Current Events > It really sucks when things like your birthday and thanksgiving come and go and

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You are so used to having a sad uneventful life where nothing is celebrated

You can't even remember what it felt like to have a happy celebration on these days.
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Last time my whole family got together was 2002. After that everybody drifted apart and of course the elderly died. That's how life goes man.
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KillerKhan420 posted...

Last time my whole family got together was 2002. After that everybody drifted apart and of course the elderly died. That's how life goes man.

Yes but it's horrible and sad and feels really really awful and I want to find a way to feel hope or joy or happiness again.
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I don't even celebrate my own birthday anymore. I only acknowledge Christmas because others do, otherwise it would be just another day to me.

The only holidays worth anything anymore are the ones where there are discounts on holiday candy/food the next day.
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SpiralDrift posted...

I don't even celebrate my own birthday anymore. I only acknowledge Christmas because others do, otherwise it would be just another day to me.

The only holidays worth anything anymore are the ones where there are discounts on holiday candy/food the next day.

I never acknowledge my birthday anymore, for multiple reasons, but a big one is that I feel my age is the single greatest signifier of how little hope there is.

I can once is a long time vaguely remember what it feels like to feel pride or happy, but it's so hard to tap into. But the feeling of being "celebrated" as a person, I can't remember that at all.
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joe40001 posted...

SpiralDrift posted...

I don't even celebrate my own birthday anymore. I only acknowledge Christmas because others do, otherwise it would be just another day to me.

The only holidays worth anything anymore are the ones where there are discounts on holiday candy/food the next day.

I never acknowledge my birthday anymore, for multiple reasons, but a big one is that I feel my age is the single greatest signifier of how little hope there is.

I can once is a long time vaguely remember what it feels like to feel pride or happy, but it's so hard to tap into. But the feeling of being "celebrated" as a person, I can't remember that at all.

Exactly.

I don't know if it's all bad, though. I mean it would be worse to realize all of this stuff is meaningless but still be forced to pretend it isn't. I'd be willing to bet most people who pretend to be "in the spirit" are just as dead inside. Could you imagine having to fake it like that? Much better to be openly done with it.
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Jfc

I'm gonna sound like I'm projecting here but are you ever gonna allow yourself to be happy again?

Life's a bitch and then you die, doesn't mean you can't enjoy yourself either way
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SpiralDrift posted...

joe40001 posted...

SpiralDrift posted...

I don't even celebrate my own birthday anymore. I only acknowledge Christmas because others do, otherwise it would be just another day to me.

The only holidays worth anything anymore are the ones where there are discounts on holiday candy/food the next day.

I never acknowledge my birthday anymore, for multiple reasons, but a big one is that I feel my age is the single greatest signifier of how little hope there is.

I can once is a long time vaguely remember what it feels like to feel pride or happy, but it's so hard to tap into. But the feeling of being "celebrated" as a person, I can't remember that at all.

Exactly.

I don't know if it's all bad, though. I mean it would be worse to realize all of this stuff is meaningless but still be forced to pretend it isn't. I'd be willing to bet most people who pretend to be "in the spirit" are just as dead inside. Could you imagine having to fake it like that? Much better to be openly done with it.

idk, I've had conversations with people where it legitimately seems like they like life and enjoy it.

I choose to believe people like us are just depressed af but have been that way so long you forget what the other side is like, but that doesn't mean the other side isn't there.

My best evidence for this is sometimes I dream and in the dreams I forget my negative beliefs or life situation and actually experience a sensation of excitement.
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That's why you have to celebrate them.

If you allow your birthday and holidays to pass by without anything memorable, it's your fault for not celebrating. I started to learn that in college and now I enjoy special days by making sure I celebrate them.
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You just need some good friends to help you make those days more enjoyable
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Yeah. I miss celebrating holidays.
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There is no hope.
No reason to make this topic OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER...
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My birthday is in a couple of weeks. I'm throwing a big ass party.
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