Current Events > Me birth a child with a loved woman. my thoughts HEAVY THOUGHTS VENT

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I have never been suicidal

I lost hope, bored af maybe depression but I never considered the thought. I am so bizarre I said in a topic on birthing a child I would have thoughts on regret birthing them if they felt my pain. I am alive I enjoy life and I don't enjoy life but I've never wanted any harm no matter my mindset.

Being deceased scares me maybe it's my mind instincts protection but whatever I'm not gonna fight instincts on damage.

I would consciously never birth with a woman they could threaten me them leaving and I love them, no child! No!

The thought of my childs brain coping badly despite me being a good non paranoid kid myself would not be good.

Fear of a small chance even with me and my 2 of 3 half brothers being proof the gene of my black familys mental health weakening its clutches but my paranoia is strong.
I mean this in a way of expecting my kid to suffer paranoia and also the paranoia of myself denying the chance of being a father from my struggles on loathing myself in the past and not being a good father disregarding this whole speech of what I said adopting a kid myself I still wouldn't do it because of my doubts I'd do good despite lack of any blood relation of adoption

Its a risk I will not ever take...
Not sure if anyone care but I wrote this for satisfying myself.

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Bandit_Keith posted...

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This is current events gamefaqs we have topics on gun legality
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