these two friends) was going to be there with her new bf. I told them they'd better have plenty of stuff for me to get messed up with.

I'm not going to post the few things I remember after that because CE can kiss my dirty buns. Lol. But if you want I'll PM you the rest tomorrow. Going to watch a movie and hit the sack. Then I'm going to bed.
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WaterLink posted...

Kensaimage posted...

So I blacked out. I told her that, and sincerely apologized. But she says when the cop took my breathalyzer, I was barely over the legal limit. So she thinks I did all that shit in my right mind.

I mean if you threw up in her sheets and were acting completely abnormal, I think she should know you were hammered.

Right? Thats what I told her (after she TOLD me the next day I threw up). But she is utterly comnvinced that since the breathalyzer showed normal (who knows how long after) that Im lying to her. She thinks I remember the shitty things I apparently did

Id watch that movie.

SquirrelyDan posted...

Kensaimage posted...

SquirrelyDan posted...

Sometimes we cause our own destruction without any knowledge/memory of it. I had a night like this many years ago and I lost two really great friends. Nobody ever told me what happened. I think they thought I was pretending I blacked out so I wouldn't have to take responsibility, but I was asking what happened so I could take responsibility. The whole thing was a lesson in moderation.

Do you remember parts? Google tells me I had a fragmentary blackout. But it was like 90% cuz the rest she told me may as well be a fairy tale

I recall the 2 friends calling me at work to see if I wanted to go to a rave after work in Vermont. I agreed. Halfway there they tell me my ex gf (how I met these two friends) was going to be there with her new bf. I told them they'd better have plenty of stuff for me to get messed up with.

I'm not going to post the few things I remember after that because CE can kiss my dirty buns. Lol. But if you want I'll PM you the rest tomorrow. Going to watch a movie and hit the sack. Then I'm going to bed.

Yeah, if you like. Im trying to sort of come to terms with ruining this girls night. Words cant describr how shitty I felt when she told me what I did

Kensaimage posted...

WaterLink posted...

Kensaimage posted...

So I blacked out. I told her that, and sincerely apologized. But she says when the cop took my breathalyzer, I was barely over the legal limit. So she thinks I did all that shit in my right mind.

I mean if you threw up in her sheets and were acting completely abnormal, I think she should know you were hammered.

Right? Thats what I told her (after she TOLD me the next day I threw up). But she is utterly comnvinced that since the breathalyzer showed normal (who knows how long after) that Im lying to her. She thinks I remember the shitty things I apparently did

EDIT: not normal, but just above the legal limit.