Current Events > Going to that wedding was a mistake...

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Like, I killed it. I looked the best. Everyone was happy to see me. Even my ex was happy to see me.

But like...wow, I never realized how much I actually missed all those people from her family.

And like...now it's like really over I guess. There's really no reason for me to ever turn up or see any of them..

They're the only people that have seemed concerned about my kidney failure too. Even more than my own family.

Shit, now I really don't have anyone left.
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such is the fate of everyone :(. it sucks. we just deal with this **** on a daily basis.
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Have your kidneys gotten better?
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Nope. They're not going to get better. I need to start dialysis in a few weeks and get a kidney transplant, but it's been over six months and I'm still not even on the list. Every transplant center I contact says that my insurance is giving them a hard time over getting the testing to get onto the list.

They say when I finally get on the list, even though I don't drink, do drugs and am relatively young for having chronic kidney disease which should give me priority, it will probably take at least 4 years to get a kidney.

I really don't know if I can deal with this for another four years.
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