Current Events > Feeling the pressure to get my life 'started' [BlogFAQS]

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I've always whizzed through school and got the 'yep you can be anything you want' speeches. Now I'm in college. I'm not doing any worse but it dawns on me I'll really have to actually "do something." I'm pursuing a business degree on scholarship but all that interests me from that is business law and business economics, but 'law' and 'economics' are kinda grad school things. I don't want to work in some corporate firm but how many other options are there these days? I have some interest in political science but I have no idea where to begin. I'm doing creative writing but I can never get myself motivated to actually write, and when I do, I second guess every word.

I applied to some summer internships and my parents know people at the company so I'll probably get one of them. It will be my first paid job and i am terrified of that. I can study for tests and fill in handouts but when it comes to get something real done, I freeze up. I'm all theoretical, I cant put stuff into practice. And I have trouble connecting with people.

I'm afraid that after all this time I won't stick the landing and I'll blow whatever potential I have. My life's always been "you'll do great things one day, little Doe" but it's coming to the point where I have to live up to all that.

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Doe posted...

I can study for tests and fill in handouts but when it comes to get something real done, I freeze up. I'm all theoretical, I cant put stuff into practice. And I have trouble connecting with people.

I think everyone feels this way about their first job and as a result a lot of places don't expect you to be a super genius the second you show up. Do it for a few weeks, whatever it is, and it starts to become boring second nature, but there's always a gap between theoretical and practical that everyone has to cross, and most empoyers are aware of that

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