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Sounds like you were treated like shit. I was admitted for a few days...god, almost 15 years ago now. My experience doesn't sound anything like yours. Pennsylvania code keeps a person locked up for three days, and then they have to be reevaluated, or at least that was the rule then. Nobody in the facility treated me like I was beneath them, though. I didn't love being there, but I didn't have the impression the people hated their jobs and their patients, or need to have my shoes taken for fear of hanging myself from my shoelaces. I mean, maybe it's different when you actually move forward with an attempt, but it sounds like things were definitely not handled correctly.

As for moving forward, I'm not going to tell you it will get easier. But it might. One of the things that I definitely wasn't doing back then was staying true to the medication. I'd feel okay for a while and go off it, or maybe it wasn't really the right medication to start with. I definitely notice now if I accidentally miss a day. My mood is different enough that I can tell. However, that doesn't mean I don't ever had bad days, days when I'm convinced my life has no value or that the only reason I don't make some kind of plan is because my cats depend on me. So yeah, it sucks and it's shit, but I hope that you manage to cope in whatever form that takes. Just don't rule anything out until you've given it a legit shot. I used to think exercise was the dumbest thing in the freaking world, and now I really miss the gyms being closed due to COVID. One of the most important things for me, and I imagine for most of us, is a sense of worth and connection. The times when I've felt most like going off the deep end have honestly been the times I've feared losing my connection to this community. I hope you have several different networks you can feel a part of.

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