Current Events > Uh-oh, my brain was quiet for a whole 5 seconds

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Time for my brain to fill the silence with repressed memories I hadnt thought about in 20 years and play connect the dots between them and my current neuroses

better hold on to your ass because there are no stops on this ride, woooo weeewe

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Pathetic. Learn to silence your mind by being very stupid. I am a professional stupid, I know what I peak off.

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BloodMoon7 posted...

Pathetic. Learn to silence your mind by being very stupid. I am a professional stupid, I know what I peak off.

lol.

you know, Id never pretend that Im smarter than the average person. (I hope to God Im not. Because if my intelligence is any indicator of the average then the entire world is fucked)

But sometimes it feels like...nobody else gives a fuck. And they dont suffer for not giving a fuck.

The grown ass man throwing a tantrum at Dennys? He gets his meal comped even though the restaurant did nothing wrong.

The slacker at work who actively sets back every project? Never gets fired. Might even get promoted.

Like...you put so much energy into being a good person, or at least, trying to be a good person. You try to have courtesy, kindness, empathy, you try to recognize your mistakes. Try to improve as a person whenever you can. And what does it amount to in the end?

Not much. And the people who dont try? Their lives end up just as good or better than yours, but with less stress. Because theyre not worried about it. They dont care.

Its just so demoralizing.

Sometimes I wish I could be just...completely stupid and oblivious to all my shortcomings. Just continue living my life like Im 12 and not feel compelled to try any harder than that.

Idk. Lol. Sometimes its just...why are we even doing this?

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It truly is a marvel that we cannot control what we think. Seems like we were all put on this planet to do nothing but suffer.

Don't try then. It's what I do. I'm not going to go out of my way to be an asshole but it's pretty tiring to try and try and indeed, for what? I've never met anyone who could answer me that.

But I'll tell you this much, my life is pretty much the same as it had always been and it's the pits. Sure sometimes it seems like the wrong people get an unfair advantage and I'm not going to try and deny that. But your attitude is about one of the few things that can be in your control, even if it seems difficult.

Just choose to be what makes you happy, or if that's asking a lot, at least don't mind other people. You've gotta just focus on yourself and on how YOU can get what you want. This is the same whether or not you want to be nice about it. Power is power. Once you have what you want, what kind of person do you want to be? You want to feel good about how you got there? Or you wanna grow numb to the suffering you created? Choice is always yours, even when circumstances are against you.

I didn't know why I tried so I stopped. I don't recommend that so you will just have to find your own reason. If it's a good reason, maybe you'll be a little less plagued by intrusive thoughts. But you didn't hear this from me.

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