Current Events > Hey CE lets talk about depression.

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I'm hit pretty hard right now so I'd like to talk with other people struggling. It's always the worst when it refuses to be any kind of rational one and just insists everything is going downhill :/

How are you coping?

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ive spent more time asleep than awake these past few weeks
i keep ordering silly things online as a distraction and man the high of a brief five minutes of being able to hold some material object i paid for is a high like no other
and then the five minutes are up and i go back to not feeling anything lol

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I don't know the degrees of depression so I kinda don't want to say I have it because I don't want to downplay depression like people do with OCD.

But I remember in high school, I'd have these random moments, usually during lunch, where I'd just like...shut down and not really want to talk to people. Nowadays I kind of do the same, but never when I'm around others. Usually it's when I'm home alone I just get in a funk out of nowhere.

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Conflict posted...

Didn't you just get engaged?

Yup, that's what's frustrating. It's mostly centered around changes in the job and financial struggles, but then it pours into all other aspects. Even worse when I know the financial struggles wouldn't be so bad if I could focus on a plan and commit x.x

DeathDeathSong posted...

ive spent more time asleep than awake these past few weeks
i keep ordering silly things online as a distraction and man the high of a brief five minutes of being able to hold some material object i paid for is a high like no other
and then the five minutes are up and i go back to not feeling anything lol

Yeah, I'm the same. Beginning to feel a lot like shopping addiction.

Touch posted...

I don't know the degrees of depression so I kinda don't want to say I have it because I don't want to downplay depression like people do with OCD.

But I remember in high school, I'd have these random moments, usually during lunch, where I'd just like...shut down and not really want to talk to people. Nowadays I kind of do the same, but never when I'm around others. Usually it's when I'm home alone I just get in a funk out of nowhere.

Don't worry about downplay, just don't self diagnose. You can talk about OCD or depression tendencies because everyone does have them, but a diagnosis means it's actually effecting your life, work, health, and relationships disproportionately.

DoGCyN posted...

How are you coping?

Right now I'm working and burying myself in Death Stranding. When I get a bit more cash stability, I'm going to reengage psychiatric services and look at adjusting my medication.

OctilIery posted...

Don't worry about downplay, just don't self diagnose. You can talk about OCD or depression tendencies because everyone does have them, but a diagnosis means it's actually effecting your life, work, health, and relationships disproportionately.

Yeah I actually meant self diagnosis when I said downplay. The word just escaped me atm lol.

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Touch posted...

Yeah I actually meant self diagnosis when I said downplay. The word just escaped me atm lol.

All good!

I've been having more good days than bad for a good while, but I had a real bad day yesterday. I was depressed enough to where it stuck with me all day, but not sad enough to cry it out or anything like that. It sucks. I thought about making a topic about it and depression, but didn't.

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Depression not super bad lately.

Stress and anxiety has been though.

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Southernfatman posted...

I've been having more good days than bad for a good while, but I had a real bad day yesterday. I was depressed enough to where it stuck with me all day, but not sad enough to cry it out or anything like that. It sucks. I thought about making a topic about it and depression, but didn't.

We're always here to talk. CE can be shit sometimes, but we got some good people too.

Not me. I'm trying, but got to go before consider myself good >.>;

Dreepapult posted...

Depression not super bad lately.

Stress and anxiety has been though.

One tends to lead to the other for me :(

It's good that you're trying to distract yourself with things. My biggest issue when my depression was bad was just being able to do anything.

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If you have the ability to do therapy, you should do that.
If not, try talking to friends or family in person about what you are dealing with. Saying things out loud to someone helps quite a bit.
Maybe join a group of some kind - especially if physical activity is involved - excersice helps me clear my head.

Hang in there bud, youre not alone

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J03can posted...

If you have the ability to do therapy, you should do that.
If not, try talking to friends or family in person about what you are dealing with. Saying things out loud to someone helps quite a bit.
Maybe join a group of some kind - especially if physical activity is involved - excersice helps me clear my head.

Hang in there bud, youre not alone

<3 thank you bro

I need to start working out again. Therapy is in the works, especially because I'm now thinking maybe my ADD is worse than I thought and needs some work as well.

Pull trough man. Yes physical activity helps too. I hope you get trough it

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apolloooo posted...

Pull trough man. Yes physical activity helps too. I hope you get trough it

I will :) Not really suicidal or anything here anymore, though there are occasional fears of slipping back into the worst of it, but I'm confident that I can pull myself out, especially with my fiance helping. And you people :)

How am I supposed to feel towards a toxic and antagonizing person in a form of them projecting their depression? If there's such a thing?

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Also, not trying to steer too far from the subject, but does it seem like self harm isn't as big as it used to be? Like I have no doubt that people still do it nowadays, but it's been pretty quiet compared to the 2000s.

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Veggeta_MAX posted...

How am I supposed to feel towards a toxic and antagonizing person in a form of them projecting their depression? If there's such a thing?

Oh there definitely is. More common in men. Instead of feeling sad and whatnot the depression manifests more as anger and aggressiveness. I do it sometimes.

I guess my advice would be to call them out, but then when they are calmer ask how they're doing? There is a good chance they'll break down. It's happened to me. Angry aggressive asshole to my friend. Then we talk about how I'm actually doing because he knows I'm actually super depressed. Most of the time I end up crying lol.

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And also, what if initially I don't know he has some issue? What if I just think he's just some random asshole and think he needs to be put in his place? And then later I find out he has issues, am I supposed to just ignore him now?

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I'm trying to work through it more this year. I've had too many days where I did nothing, because that was all I felt like doing.

I'm talking to more people now(Not tons of people, but even talking regularly with one person and having positive interactions with them is helping). Having more money coming in is absolutely helping. I just need to make myself not spend it all since my mindset is used to "You have no money". Felt good being able to but something nice for Christmas.

I want this year to be different. Better. So I'm trying to do more things.

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Veggeta_MAX posted...

And also, what if initially I don't know he has some issue? What if I just think he's just some random asshole and think he needs to be put in his place? And then later I find out he has issues, am I supposed to just ignore him now?

It's a really rough call there. I generally try to be as nice as possible, but I'm human and so are you. Use your best judgement, and when you get it wrong just apologize because we all do, it doesn't mean you weren't trying.

I was doing fairly well recently. It had eased up, and even more fairly major family problems didn't trigger anything. Now though, a few weeks later it's hitting me really hard.

I'm stressed out at work, stressed out at home, stressed out online. It never feels like I'm good enough. Everyone else excels or is bold/confident, can stand up for themselves and have actual lives. Then here I am, the only reason I even left the house was to work, have no friends, no life. I'm literally nothing compared to anyone else, or to where I want to be in life.

I'm starting to get super jealous when people talk about their lives. Even the bad stuff they complain about stems from them having a better life than me. Everyone is just better and I don't know why. I just want to be ok with myself, but I'm not. I don't know what to do to be a better person, I try so hard but always mess everything up. In the end, everything just circles back to the one constant in my life, that I'm just not worth anything to anyone.

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Veggeta_MAX posted...

And also, what if initially I don't know he has some issue? What if I just think he's just some random asshole and think he needs to be put in his place? And then later I find out he has issues, am I supposed to just ignore him now?

Yeah like Oct said. Try to be nice. But we're all human. Get treated poorly you'll eventually lash back. Don't beat yourself up when it happens. But apologizing will go a long way and he'll likely apologize as well because he knows he hasn't been innocent in the situation.

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KogaSteelfang posted...

I was doing fairly well recently. It had eased up, and even more fairly major family problems didn't trigger anything. Now though, a few weeks later it's hitting me really hard.

I'm stressed out at work, stressed out at home, stressed out online. It never feels like I'm good enough. Everyone else excels or is bold/confident, can stand up for themselves and have actual lives. Then here I am, the only reason I even left the house was to work, have no friends, no life. I'm literally nothing compared to anyone else, or to where I want to be in life.

I'm starting to get super jealous when people talk about their lives. Even the bad stuff they complain about stems from them having a better life than me. Everyone is just better and I don't know why. I just want to be ok with myself, but I'm not. I don't know what to do to be a better person, I try so hard but always mess everything up. In the end, everything just circles back to the one constant in my life, that I'm just not worth anything to anyone.

Hang in there man.

I know it's hard. But you gotta stop comparing your life to those of others.

You gotta learn to love yourself. Forgive yourself. I speak from experience because I deal with a lot of the same things on a regular basis.

Start taking better care of yourself.

I was doing good with that for a while and felt better. Been slipping again and now my anxiety is way high again. Mind body connection is real. It won't fix actual clinical depression, but it does help.

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