Current Events > I went through ego death...

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I won't give too many details because of the ToS, but I feel like a different person now. It was like having months of seriously painful therapy sessions all at once, and I truly had to accept death at the end. I had lots of flashbacks to when I was mistreated as a child and realized that exactly zero of those experiences were really my fault. I had to look at everything I feared and hated directly in the face, which was terrifying, but I survived it. Through it, I was able to separate the shame I felt about myself from my true self, and I feel so much better about myself now. I was even able to stand up to someone who did something negative to me today, which I never could have done before (I had almost no confidence).

Incredibly odd. Very powerful experience though. I'm going through a pretty negative life event right now, and the experience actually gives me some hope for the rest of my life.

That's amazing bro. Life truly starts here. Don't give yourself room to kill the momentum tho. Don't feel invulnerable to fall back into your old ways. That's where people make mistakes

Chesh? Is this, like, Crash, but after the Piccolo egg?

It's hard to describe to people who haven't gone through abuse and the like, but there really can come a point where a small realization changes your entire outlook on life.

It sounds like your experience has been a lot more intense than my own, but I used to live every day feeling depressed, lonely, etc., until I got into a relationship with a really abusive, manipulative girl, with whom I stayed because I didn't want to be alone again.

After about two years, something just clicked in me, and I realized I was happier before I got together with her, and that actually it's not bad to be by myself, because I like myself. In a way, her abuses, guilt tripping, cheating, etc. made me realize..."hey, I'm worth more than this. I deserve love and respect." And from there I realized the truth that's been keeping me positive for a decade now:

I am worthy of love, and the most important form of love is loving one's self.

Feeling tends to go away in a week or two imo, depending on how much stressful shit I have to deal with.

Gobstoppers12 posted...

It's hard to describe to people who haven't gone through abuse and the like, but there really can come a point where a small realization changes your entire outlook on life.

It sounds like your experience has been a lot more intense than my own, but I used to live every day feeling depressed, lonely, etc., until I got into a relationship with a really abusive, manipulative girl, with whom I stayed because I didn't want to be alone again.

After about two years, something just clicked in me, and I realized I was happier before I got together with her, and that actually it's not bad to be by myself, because I like myself. In a way, her abuses, guilt tripping, cheating, etc. made me realize..."hey, I'm worth more than this. I deserve love and respect." And from there I realized the truth that's been keeping me positive for a decade now:

I am worthy of love, and the most important form of love is loving one's self.

That's great. Sorry you were abused, though.

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Lol what do you mean?

Alteres posted...

Feeling tends to go away in a week or two imo, depending on how much stressful shit I have to deal with.

My friend who has also gone through ego death said it only lasted a few days for him. :( I want this to last forever though, I feel so different

Its nice realizing just how much of everything is bullshit, but it will drag you back down.

Enjoy it while it lasts.

I once tried to get to ego death, but...I ended up throwing up all night. My stomach couldn't handle all of the....stuff. It sucked.

Chesh posted...

I want this to last forever though, I feel so different

its like the Matrix bro, it just shows you the work you have to do