Current Events > Have you ever had an IRL meltdown? like you completely broke down and shit?

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Kanaya413 posted...

Yes
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What happened?
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Banjo2553 posted...

I have a weird case of depression that goes in phases. One day I just couldn't take it anymore and after work I just parked somewhere secluded and just broke down crying for a good 10-15 minutes. I can't even tell you what triggered it though, to be honest.

How did you feel afterwards?
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There's a reason I'll never buy a gun
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omega cookie posted...

omega cookie posted...

Once. I was told that I had cancer and had roughly a month to live my second year of college by my doctor when I was getting ready to have the third surgery on my knee. Went back to smoking after having quit six months before, wrecked my car for fun, bumped my casual cocaine usage up to near Sheenian levels, drank a lot, and started fighting people for the hell of it.

I did not have cancer.

Fuck it, might as well tell the whole story. I also tried my absolute hardest to sabotage my relationship with my fiance(super serious girlfriend at the time) so that she would hate me, dump me, cut off contact with me, and not be sad when I died. I never told her I was dying. I wasn't scared of dying, I was scared of leaving her alone to grieve me after I was gone. She deserved far better then that.

This includes letting her catch me cheating on her, calling her awful, horrible shit, ruining most of the shit she owned in various drunken rages, and just being the worst I've ever been to anyone. I did everything short of hitting her.

Thankfully, she is a very smart girl. She knew something was going on, and refused to end it. She wouldn't fight with me, didn't get upset when I screamed at her, and didn't even care when I destroyed our apartment. Didn't even try to find out why I was acting that way, just let me lose my shit and stood by me while I did. She also refused to leave my side. Two weeks, I think I was out of her sight just long enough to get an ex-girlfriend to come over so she could catch me cheating. Her only reaction to that was to nicely ask the girl to please leave.

When I found out the truth two weeks later, after the blinding rage had subsided, she just held me while I cried and screamed on the floor of our kitchen. She then told me, verbatim, "I knew that wasn't you, so I wanted to be here when you came back to me."

I used every single fucking penny I had to buy a ring that night.

wow what a girl
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SpiralDrift posted...

Kanaya413 posted...

Yes
Public

What happened?

Broke down in first class because I couldn't take the secret of being molested by my dad anymore and being forces to live with him
He was arrested that day last time I ever saw him was the Monday of that week
It was also the week before our graduation test >_> I have perfect timing
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OwlRammer posted...

omega cookie posted...

omega cookie posted...

Once. I was told that I had cancer and had roughly a month to live my second year of college by my doctor when I was getting ready to have the third surgery on my knee. Went back to smoking after having quit six months before, wrecked my car for fun, bumped my casual cocaine usage up to near Sheenian levels, drank a lot, and started fighting people for the hell of it.

I did not have cancer.

Fuck it, might as well tell the whole story. I also tried my absolute hardest to sabotage my relationship with my fiance(super serious girlfriend at the time) so that she would hate me, dump me, cut off contact with me, and not be sad when I died. I never told her I was dying. I wasn't scared of dying, I was scared of leaving her alone to grieve me after I was gone. She deserved far better then that.

This includes letting her catch me cheating on her, calling her awful, horrible shit, ruining most of the shit she owned in various drunken rages, and just being the worst I've ever been to anyone. I did everything short of hitting her.

Thankfully, she is a very smart girl. She knew something was going on, and refused to end it. She wouldn't fight with me, didn't get upset when I screamed at her, and didn't even care when I destroyed our apartment. Didn't even try to find out why I was acting that way, just let me lose my shit and stood by me while I did. She also refused to leave my side. Two weeks, I think I was out of her sight just long enough to get an ex-girlfriend to come over so she could catch me cheating. Her only reaction to that was to nicely ask the girl to please leave.

When I found out the truth two weeks later, after the blinding rage had subsided, she just held me while I cried and screamed on the floor of our kitchen. She then told me, verbatim, "I knew that wasn't you, so I wanted to be here when you came back to me."

I used every single fucking penny I had to buy a ring that night.

wow what a girl

Oh my God ;(
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Kanaya413 posted...

SpiralDrift posted...

Kanaya413 posted...

Yes
Public

What happened?

Broke down in first class because I couldn't take the secret of being molested by my dad anymore and being forces to live with him
He was arrested that day last time I ever saw him was the Monday of that week
It was also the week before our graduation test >_> I have perfect timing

I think you should see it more as a moment of strength. You forced the issue even though it was hard. Given the circumstances, the emotional duress is understandable.
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Thank you <3
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