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When did you first feel the dysphoria? Did you come to any conclusions from it?

I ask because I strongly suspect a (decent) part of me is female. I already kinda made a thread about this, but I just want to know if I'm "overthinking" this, even though I doubt it. For at least the last 10 or so years I have randomly experienced gender dysphoria. For awhile I suspected I was just non-conforming, but a lot of the times when I speak, my "inner voice" is definitely female. I unconsciously picture myself as a girl often, the thought of dressing up like a girl is exciting to me, and I have been accidentally called "she" multiple times and it has always felt comfortable and natural to me. In fact, on certain days I think I'd PREFER being called that. I've always felt like something is missing with me as well, specifically whenever my dysphoria shows up. I am pretty okay with my body though.

But honestly, I lean probably about 30% more on the female side of the spectrum than male. I don't really feel like a dude very often. It's either in between both or leaning more towards female; only occasionally do I really feel like a "man". If you asked me to describe what being a guy feels like internally, I'm not sure I could actually give a good explanation. The only memory I have as a child that could also relate to this is when I wanted a baby doll when I was little, so badly that I cried until my dad bought it for me.

So CE, what are your thoughts/experiences? I really don't think I'm overthinking this, and will probably bring it up to my therapist/psychiatrist on Thursday.