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The reality is that i am not where i envisioned myself in this life. I got my wish of not having to work for a living and have a stress free life. But my income is low and i have very little to my name. The reality is that i have more than a majority of folks on this planet. Why do i want to have more? Why do i feel like a loser for having less when there are way more people that have less than me than the ones who have more? What difference does it make what wealth you have any way? I have a computer, a phone, and people to talk to every day. I eat very well every day. I have a college education and i am good at things. So why did i just feel like a damn loser for the last hour? I am very grateful for my life.

Like, i am on a good track to success. So why in the world do i feel like a failure? I had spoken to this 22 year old kid last night and he just kept trying to make me feel like crap about my life. The entire time i am thinking this guy is 22. He does not understand how hard life can hit a person yet. Just when you think its over life will hit you even harder until you break, and even after you break it'll try to break you again and again if you let it. I got a buddy who is a 30 year old virgin who ghosts me regularly. I dont get it. Is he jealous of me? My life is nothing to be jealous about. I lost the love of my life a few years ago when i broke up with her in a fit of rage. I loved that woman, i still love that woman. I would rather be a virgin than have found true love and lost it due to my stupid desire to have more and more money. I tried damnit. All my friends abandoned me too. The few i have now i can hardly tolerate due to my obnoxious desire for attention.

Alright i am done. Rant over.

Fam do what I did and learn to code. Your life will change for the better.

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Figure out what you actually want. Also, see a therapist.

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SomeLikeItHoth posted...

Fam do what I did and learn to code. Your life will change for the better.

I am slowly. I do simple coding in adobe after effects. I am going to learn javascript. My old professor recommended it to me.

I just feel like bursting into tears right now. Why do i feel so awful? I have a date with a beautiful woman next week too. Yet i feel like a damn loser still.

Guide posted...

Figure out what you actually want. Also, see a therapist.

I already know what i want. And i know how to get it. It takes time bro. Does not happen over night.

I see a therapist once a week already. It helps a lot.

TrollTrace posted...

I am going to learn javascript.

You will need to learn html and css before that.

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SomeLikeItHoth posted...

You will need to learn html and css before that.

That is very good to know. Why can't i just learn javascript?

TrollTrace posted...

I already know what i want. And i know how to get it. It takes time bro. Does not happen over night.

I see a therapist once a week already. It helps a lot.

If you're on the way to getting what you want, why does it bother you what other people have in comparison to you?

That sounds rhetorical, but it's an earnest question/seed for introspection.

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TrollTrace posted...

Why can't i just learn javascript?

You'll understand once you start learning about html. But you can't implement code for a website without first knowing how to create the website.

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SomeLikeItHoth posted...

You'll understand once you start learning about html. But you can't implement code for a website without first knowing how to create the website.

I think that is why my professor recommended javascript for adobe after effects since i am going down the path of video arts.

TrollTrace posted...

I think that is why my professor recommended javascript for adobe after effects since i am going down the path of video arts.

Ah, okay. What drew you to video arts?

Feel free to post in the "itt: learning python" topic btw!

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today and every day .... i accepted im trash ... but it still hurts

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Are you drinking.

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SomeLikeItHoth posted...

You will need to learn html and css before that.

Messed around with it in the early 00s and some xhtml.

Drove me nuts and now forgotten most of it.

Never made it too javascript.

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Congrats on the date, you at least have what i don't, enough confidence to ask somebody out.

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SomeLikeItHoth posted...

You will need to learn html and css before that.

Most web devs barely use css outside of stray styles. We all hate css. Javascript can be its own standalone server side language if you're using node

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TrollTrace posted...

The reality is that i am not where i envisioned myself in this life. I got my wish of not having to work for a living and have a stress free life. But my income is low and i have very little to my name.

I dont mean this to sound like an ass, but I feel like this is a pick one situation.

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SomeLikeItHoth posted...

Ah, okay. What drew you to video arts?

Feel free to post in the "itt: learning python" topic btw!

Its the one thing i was good at that came natural to me. I make a part time income editing halo montages and am heavily involved in the halo community. I am also trying to become a big youtuber. My video skills come in very handy.

Thank you for being so kind to me.

Ryven posted...

Congrats on the date, you at least have what i don't, enough confidence to ask somebody out.

I am so sorry brother. It is easier than ever to ask chicks out nowadays. It just takes a few text messages. After 25 they no longer get the attention they used to and have a ton of baggage. A timid guy is one of these freaky girls dream. You got this!