Poll of the Day > Sometimes, I feel like I am overstepping my boundaries at work.

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Every day, after work, my mind always wanders to the events of the work day I had just completed. I usually go through anything I may have done, that may have caused my co-workers any discomfort or distress. The act drives me mad. I always get the feeling that everyone there hates me. I very frequently ignore people whenever I pass them by. I do this out of shyness, not out of disrespect. I tend to make very little conversation. Whenever I am placed into a situation where I must speak to someone in a one-on-one conversation, I just freeze up and start babbling incoherently. I'm just abyssmal at socializing. I can never seem to look people in the eye, either out of fear that anything in their facial expression may indicate dislike toward me, or out of pure anxiety. My department is one that is closely-knit. I'm afraid that I ruin that connection and familiarity that everyone has with each other. I don't really feel comfortable engaging in the social events they hold during slow work days, because I may spoil the fun of these events. I always feel like I am being given the finger whenever I am not looking. Worrying about these sorts of gestures, which would confirm my suspicions of how I am seen by others, is greatly exhausting. I feel like it's not healthy to worry so much about being scared of being hated by others. I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this sort of thing. Come to think of it, I never did; my family never was one to listen to me very attentively. The therapists with whom I had spoken in the past usually gave long lectures about things I never cared about. It's just tiring having to listen or pretend to listen. I'm a terrible listener; it's another reason why I'm afraid that people who speak to me will come to dislike me sooner or later. Anyway, how was your Friday, board?

I must have these answers.

EclairReturns posted...

I must have these answers.

Must you? You've said that you post these walls of text specifically because you want users here to not read them.

So do you want our advice, or not?