Current Events > Funeral service was tough.

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So its a bit unsettling. Its cold of course. The first hour was just family was nice but half an hour in.. idk. When people started showing up it was better. When the service started, almost lost it. I dont cry much. When my dad died and I found out about it online, I didnt cry. My mom getting cancer, was tough. I cried quickly away from everyone. Around everyone I couldnt do it.

They asked if anyone wanted to speak. I had something written out and in my head but I was paralyzed. I didnt tell anyone so nobody knew. A few people spoke but none of us kids could. Apparently this is a common thing so it was never mentioned.

Seeing someone at peace when you last saw them in clear physical pain.. was numbing yet peaceful. If I was alone in that room without anyone coming in and Id have probably let go more. I did that when I got to the car after it was over.

I hate cancer. I hate it. I wish it would be cured once and for all. Weve come along way in medical advancements but still cancer lingers. It sucks. And it sucks even worse for me now. It took my mother. 58 is too young to die. It took my fiancees ex husband when he was 24. Its not fair.

its not fair my 86 year old grandmother had to bury her daughter before she herself passed away.

I just need to realize, shes at peace now. Shes no longer in this more crazier and crazier each day world. She made it to the next level. Shes at peace now and hopefully over the days and weeks and months to come, everyone else around here can be too.

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I'm really sorry for your loss - those are some really eloquent words though. I hope you keep the sentiment you show in them with you.

I will keep you in my prayers.

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Sorry for your loss
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Ive been to only one funeral. Pretty weird experience, only had met the deceased once. All the best.

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I'm sorry for your loss and my condolences. Haven't been to a funeral since my grandfather (moms side) and my grandmother (dads side) funerals. They were both within a week. My grandmother actually died a week befor my grandfather but she wasn't found until the mail man noticed that she wasn't picking up her letters. I assume he either had a key or the door was unlocked and he found her. I got the call about her the day after or the same day that I found out my grandfather died. He died in his sleep though, with family around. So after that double whammy I just couldn't do another funeral.

Had a uncle (family friend on a aunt and uncles side) die like a year later from a car accident. He went into diabetic shock while driving and crashed and burnt to death. Only thing that wasnt burnt was his arm which was stuck on the side of the seat or soemthing. Didnt go to his wake or funeral.

Had a aunt (wife to my mother's older brother) that died within a year from from over dosing on pain pills (she had excruciating migrains) She died on the toilet and my cousin who was like 12ish at the time found her. I didnt go to hers either. I jsut can't do it. They are too depressing for me now.

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This is why I do not believe in this "god" character, if God existed, cancer would not

Very sorry for your loss

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This is one of those things that im happy that I didn't have to deal with. My mom didn't want a normal service and it was like two months before her burial spot was built and ready. It gave the immediate family some time to steady ourselves before going through this.

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I'm sorry.
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Man, I'm so sorry. Having never lost a close family member I can't even imagine. All my love and sympathy goes out to you.

My mom died frim breast cancer and she was a nurse, I still cant wrap my head around itlung cancer got my dad hecwas a heavy smoker so I wasnt too surprised but still, cancer sucks and I hate it

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I'm really sorry. When I was a kid, I thought we would have cured cancer by now.....