Current Events > Conflict is BLOCKED!

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I worry about Conflict. We fight a lot. But we're bros.

Hope you're alright, man.

Machete posted...

Whether I've been suicidal or not, I've never truly believed it's me against the world. That doesn't mean I haven't felt it though. Knowing and feeling are not the same thing, and knowing can't always be enough. If it was, I would just talk myself out of anxiety because more often than not, it's just not rational... but that's just not how it works.

Indeed but going "Suicide is not rational" is not a defense of going "It's okay to burden someone permenantly with the task of keeping me alive because of my mental state."

There's a limit to that.

If the person isn't making any signs of recovery or cannot recover mentally then they need professional help. Not randoms and not a lifetime of pressuring a loved one to be a crutch.

Those aren't solutions.
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Cowthief posted...

I thought it was just because I live in Canada =s

what does you living in Canada have to do with conflict being locked out?

ssj3vegeta2 posted...

Surprise surprise, gamefaqs doesn't actually care about da user dey just care about not getting sued

this supports my theory they want those users to disappear so they have less liability, even if that means some really dark shit

I hope hes ok.

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UnfairRepresent posted...

Indeed but going "Suicide is not rational" is not a defense of going "It's okay to burden someone permenantly with the task of keeping me alive because of my mental state."

There's a limit to that.

If the person isn't making any signs of recovery or cannot recover mentally then they need professional help. Not randoms and not a lifetime of pressuring a loved one to be a crutch.

Those aren't solutions.

I mean, I'm not stating anything to the contrary...

Professional help doesn't exist on this site and it's not this site's job, so naturally, the mods will just be the mods and do what they do. Liability is paramount from that perspective which is unfortunate but it is what it is. Professional help should always be an available and accessible option imo. I would be looking into that myself right now if not for virus-imposed restrictions and fears, but thankfully in my case, I figured out a missing puzzle piece that explains a lot of the bullshit in my life over the years and why I've been such an enemy to myself. Having too much time and not enough to spend it on was a blessing in disguise I guess. I can only hope that Conflict might, in the absence of available/accessible help, reach a similar epiphany that could at least for now offer some mental clarity. It's weird really. I've been able to answer more questions about myself in the past 2-3 weeks than I had in more than 30 years prior, and not even by remembering something I had blocked out but just by connecting what I did remember to something else I had never considered to be related... and then over a few days more and more dots got connected and every issue I thought about could be traced back. I still don't remember in full, and maybe I never will, but I know where and when it started, so when the time comes for professional help, I'll have that chapter of the story to tell instead of just showing up feeling lost and saying "I'm fucked up but I don't know what I'm doing here..." which was a roadblock that had always previously caused me to give up before even trying...

In Conflict's case, I guess what I'm saying is that if he has someone to be that crutch for him at least in the short term and/or in the event of a crisis, that's a good thing and I would be happy to be that person although given our history I don't know that he would trust me and I wouldn't blame him if he didn't lol. I know I'm a fucking asshole when anyone or anything gets on my nerves in any way and I know I stand my ground when maybe I shouldn't, but why ever walk anything back when you know that anyone or anything will get on your nerves again and you'll react the same way and any remorse you have previously shown will just look like disingenuous bullshit? I don't know the guy that well. We've had interactions but I feel like I'm talking to/about myself far more than I'm talking to/about him, but if he's an angry person, in any way, general or specific, I get it, and I do sincerely hope he sees and reads this, and if he rolls his eyes and thinks I'm trolling or just drunk/high (I'm neither), that's fine... but if he can find any value in anything I've said, that's what matters. I don't get heartfelt often but when I do, I don't hold anything back.

I mean you know too. I've had probably more conflicts with you than I have with Conflict. We get along at times and we see eye to eye on some things but we've butted heads a lot. Sometimes it's just banter like when I break your balls about what stock pics you post in your news articles, or stuff about why or why not Wesley was included in a scenario but sometimes it goes beyond that like with topics about Trayvon/Zimmerman. I dunno man. I dunno why I'm getting emotional and introspective so much right now of all times. The world is just on hold for me at this point. I'm laid off but unemployment has been generous and I've been saving in case this happened. My AC broke and the new one I bought came missing a part so I can't use it but I finally got through to the manufacturer so that will be sorted out by next week at the latest. I learned from an acquaintance I hadn't seen in months until yesterday that someone jumped head first off the parking garage in my city and that the local cops apparently have a hotline set up for people who are distressed, and that seems weird to even type out since I'm generally not a fan of cops but I've never had a bad encounter with the ones in this department since I moved here, and I've walked through various protests where people are yelling "Fuck the police!" etc. with police less than 10 feet away and they all just ignored it and stayed focused on directing traffic.

I don't know why I bothered to type all this out other than I'm naturally verbose and I like to write lol... but if anything I've said could mean anything to anyone, Conflict in particular if he has an alt to see this on, it was more than worth it and to be honest it would be worth it anyway just for my own state of mind for having shared


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He may be blocked on this message board...but he'll never be blocked from our hearts.

Machete posted...

I mean, I'm not stating anything to the contrary...

Professional help doesn't exist on this site and it's not this site's job, so naturally, the mods will just be the mods and do what they do.

Exactly.

In Conflict's case, I guess what I'm saying is that if he has someone to be that crutch for him at least in the short term and/or in the event of a crisis, that's a good thing and I would be happy to be that person

As would I but we're just random people on the internet. Actual change needs to come from him and the best place to get it is professional help.

Family and friends can help but they should not be a crutch

Random dudes on the internet is a terrible idea.

I mean you know too. I've had probably more conflicts with you than I have with Conflict. We get along at times and we see eye to eye on some things but we've butted heads a lot. Sometimes it's just banter like when I break your balls about what stock pics you post in your news articles, or stuff about why or why not Wesley was included in a scenario but sometimes it goes beyond that like with topics about Trayvon/Zimmerman. I dunno man.

Erm... Don't take this the wrong way but I don't know who you are.

I dunno why I'm getting emotional and introspective so much right now of all times. The world is just on hold for me at this point.

Suicide is a depressing subject. Especially if you've dealt with it in your life personally or professionally. The people who don't take it seriously are fortunate enough to have never had too.

The people who have dealt with it like us always get introspective about it because it's difficult not too.
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