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I'm gonna be away from here awhile. Finally decided to do something about my drinking. Thought I could get a grip myself but finally broke down and admitted I need help.

It's been affecting my enjoyment of my hobbies for ages but I gotta draw the line at it causing me issues with my work. Calling in too much cause got too hammered the night before and I'm pretty strict about not (knowingly anyways) driving with alcohol in my system. That's like the only thing I haven't let booze
affect me on.

Gonna suck but maybe once I'm done I can really try to start enjoying gaming again. I can only play games that ain't big on story or I won't pop in the next day and be lost cause I can't remember what i was doing. I'll have more money for games too. That's a plus.

Well anyways just wanted to vent somewhere That's not my family.

Good luck and all the best.

Going to rehab or something?

I'm glad you're recognizing that you have an issue, and that you're doing something about it

Wishing you all the best

Hope it works out TC

Good for you, best of luck cowboy

Great news!
You can do it, man!

Fuck yeah!
Youre making a good decision, bro. Youd be surprised the amount of people that just let alcoholism destroy their life and don't even attempt to combat it. Good luck in your journey. It's gonna be rough but I hope you're successful.

Sufferedphoneix posted...

I'm gonna be away from here awhile. Finally decided to do something about my drinking. Thought I could get a grip myself but finally broke down and admitted I need help.

It's been affecting my enjoyment of my hobbies for ages but I gotta draw the line at it causing me issues with my work. Calling in too much cause got too hammered the night before and I'm pretty strict about not (knowingly anyways) driving with alcohol in my system. That's like the only thing I haven't let booze
affect me on.

Gonna suck but maybe once I'm done I can really try to start enjoying gaming again. I can only play games that ain't big on story or I won't pop in the next day and be lost cause I can't remember what i was doing. I'll have more money for games too. That's a plus.

Well anyways just wanted to vent somewhere That's not my family.

you can do it!

Evening_Dragon posted...

Going to rehab or something?

Yeah. I've been talking about doing it. But we got a hurricane coming and they told us to be prepared to be stuck at work for 3 days. Job is considered highly essential. Can't shut a prison down just for a hurricane.

I've drank everyday for 2 years. Past year about 20 shots a day.

Alcohol withdrawals can be ugly so being stuck at work for 3 days sounded scary. Going through withdrawals and expected to babysit inmates? I voiced this concern to my doctor and he said yeah you need to go asap. Was originally gonna be a few weeks.

Thanks guys

Good on you, Im sure youll do great!

Glad to hear you're getting help. I hope it sticks. One step at a time, don't get discouraged by setbacks if there are any. Getting help is more than what many people are willing to do. That really is a huge first step.

Best of luck to you getting healthy.

Remember, take it just one day at a time, and build a good support network.

I wish you the best. Don't fill the void with other shit like weed and pills though

DespondentDeity posted...

Good on you, Im sure youll do great!

Thanks was actually hoping you'd post since we've butted heads before and you've addressed my drinking. Which upset me a little cause I've enjoyed your posts showcasing your fashion sense. Its cool though I needed to hear it. Wasn't how I wanted to hear but and honestly by itself didn't help much. But it was a small part in a culmination of many things making me realize I had a problem.

I do mean a lot of things like even the universe giving me signs. I search even areas at work only officers have access To. Found a book hidden away (we ain't supposed to read at work) and it was a book on battling addiction. Then the other night I feel asleep drunk listening to music. YouTube goes into some random ass Playlist and when i woke up I looked at my phone and saw my chemical romance I'm not ok. I havent listened to them in decades.

Just wish I could find out who at work said they smelled alcohol on me. Pissed me off cause the smell lasts way longer than you are actually drunk but I now wanna tell them thanks even though I'm sure helping wasn't their intention. They woulda talked to Mr first if so. But even trying to get q grip myself I've made improvements. Cut back drastically on my own which has allowed me to make other improvements.

And again thanks to everyone else too

Feel free to blogfaqs it, here or in another topic. That sort of thing seems to help other users with their endeavors.

Evening_Dragon posted...

Feel free to blogfaqs it, here or in another topic. That sort of thing seems to help other users with their endeavors.

Thanks I'll probably end up crying before I'm done for the night. Always been the "manly" man type who doesn't. Was a crybaby as a kid but got drilled into my head to not cry or I'd be made fun of growing up. So I don't. Didn't even cry when people I loved died. But today I've been fighting it all day. Lost it for a few seconds when I called my best friend to let him know he wouldn't hear from me for awhile. Guess I did with him cause he's been struggling the same battle. We live worlds apart it seems but he promised to not drink around me when and if we meet up

Excellent decision, and I'm rooting for you to get a handle on it. Addiction is tough, but you can do it. Don't be discouraged if you falter sometimes. Alcoholism is an extremely difficult addiction to overcome, especially since drinking is tied so closely to adult socializing.

Well done, I know it isn't easy.

Are you doing a usual 28 day in-patient or something else?

Gobstoppers12 posted...

Excellent decision, and I'm rooting for you to get a handle on it. Addiction is tough, but you can do it. Don't be discouraged if you falter sometimes. Alcoholism is an extremely difficult addiction to overcome, especially since drinking is tied so closely to adult socializing.

I've been a alcoholic twice before. Difference now is how long I've gone and I used weed both last times to "replace" it cause I can quit weed cold turkey without Much of a problem. I work a government job now. Not really a option. I'd still be risking my job.

Honestly I think quitting smoking is harder. I did it once but it only lasted 2 months. But as said previous times I wasn't as heavy into alcohol as I am this time. I'd take a few day break here and there but mainly I wasn't drinking the sheer volume I am now.

Weird to think illegal drugs was far easier to quit. Why the legal shit gotta be worse? Half the reason I started drinking is I turned 21 and decided to ditch weed since it was illegal and drinking was. Quit cough meds easier too and that shit is addictive to the point you are craving the stuff again the moment you start coming down.

DrizztLink posted...

Well done, I know it isn't easy.

Are you doing a usual 28 day in-patient or something else?

30 to 40 days is what they said. Two weeks to get it out of my system. 2 to 4 to get me used to being normal sober cause a big problem is getting someone's physical addiction out of the way but the mental addiction is still there.

You've already taken the first step towards recovery.

Best of luck. Drinking is a hard habit to kick, but you can do it.

Damn son 20 shots a day. How are those distributed? I'm not trying to sound judgemental. Just trying to wrap my head around that.

But good for you to seek help. The demon in the bottle is a real thing

Sufferedphoneix posted...

30 to 40 days is what they said. Two weeks to get it out of my system. 2 to 4 to get me used to being normal sober cause a big problem is getting someone's physical addiction out of the way but the mental addiction is still there.

That was a follow-up, if you were doing a medically assisted detox or not.

I've seen some that do it, others need you to do it elsewhere because they can't give medication.

Dreepapult posted...

Damn son 20 shots a day. How are those distributed? I'm not trying to sound judgemental. Just trying to wrap my head around that.

But good for you to seek help. The demon in the bottle is a real thing

20 was a minimum. 45% by volume. Family of alcoholics and been drinking half my life. Tolerance builds.

I think what helped in that regard is 4 lokos while being far weaker fucked me up a lot more. I learned it's cause I'm diabetic so the absurd sugar content was adding to me feeling fucked up. I switched to whiskey cause I had to watch my sugar. According to all the research I've done it shockingly has zero sugar. So while being stronger it was taking more to fuck me up like I was used to.

DrizztLink posted...

That was a follow-up, if you were doing a medically assisted detox or not.

I've seen some that do it, others need you to do it elsewhere because they can't give medication.

They said it would be all at one place and I'd stay there thr whole time. I about lost it when they gave that time frame but I quickly regained my composure cause I really need this

Sufferedphoneix posted...

They said it would be all at one place and I'd stay there thr whole time. I about lost it when they gave that time frame but I quickly regained my composure cause I really need this

It's rough, yeah. I was in one for 58 days.

Good luck bud you got this

DrizztLink posted...

It's rough, yeah. I was in one for 58 days.

To be honest I'm only stressing boredom (no electronics allowed) and the food. I was shocked I'd be allowed to smoke. Counselor said though yeah it's a bad idea to try to take both away at once. Nicotine patches only help so much. They may give me the nicotine I need but they don't do jack for the mental addiction aspects.

But honestly? I needed a break from work too. Working 71 hours on average a week in a stressful ass environment. It's a running joke that the true mark of a correctional officer is 3 divorces and alcoholism.

Well I'm Here. No turning back now