Current Events > Are you ever tormented by your own mind?

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Like, has anyone ever said or did something to you, and you just keep replaying it over and over in your head? You replay it and then insert what you should have said or done, then you even imagine their reaction to that? You imagine your reaction to their reaction and this keeps going and going driving you up the fucking wall?

It could be the smallest fucking thing that doesn't even matter, but it fucking torments you and you can't turn it off?

That ever happen to you?

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I'm bi polar so yes.

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yeah man, just now I heard something call out to me and lo, here is this topic

Seriously though, yes.

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i put yes. we have some mental problems (not as bad as others).
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Is that not normal?

Oh and yes

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Smackems posted...

Is that not normal?

Oh and yes

I don't think it is

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I still do it, but Im not emotionally connected to it anymore and it's whatever. So tormented is far off from how it feels for me. Just mixes in with my normal thoughts. Just gotta learn to accept what you can't change. Not easy, but doable.

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I think it's normal to an extent.

When it becomes obsessive it is a problem.

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The more worrisome thing for me is how sometimes a quote pops in my head and just starts repeating, not allowing me to have any other thoughts. Only happens when Im not doing anything tho.

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All day, every day. My mind is an inhospitable war zone of self-destructive thoughts.

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Alteres posted...

I think it's normal to an extent.

When it becomes obsessive it is a problem.

This is probably it. Mine would be the normal amount. How else you gonna do better if you don't review your failures?

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That's perfectly fine
It's basically just like practicing the art of comebacks, just have to learn to put your post production wit into real time practice

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Smackems posted...

Is that not normal?

Oh and yes

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I often torment my own mind by revisiting my mistakes.

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Anxiety is a bitch

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Constantly.

Ya'll problem trying to kill the snake instead of just taking the venom out. Just try to take the venom out.

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It could be something that happened 2 decades ago. The person is far removed from my life, but the thoughts keep coming. Still replaying, still imagining, still getting pissed off/sad/whatever.

It could be something that didn't even happen to me, but something I witnessed that just rubbed me the wrong way. Could be a total stranger.

Like, there was this dude at a movie theater YEARS ago who was giving a worker shit because he was checking tickets at the door to the movie. The dude was clearly a jock type and was used to walking on people. I felt like telling the guy to stop being a dick and just show his damn ticket like everyone else was, that he wasnt special. I still think about that shit even though it had zero to do with me.

Just stupid shit like that, that doesn't even matter.

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yes, and i want it gone

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Oh, I see
Some primal part of you desperately desires the courage or power to stand in the face of what you perceive to be some malevolent or antagonistic figure, it is a perfectly natural thing that is the wellspring from which countless religions formed their dogma.

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It doesn't happen much for me but there are times I get up, go into the bathroom, look at myself in the mirror, and the first words out of my mouth that day are "you disgust me".

I guess to me it's like there's a bully that lives in my head who comes along every so often to remind me of what a terrible person I am and of all the ways I never live up to my potential and other peoples' expectations of me, and since it lives in my head, it can pull out all my memories and use them against me to prove I'm as terrible of a person as it says I am.

However I'd say in general I have a rather apathetic view of the past. I don't use social media at all because I don't want to hang on to the people in my past or connect with anyone I used to know. I don't take very many photos and the ones I do have I never print them or display them in any way. At most I'll send them or show them to people more to illustrate a story I'm telling rather than having any emotional connection to whatever it was. I just think of the past as garbage and have a hard time understanding the people who carry their regrets around like a big old monkey on their back.

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i have ocd so yes, intrusive thoughts.

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Pitlord_Special posted...

It doesn't happen much for me but there are times I get up, go into the bathroom, look at myself in the mirror, and the first words out of my mouth that day are "you disgust me".

I guess to me it's like there's a bully that lives in my head who comes along every so often to remind me of what a terrible person I am and of all the ways I never live up to my potential and other peoples' expectations of me, and since it lives in my head, it can pull out all my memories and use them against me to prove I'm as terrible of a person as it says I am.

However I'd say in general I have a rather apathetic view of the past. I don't use social media at all because I don't want to hang on to the people in my past or connect with anyone I used to know. I don't take very many photos and the ones I do have I never print them or display them in any way. At most I'll send them or show them to people more to illustrate a story I'm telling rather than having any emotional connection to whatever it was. I just think of the past as garbage and have a hard time understanding the people who carry their regrets around like a big old monkey on their back.

I vibe with all this except the "disgust" part. I don't really resent myself anymore. I definitely look more favorably upon myself on different days. But I bottom out at "meh"

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