Current Events > I think I'm an addict.

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Not to the plant. But to the feeling. I love the feeling so much. My life is full with so much joy when I'm on it. My life without is normally depressing and bland. I'm usually sad and anti social without it


Don't get me wrong. I can stop at anytime. But I would just rather not, I love it.
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Bump :/
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robellr13 posted...

Not to the plant. But to the feeling.

what? you are addicted to getting high but not weed?
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KILBOTz posted...

robellr13 posted...

Not to the plant. But to the feeling.

what? you are addicted to getting high but not weed?

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You can do it it's all up to you m'kay
with a little plan you can change your life today
you don't have to spend your life addicted to smack
homeless on the streets giving handjobs for cash
follow this plan and very soon you will see
Its easy m'kay

https://youtu.be/jK8fAUlqbow?t=32s
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Darthfluffy2 posted...

KILBOTz posted...

robellr13 posted...

Not to the plant. But to the feeling.

what? you are addicted to getting high but not weed?

Basically
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Yes, psychological addiction is a thing.
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I was too, but it was easy to quit when I moved out of Washington. It was legal, widely available, and a hell of a lot cheaper (and healthier) for me than alcohol, so it was hard to stop then.

Like, it got to where I never wanted to play a game or watch a movie unless I smoked first because it made them so much more intense.

i'm the same way TC, it's kind of shitty but i feel like my usage has reprogrammed my mind. even though i dont smoke anymore i still get cravings if someone brings it up or w/e. definitely some strong psychological shit
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Good I thought I was the only one. I can stop smoking anytime. It's just that everything is better when I'm high

It also doesn't help that I'm anti social/socially awkward. So if I want to have a good time at a party, I have to get High

It also doesn't help that I don't drink alcohol
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Me too, I can't get away from the clutches of CE.

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Zurkon posted...

I smoke and game as soon as I get home from school and it's not the same if you don't smoke first. My problem is if I'm playing a game like Overwatch I'm pretty bad for the first two or so games after I smoke then I get this flow going then and I can start wrecking shit.

Same here. I wasn't much for competitive games when smoking, but some occasional Call of Duty was fun.

Souls games and Uncharted/TLoU were my shit. Walking into a new area had both an overwhelming sense of awe and tension. Plus my memory was less than stellar, so I could replay them multiple times and still have it feel fresh.

And I enjoy music much more
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I'm an addict to a plant myself, too.

Kratom. A giant tree in south east Asia that produces leaves that give off wonderful euphoric effects. Akin to an opiate high. It's legal and has never produced a death in the thousands of years of use.

It pretty much destroyed my libido and appetite. And it makes me content to lay around all day on my days off. Playing games can actually be fun for hours, something I can't do sober.

Sucks getting actual physical withdrawal after 5 or so hours. But I learned to live with it. Finding that the older I get, the harder the prospect of quitting seems. Depressing, I know.
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robellr13 posted...

And I enjoy music much more

I'd always have a CD playing on the surround system during Souls. Sometimes it seemed like the song/lyrics synched up perfectly with what was happening in the game lol.

This topic is making me miss Washington.

You guys should come to Toronto. Stuff is pretty much sold on every street corner now. You don't even need fake prescriptions. Just walk in.

Wish I enjoyed cannabis though. I can't do it. The insanely depressing and anxious thoughts are too overwhelming. I want to talk substances to relax, not to critically analyse why I suck. For hours on end.
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Yeah, there is a term for this. It's called psychological dependence. Meaning you don't need the plant to satisfy any real physical craving, but the feelings it gives you is something you desire. You can't stay away from it.

And that is a problem. It's not "addiction", persay, but it's one step below.
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MachoManSavage posted...

Wish I enjoyed cannabis though. I can't do it. The insanely depressing and anxious thoughts are too overwhelming. I want to talk substances to relax, not to critically analyse why I suck. For hours on end.

That's why it was so easy for me to quit when I moved away from a legal state. When I was still on Ritalin and smoking, it was basically heaven. Without it, I noticed I was constantly overanalyzing myself to the point of it interrupting my gaming/movies/etc. I was also getting bored of games within the first hour of starting new ones and had already played out all my favorites.

Social situations were a nightmare too. I already have bad social anxiety and that amplified it like x20 if I wasn't also drinking.

Vertania posted...

MachoManSavage posted...

Wish I enjoyed cannabis though. I can't do it. The insanely depressing and anxious thoughts are too overwhelming. I want to talk substances to relax, not to critically analyse why I suck. For hours on end.

That's why it was so easy for me to quit when I moved away from a legal state. When I was still on Ritalin and smoking, it was basically heaven. Without it, I noticed I was constantly overanalyzing myself to the point of it interrupting my gaming/movies/etc. I was also getting bored of games within the first hour of starting new ones and had already played out all my favorites.

Social situations were a nightmare too. I already have bad social anxiety and that amplified it like x20 if I wasn't also drinking.

Oh god. The social situations. I absolutely would never smoke with people. Everything in my head would be tense and anxious. I would hate my voice, how I look, etc.

That's one of my biggest fears actually. Smoking pot with people.
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MachoManSavage posted...

I'm an addict to a plant myself, too.

Kratom. A giant tree in south east Asia that produces leaves that give off wonderful euphoric effects. Akin to an opiate high. It's legal and has never produced a death in the thousands of years of use.

It pretty much destroyed my libido and appetite. And it makes me content to lay around all day on my days off. Playing games can actually be fun for hours, something I can't do sober.

Sucks getting actual physical withdrawal after 5 or so hours. But I learned to live with it. Finding that the older I get, the harder the prospect of quitting seems. Depressing, I know.

I want to try this
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I'm in love with Mary Jane, she's my main thang
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