Poll of the Day > Have you ever felt like an emotional wreck but

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Dont want to talk to people about it to people irl because you are afraid of what they will think?
Like you have no idea what to do anymore?

Asking for a friend
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Yeah. Times like those friends from further away are better. Or even internet strangers. Stuff does need to be talked about all the same
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Not really, I tend to lock down any sort of downward trending emotions.
Also I just make plans, those make me feel better. Plans on plans on plans.

yes
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All the time when I'm remembering stuff from the past that shouldn't even bother me anymore. It's like they'll just tell me to "get over it". I just can't help but feel anxiety when I remember how I used to troll some website for two years, and feel ashamed of my own actions and words; enough to the point that I want to off myself because I feel like my head's going to explode from remembering the same stuff over and over again, in an effort to numb myself to the pain. Then I remember people telling me to "leave girls alone"; and it just makes me even more suicidal when I remember my previous therapist telling me to do so. I feel like I lose more and more of my sanity and will to live the more I remember the amount of crap I've repressed over the years. I feel like I shouldn't even have the right to exist, like I'm a threat to everybody else without even doing anything. I just feel like I want to crawl up in some corner and die when I'm alone with my thoughts and memories. Then I remember people who have it far worse than I have--like those people who have to live in that shelter that I work at. Then I feel even more ashamed of myself because what I'm feeling right now is basically nothing to the day-to-day struggles that they must endure, while I live in my mother's house, rent-free, while being able to go to college. I feel very privileged, which is why I feel ashamed over losing my mind when I think of a couple of memories, which aren't really anything compared to the crap that other people must deal with in the present-day. :(
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If I get like that there's usually only a couple of people I feel like talking to. My female best friend is the first person I go to.

shit there's no one i ever talk to about anything emotional now that i think about it
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Sure. I don't like to talk about my feelings with people I'm close to.
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All the time. I think I've finally started regaining control of most of my posting habits and only really post any more when I'm about to lose my mind if I don't talk about my life. For a while I had gotten really accustomed to expressing how I felt here, and that didn't seem to go over very well for lots of posters here. I wish I had someone to talk to in person, who I trusted, and could support me. Instead, I've got you guys...

EclairReturns posted...

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Hey, if you ever need to talk or vent, you can message me. I probably won't have any sound advice, but I can listen and give opinions. You shouldn't be ashamed to be unhappy, there will always be people in worse situations, and that shouldn't change your view of yourself beyond giving some perspective.
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No, I tend to lose inhibitions when emotionally damaged so I just continue with life with an unstable energy.
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You guys can message me if you need someone to talk to.
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ss4parrothair posted...

Dont want to talk to people about it to people irl because you are afraid of what they will think?

I talk about my anxiety issues to one or two people in real life. Mostly my brother as I can talk to him about anything as he can me. He gets it on some level. His housemate who I recently met however actually has anxiety so I talk to him about his issues and can relate.

ss4parrothair posted...

Like you have no idea what to do anymore?

Not really much I can do it seems as I refuse medication.
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