Current Events > Anxiety is fun

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Fun to get anxiety about everything I do, good, bad, whatever. Anxiety over when I dont do things, anxiety over that I have anxiety.

My mental blocks are just getting stronger. I feel like a failure, I need help but somehow it feels harder to ask for that now that the first time, I should be able to handle this now with the help I did get. I really dont want to get back on meds but maybe I have to.

I just want to flee from everything, but thats impossible, Ill feel even worse if I did that, but it just feels so easy to do, and somewhere inside me I feel like I deserve to suffer.

Just a rant to get my thoughts out there. Im trying not to listen to them.


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This guy is part of the Dav Remsay crew, give his stuff a watch v

https://youtu.be/jw8bPFXQRVE

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RoseLuck2022462 posted...

This guy is part of the Dav Remsay crew, give his stuff a watch v

https://youtu.be/jw8bPFXQRVE

Maybe check it later. But I already have lots of tools but none are working right now, which is why I prob need my meds to take the edge off my intense emotions so I can have the concentration needed for the tools.

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It's just so hard, I'm tired and exhausted and it's starting to affect other parts of my life like work, which is just making it even worse.

I hate the side effects even if they are manageable and not that severe of my meds, but yeh I prob have to. I was so glad I was functioning without them, but I'm afraid I'll never get rid of them if I feel like I have to start again.

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Dude I know it sucks. Some days at work I can't even do anything and I get all backed up.

I sent my supervisor and manager an email about it. I was prepared to quit at that point because I didn't think I could continue with the job.

My supervisor later talked to me and discussed the medication she's on for anxiety/depression. So, sometimes opening up to people can sort of build a bridge? So many people are going through this. I blame our modern society and how unnaturally we live. Slavery hasn't ended, it was only transformed into something people choose to accept.


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