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One_Day_Remains posted...

You don't have the slightest goddamn clue how severe or "not severe" someone else's depression is. If we're going to go by this goofy logic, you have no business being depressed because you have a home and a job while there's people starving and homeless all over the country.

My point is most forms of depression (even at the extreme) are things i can relate to and as such could maybe help with.

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Chicken_Butt posted...

No. He is the most depressed guy of all time. He's hitting depression levels that shouldn't even be possible. How could you possibly hope to compare? You're all losers in the depression race. You just wouldn't understand because you're not depressed enough.

I'll put it this way.

When I was at my rockest of rock bottoms in didn't want to hear shit from the "I just broke a nail and am sad" depression people. You need minimum 5+ years depression of a magnitude I can't express on gamefaqs without getting in trouble to understand where I was at, and things are just the same for everybody else here who is still struggling, I assume.

They don't want help from some bitch ass person who just cried for a week and thinks that makes them understand depression. If they are anything like I was, they only want help from people who had it as bad or worse than them and still found a way to get better.

So that is why it is important to stress just how low I've been. I am very good right now, but I was in the lowest of the lows. So if that is where they are now, I can possibly help them out. But only if they accept that I hit the same lows or lower that they have.

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dolomedes posted...

jfc

get bent

[LFAQs-redacted-quote]


I acknowledge it is rude, but I pretty much promise my depression is like top tier grade A, super longest lasting worst case depression.

That doesn't diminish anybody who has had lesser depression, in fact it's a good thing because I can help such people and have profound sympathy.

I know how depression works, there is a big temptation to dismiss anybody who has recovered as "not really having real bad depression". I have had the same thought process myself.

My point is 0%:
You all are little bitches and I had it worse

My point is 100%:
Where-ever you are, no matter how dark, I think I have been there too, and I have recently recovered, which means you can too. There is no hole too deep that I wasn't there. Which means there is no hole too deep that you can't recover.

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Also it is weird as hell that ADD medication like cures depression in a day but should never be taken by depressed people.

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I have never met a psychiatrist who has not just echoed whatever I want them to say, and considering I'm the depressed person this is bad.

They are lucky I have no interest in becoming a drug addict and simply want to get better.

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alimajor posted...

Short answer yes, youre always supposed to take the medication youre prescribed as instructed or it wont work. If youre supposed to take it everyday and you dont then youre probably doing more harm to yourself than good.

Just do as your instructed, give your drugs time to sync in(could take a few days/weeks of continuous use) and then, if you still feel like ass, talk to your doctor again and see what they say.

How the hell could it be bad for me if I take much less "legal meth" than if I take what they say.

I am so sick of psychiatrists because literally every one I've ever interacted with has just phoned it in.

Wait a month and talk to them:
Me: "I think this med is working well, but it's a bit strong, it might be good to dial it back"
Them: "Ok, I think we should dial back the meciation"

Me: "this med makes me way too sleepy, I don't think I should keep using it"
Them: "Ok, stop using it"

Now they give me legal meth and it's helped my depression in a way that none of the legal antidepressants ever have and I'm dangerous because I'm taking much much less than they suggest?

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Alteres posted...

Fluoxetine is generic prosaic and IMO sucks, I was put on three increasingly larger doses and had pretty much the same experience as you. Just stopped taking it cold turkey, screw it. That was almost two years ago now, and I am generally bored out of my mind and find it difficult to give a fuck about anything.

I was honestly being serious with my second post. >_>

I've been caring about things even days since I last took vyvance. I don't even like the stuff that much because it makes me kinda manic. I truly think I might have started to turn a real corner on my depression, so I am concerned with everybody saying "naw man, you're just on meth."

Firstly, if Vyvance is so damn good at helping with depression why is it only for ADD?

Secondly idk, I've taken it like 5 times over the past 20 days. Is it really that bad/dangerous?

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Blue_Dream87 posted...

Bruh you're basically taking meth for your depression. That shit is addictive and you build a tolerance hella quick.

Go take Bupropion if you haven't yet

I was on that for ages.

If the thing I am doing occasionally is so horrible why did my doc prescribe it?

Fuck. I'm only on 30mg and I've only been taking it once every few days. Does that make a difference?

Why the hell would the doc prescribe me an antidepressant that makes me nearly comatose, then another drug which helps a lot with my depression to help with the sleepy effects of the antidepressant if the second drug is way more powerful but quickly stops working?

I've taken the med as much or less than prescribed, am I still destroying my brain?

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Alteres posted...

On topic, if I had some adderall I would feel great and waaaaay more interested in things as well.

What is your suggestion then?

I have been improving overall. But yes some days when the medication is working well it makes it much more clear and easy.

Is this bad?

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alimajor posted...

Hold the f*** up, Vyvance isnt anti depressant medication its ADD medication. No wonder you feel great youre taking legalized meth.

I used to be prescribed to it but I had to stop, it was actually stressing me out more than it was helping. If it works for you though keep taking it as prescribed but know its not supposed to be taken as an anti depressant, from what I know.

I rarely take it.

I have gone over a zillion medications in my life. Many mess things up way too much.

Recently I was prescribed fluoxetine which mildly helped with my mood but made me so sleepy that I couldn't function at all.

They said because of my eating issues and the tiredness and some other things supplementing the fluoxetine with Vyvance would be a good idea.

I am on on low dose of Vyvance and almost entirely waned off of fluoxetine.

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Chicken_Butt posted...

It's not a competition, what the fuck?

If you've never felt depressed you don't understand.

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Tactical_Spork posted...

I am literally only happy/not miserable when Im asleep. While I am awake, the absolute ceiling of my emotions is numbness or totally shutting my brain off and zoning out doing something. If I have trauma nightmares even sleep is shit. Life hasnt really turned out the way I wanted it to, and that has been apparent for a few years now, but at least the mediocrity used to be steady. I enjoy the things I enjoy less and less, I get worse and worse at things, my motivation to do anything, be it recreational or basic tasks, has plummeted, and I swear to god I can tell Im getting dumber and colors are getting less vibrant with age.

Life sucks, if you have a good life, or have managed to skate by without mental illness, or have been able to adequately treat or overcome anything you have, be thankful. Coming from a decently privileged, if broken, home can only get you so far when every day feels totally disconnected from the reality of the last, yet still a continuation of the same unending hell.

thats my depression vent for the week gonna go back to shitposting and dissociating

So bad/good news:

1. I'm pretty sure however low your rock bottom has been, I hit lower. I know depression olympics are dumb, but I might have won.
2. Things can get good but it is hard. I can probably lift some people out of depression like I have myself, but it is an incredibly lugubrious affair.

I don't know if I can ever make life as good as it was when we were 10, I certainly couldn't for myself as of yet. But I can make it not pointless. If you are interested in that we can start there.

Step 1:
Do you want to get better?
Disclaimers: Getting better is not secret code for getting worse, it is not a trick to make things awful for you, it is not a cruel joke, it is simply a state that is preferable to you compared to your current reality. It also does not negate or erase you or the suffering you have experienced up to this point. None of those things are destroyed, nothing about you or your life is destroyed. It is simply a question of "do you want to get better?" Or for a severely chronically depressed person: "Do you want to become un-depressed?"

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Airhammy posted...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwoBDX3ytYM

Thank you very much for sharing this.

Also, omg Harry Kim can emote! Who knew?

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Chicken_Butt posted...

Well shit man, what are you taking? Where can I get some?

Vivance is what I'm currently doing.

I try to space it out, I'm worried if I take it every day my brain will notice I am happy and calibrate to adjust as it has with previous anti-depressants.

Normally antidepressants work for a couple weeks for me and then my brain is like "nope, we ain't havin that" and shuts it down.But I take this one sparingly and it seems relegated to the day I take it, which helps.

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Conflict posted...

I'm not sure how life is more interesting with less freedom

Things like this make me thing my depression is not as ubiquitous an experience I assume.

At say 12, just watching a movie could be hella exciting/fun.

At say 22 things barely feel like anything.

Beyond that, things grow to feel like nothing.

Put in simpler terms, I'd care more about about my mario life in super mario world at 8 years old than I care about if I get fired/evicted at twenty whatever.

Just because after all this bullshit things basically feel like nothing.

Which is why medication, on the rare chances it works, is so damn weird.

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It's crazy that life gets so much worse with age. Literally all it takes for me to have an "amazing day" is that life feel as interesting/good as it did when I was 15.

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I have watched many oscar short films and have not found 1 better than this for almost a decade.

The last short film I thought was better is 15+ years old.

I'm currently making a video essay about it.

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Anteaterking posted...

Using "might" and "everything" makes it incredibly broad. If there's even one thing with an offensive history that I'm not 100% sure should be destroyed, my answer should be "C".

So there are only weak conclusions you can draw from people saying C.

Nobody is saying otherwise.

So what is the problem?

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Anteaterking posted...

What an incredibly weak statement.

What do you mean by that?

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Garioshi posted...

Give me an example where it would be bad to destroy something that has an offensive history.

The statement is:

"It might be bad to destroy everything that has a history that is offensive to modern standards"

If you believe there does not exist an example of something that qualifies which might be bad to destroy, then you can answer Deny.

The question is simply do you confirm or deny the presented statement.

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_Kowalski_ posted...

How old are you TC?

How would you respond for each of these ages:

18-20
21-25
26-30
31-35
36-40
41-45
46-50
50+

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Garioshi posted...

Give me an example

The question is not about any specific example. The question is literally about the statement itself.

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This isn't a comment on any specific case, just the general question that always destroying things with an offensive history might be a bad idea.

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If I'm honest under certain contexts it could be hot, even though I hate her personality

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What is also obscene is that this has to happen to a mexican before it's doubted.

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Everybody who conceded that any common hand gesture is racist is what paved the way for shit like this.

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Seems like the motivation of a lot of this isn't actually fixing history but "it's fun to destroy things".

Even when mobs find a more appropriate target, perhaps we shouldn't give carte blanche endorsement to people with such a destructive mentality.

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RedJackson posted...

Is this like your absolute favorite song of all time of something? >_>

The guy died and I saw all the covers and I thought "wouldn't it be nice to have a video that did a good job integrating the covers together?".

And so I tried to make the video. And I think the end result is like 91% perfect towards that goal, but nobody ever liked it, and it never took off so I thought I'd present it again to see what the communal response was.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QIDzGf6NoYs

I spent a lot of time when I made the video, but somehow tonally it never quite caught on. I still think there is a kernel of something beautiful there.

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Padma Lakshmi
Maisie Williams
Salma Hayek

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Garioshi posted...

Why not average the best and worst case scenarios?

Here is what they will say:
Average case: N log N
Worst Cast N^2

So for 100 items they are arguing average case is (regular log) 200 or (natural log) 460, for worst case it is 10000.

But the whole point of big oh notation is that it disregards any constant multiplier, so the literal expected value could be 200-450 billion to 10000 billion and since the billion multiplier is constant it won't affect shit in big oh.

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Back_Stabbath posted...

C if you're lucky enough to have it with a girl you love and feels likewise back to you.
meeh with someone you aren't really into. fapping is better.

Honestly I have no libido these days anyway.

I wonder if it's more of a trope than anything that "sex is what men love super much", because very few experiences in life have lived up to the hype

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QrGrOK8oZG8

Legitimately should have won best short film at the oscars.

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Lots of guys act like donkey kong to a banana when it comes to men to sex, but porn and self-adjustment has largely wilted to pointlessness with time, so I can't imagine sex being this revolutionary thing for me, am I wrong?

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Eevee-Trainer posted...

I'm used to referencing log as natural log in lieu of base 10, and that was what the Wikipedia article said IIRC (that it was ln). So my bad there.

It's fine but that's kinda my point here. If I want to do anything near precise math of expected value, all answers are like 100log100 200 but maybe 400 or 80 or 890,000,000.

I don't care how it scales with N, I want a realistic approximation of what it is for a given N

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Just average traditional implementation is all I'm asking about. Quick sort is very well known so what i mean by it should be fairly clear.

Also 100log100 = 200 not 461

You might have meant 100ln100, but the fact we can be off by over 100% on such a well researched question is what confuses me.

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It depends on what you mean by racist, but basically agree.

We definitely need police reform though, so even if the mark is a bit off it's enough in the right direction that I support the spirit of the constructive elements of what is going on.

If you are in protest chant of "We need police reform because all cops are racist!" you can just trail off during the back half of the chant.

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Balrog0 posted...

This is not legal fwiw. Report them to your AGs office or maybe your state DHS

So I said "fuck 'em, I'm not going to be manipulated" and went to the store with the not-covered items and it let me purchase everything with snap, so what I think their scam is, is their website makes you think ebt won't cover something, so you switch and buy their product, but since they actually would have covered it if you came to the store they aren't technically doing something illegal. They are just making lots of money manipulating people into thinking they don't have a choice they do.

That or because I made a phone call I got the "don't scam this customer because he notices" tag on my account and so that's why all my products that should be EBT were.

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pikachupwnage posted...

Store brand is usually cheaper. They are doing you a favor honestly. Why pay 4 bucks for a box of Cheerios when you can get the exact same thing store branded for 2.50? Fuck brand names. Espiecally for medicine. Like 50%+ more expensive. Straight up ripping people off for pain relief.

The are not doing me a favor, they were doing this on products that were worse and the same price.

Also this is fucked up logic, just because it's snap the store should get to choose what I buy? What if it's like 'the best value is dog food, so that's the only thing the snap will cover'

Are you going to be like "they are doing you a favor"

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I miss when the internet was like this.

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I want to apply it to get the expected value of a number of comparisons of a list of size n, but I know n log n is not exactly right. So what is it?

For example, I highly doubt a list of 100 will have on average 200 comparisons. Is it n ln n? Is it n logbase2 n? Is it 2n ln 4n?

How fast it scales is useless to me in me trying to get a practical example.

I can't for the life of me find a google result that isn't just telling me the big o result which of course everybody knows.

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This doesn't promise pics tho...

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Want to buy a frozen meal from a Kroger Brand Smith's grocery store? That's not covered under SNAP/EBT

Want to buy a Kroger brand frozen meal from a Kroger Brand Smith's grocery store? Of course that's covered by SNAP/EBT

I spent 25 minutes talking to somebody in their office, they acted like it's a "website glitch".

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ssk9716757 posted...

white people: i cant fathom racism affecting people

When was the last time Aunt Jemima affected anybody?

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QueenCarly posted...

And yet this isn't about what you get out of it.

If millions of kids of all races looked at it and saw a "nice lady" and nothing else, are we really making the world better be telling them "no, dumb dumbs, you should look at her and see racism"

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cmiller4642 posted...

Aunt Jemima is absolutely racist

*was racist.

Just like Looney Tunes, most old movies, and oh yeah, this entire country.

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TC "LOL only people who dislike twitter mobs destroying actors/brands/institutions are boomers"

Fuck that noise, god knows there are way more people who like the brand than who are kicking up a storm on twitter.

There needs to be a mechanism to anti-complain, because it seems like 10 complains carry 10 million weight but for some reason 1 million people being like "yeah that products fine by me" mean nothing.

It's dumb, and the only counter-point to people saying this shit is dumb is "lol u care about something changing" which yeah I do, because it's dumb and I don't like giving into mob rule.

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