Current Events > Maybe the last 2-3 months have solidified a "do nothing" mentality.

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Material prospects never really mattered much. We all indulge in stuff but I mean it comes and goes, and in some instances having stuff stay just becomes a burden on your mind. Hobbies and stuff kinda get repetitive and you sometimes see the end product thanks to the internet, spoiling the whole experience, but at the same time, you have to see it because it'd be ignorant not to.

Career-wise, what's a career really? I've heard of software/tech workers simplifying their lifestyle and pay. There's a few things I find dumb with my work, but last week it seems things are picking up. I haven't found an option that could be fulfilling, and really boost my pay in a worthwhile fashion. Competing with society is insanely hollow. Have this, this, and that, more than anyone else, and it didn't actually take you anywhere. If anything it just cuts you off from society at some point.

All the constructs of a marriage have really soured the idea. If a girl likes me, that somehow turns me off now, yet I don't believe in the concept of pursuing someone too much. There's too many formalities that just make relationships seem dumb.

I thought raising a kid one way or another would be my life goal take a shot at creating a worthwhile life for someone , but in this world we live in, I'm not so sure about that. I think I'd hit a wall where he/she will ask me as well: "what's the point?" and I have no answer.

Thought about a doggo but the current space and work schedule isn't ideal. I'd be pretty obsessed with giving it a proper life, although I guess the argument there is I could be saving it from a cage or being euthanized. Little something over absolutely nothing.

Even food...yeah good tasting food is good tasting food. I don't have any digestive or gastrointestinal issues, but for the most part food has become a very repetitive process, and I just look ahead to wondering when I'll time the shit I take. I was in the habit of constantly eating out for keep it interesting, but the spent money isn't yielding any returns anymore. Diet is paced by how long it takes to find a legitimate craving.

I mean we just eat, poop, sleep, wear out from it, and die. And for some reason, as a species, we've created so many irrelevant matters to our lives. Add what garbage society has become, and it's really like "what's the point?".

Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal. I'm in doubt over what even that could ever do for me.

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You have to do things that make you happy and surround yourself with things you like.

you can do things that make others happy and stop thinking so much about yourself and your own gain


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Guerrilla Soldier posted...

you can do things that make others happy and stop thinking so much about yourself and your own gain

Well see I was thinking about that: work towards education and homelessness, but those prospects seem to come with a lot of red tape.

If I won the lotto, I first thought about opening a school, but then that idea kinda transitioned into trying to reinvent the education system into something more practical and effective. It's an idea that's also going to come with more than enough pushback to never see it come to fruition at least in my lifetime. And that's not a solo effort, which then gets into figuring out how to create the best network/foundation when I'm already late in the education game.

Keith_Valentine posted...

You have to do things that make you happy and surround yourself with things you like.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not like depressed. But I do think a lot of things that make people happy are a bit hollow. I mean great it makes them happy, but I think simplicity has been the only thing providing me with some sort of pleasure. Less-is-more but to an extent I question the point of a lot of things.

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