Current Events > I thought my social anxiety would feel less the more I challenge myself.

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Ive challenged myself this year a lot and I have made a lot of progress. I dare to do thints instead of the default behaviour of avoidance.

But I still dont actaully have less anxiety or shitty false thoughts.

Its exhausting, but I am happy Im progressing. I just wish I didnt have to feel these feelings or have the thoughts.

Might of just not settled in yet. It can take awhile. But when it does, it'll be good

Lost_All_Senses posted...

Might of just not settled in yet. It can take awhile. But when it does, it'll be good

I hope so, and my dips are shorter and less seldom, but when I have my dips Im sure Ill aleays be worthless and deserve to suffer etc even when in reality its not true.

The payoffs aren't immediate or apparent. Once in a while though, you might look back on a situation and think "huh, I didn't think I had it in me to do that".

Let yourself feel emotions. If you start feeling overwhelmed or a pressure to constantly NOT avoid, chill out and do something nice/fun for yourself.

You on any meds? The energy it takes to do this sort of stuff can cause some recoil. Not always, but it's a thing I've experienced in similar pursuits.

Master_Kazuya posted...

The payoffs aren't immediate or apparent. Once in a while though, you might look back on a situation and think "huh, I didn't think I had it in me to do that".

Let yourself feel emotions. If you start feeling overwhelmed or a pressure to constantly NOT avoid, chill out and do something nice/fun for yourself.

Yeah I guess. Ive been aware of my problems since 2018/2019 and Ive made huge progress but I thought the feelings and thought would change with it.

Guide posted...

You on any meds? The energy it takes to do this sort of stuff can cause some recoil. Not always, but it's a thing I've experienced in similar pursuits.

Nah last I had ssri (only thing I was on) was around winter 2020

FF_Redux posted...

I hope so, and my dips are shorter and less seldom, but when I have my dips Im sure Ill aleays be worthless and deserve to suffer etc even when in reality its not true.

Might end up happening after some event you're building up to being able to handle. An event that would ultimately prove to you that you have taken control of yourself and your life in a way you weren't able to prior to this drive.

Lost_All_Senses posted...

Might end up happening after some event you're building up to being able to handle. An event that would ultimately prove to you that you have taken control of yourself and your life in a way you weren't able to prior to this drive.

Ive done many events that I would think impossible before.

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Yeah it feels like it could be like that for me, gotta try to accept that, as long as I keep choosing not to avoid things I want to do and progressing and be fine with that.