Current Events > Finally starting up therapy again.

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A year or so has passed since I stopped seeing my last one. I didn't want to have to start over again with another one. I was comfortable with the one I had. Why change to a new person when I could just put what my then current one taught me to use by myself?

Probably should have just dropped my pride at the door and admitted that I couldn't go it alone.

I'm a year older and not any better. Worse if anything. New prescription to try, but it won't do a damn thing for more than a bit.

Hoping going back will do some good. Need it to.

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How's CE doing with their mental health? Hope it's well

congrats on exercising self-love. you deserve to feel better and well done on taking the steps :)

Not great. I have issues with mental health in general, but between graduating college which should be exciting for me, and being unable so far to find a work term, I'm extremely stressed. Didn't help that college itself was a nightmare. I have issues studying so I would make study sessions for my entire class to help one another out. We have 18 people in our virtual classrooms. Guess how many would show up? Zero. Literally Zero. And its not like it was once every 3 or 4 months. That study session was every day for 5-6 hours for 1 1/2 years.

Fuck me, I guess. Yet these fuckers managed to get work terms instead of me. Coupled with my asshole work term instructor who didn't send off my resume to any potential clients until 2 1/2 months in, because "my resume wasn't done properly", which I only found out 2 1/2 months into the work term selection semester. The resume he sent out my dad looked at and nearly pissed himself laughing. There were grammatical errors, the wrong phone number was on it, despite me telling my instructor the right phone number. And to top it all off, that same resume was looked at by 2 separate work employment companies specializing in resumes and they said my initial resume was fine.

Just stressful that's all. It will go away once I start earning real money.

Mikea posted...

congrats on exercising self-love. you deserve to feel better and well done on taking the steps :)

ty <3

Ivany2008 posted...

Not great. I have issues with mental health in general, but between graduating college which should be exciting for me, and being unable so far to find a work term, I'm extremely stressed. Didn't help that college itself was a nightmare. I have issues studying so I would make study sessions for my entire class to help one another out. We have 18 people in our virtual classrooms. Guess how many would show up? Zero. Literally Zero. And its not like it was once every 3 or 4 months. That study session was every day for 5-6 hours for 1 1/2 years.

Fuck me, I guess. Yet these fuckers managed to get work terms instead of me. Coupled with my asshole work term instructor who didn't send off my resume to any potential clients until 2 1/2 months in, because "my resume wasn't done properly", which I only found out 2 1/2 months into the work term selection semester. The resume he sent out my dad looked at and nearly pissed himself laughing. There were grammatical errors, the wrong phone number was on it, despite me telling my instructor the right phone number. And to top it all off, that same resume was looked at by 2 separate work employment companies specializing in resumes and they said my initial resume was fine.

Just stressful that's all. It will go away once I start earning real money.

jeez, fucking clown show being run at that college. hope everything gets better.

Looking at today as I ready myself for bed, @_@ this wasn't as monumental for me as my decision to first go to therapy, but think it might be more important. i want to learn to want to live because i'm pretty shit at that right now. hope it works

I'm happy for you. I've done two separate stints in therapy in my life (currently feel I'm at the end of the second) and it's done immeasurable good for me.

Lately, I've been doing really well. Been very busy doing the work to transfer to a 4-year uni for the Fall, doing my actual job (but I upgraded from Customer Service to Bakery, so go me!), and mostly successfully tending to lots of BS.

Most importantly though, there's a woman in my life these days, and she makes me laugh and smile and stare into her lively hazel eyes, dreaming wide awake. She's a hit with my friends and family too. And she's become increasingly transparent in expressing, well...thirst. for me

Good luck, TC, :)

I'm personally doing a bit better than I was, thanks to my Spravato treatments; I'm still not in what would be considered a healthy headspace, but I'm not constantly thinking of suicide anymore.