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Ok i showered and went out. Got 2 double cheeseburgers and am getting a carwash. I dont know what to do after this carwash

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My buddy came over for a bit tonight, we watched the latest season of its always sunny and kingpin (1996).
It was a nice night. We got Harvey's burgers though. Im starting to really feel my diet for the past month... im pushing my health...

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Honestly at this stage throwing yourself into hanging out with friends isn't a bad thing.

Nor is eating junk per se.


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This is just getting so tiresome.
Not hanging with friends, that part is nice. Im talking about not wanting to make nutritious food, just staying in bed all the time, not having anything to do... im so bored today, and sad.
I just want to hang out with my wife. I know what i need to do to be a good husband and have a long future together, i just need her to give me a chance. I should have been doing it already because its not even difficult.
I know this topic is a broken record, and i appreciate CE for caring.

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• 5q kit+1,

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J03can posted...

I know this topic is a broken record, and i appreciate CE for caring.

Its Ok, dude. A lot of us have gone through something similar. To be fair, I wasnt married, but I did get my heart broken a long time ago. I dont even think I did anything wrong, but she still played me like a yo-yo, as in claimed she needed space, then later wanted to get back and so we did, then she ended it abruptly. The back and forth was torture and I couldnt lean on anyone to give me good advice, like explaining that I should have had more self esteem and I was ultimately responsible by setting myself up for pain. But that breakup was good in the long run because I learned a lot from it. Whatever happens now between you and your wife, I hope you also can get something positive out of it.


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Thanks man. I know that no matter what happens i will definitely take something from this. Its just such a mindfuck right now. I am so bored. I cant think of anything to do, and, i have zero motivation to eat. But, if i dont eat, my mind will get out of whack and ill start to get anxious. Theres literally nothing for me to do right now. I suppose i could go to the gym but i dont want to. I dont want to do anything... but i want to do something desperately. Its been about a month now and im not seeing any progress or growth...
I feel like i should play some video games, but they are one of the major things that i neglected my wife for to cause this mess. And, i dont want to play video games. At this moment in my life there is absolutely nothing that i want to do.

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Ive been in bed all day. No video games. Been watching a bunch of seinfeld.

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That sounds like the perfect day for me.

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Before my whole life blew up i would have agreed. Now its just really sad.


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Keep seeing your therapist, TC. Depression is an ugly beast, and you need to fight it. Dont let this drag you down to a place you cant escape.

Its okay to mourn you marriage. But its not okay to withdraw from life. Be sure to take care of yourself.

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Thanks. Today was better. I went out around noon and ran some errands, then went out with a buddy to watch hockey at a bar.
I have plans to meet with my wife for coffee tonight so we will see how that goes

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It went fine. Was civil and friendly. She is never getting back with me. Hurts real bad but ive said it in here before that she probably shouldnt. I let her down big time. She says she gave me as many chances as she could to turn it around, i said how about 1 more chance. She said no

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She's seeing someone else.

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Shes not, and it wouldnt matter if she were because we are seperated.
Thanks for trying to do what you were trying to do though, real awesome.

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https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7uUnagOGWvQ

Once you accept things you can start to move on and begin to climb out of the hole. Learn from this experience and use it to better yourself for the future. I believe in you.

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One of my main fears has always been turning into Bill

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J03can posted...

One of my main fears has always been turning into Bill

Lol!

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Mistere Man posted...

Lol!

Imagine

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I'm gonna wish you a Better New Year. This one may not have ended happy, but I wish you the best for the future

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Heres to hoping 2020 is better.

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J03can posted...

Imagine

I dont have to I basically am Bill.

Laughing just makes it hurt less.

Bill isn't all bad though.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7nkrzI9GwNk

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Thanks guys, happy new year to you.

Bill isnt a bad guy but hes so sad. And the episodes where he melts down thinking of Lenore are rough. I legit dont want to end up like that.

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Thankfully im with friends today but this is hitting me hard. Our dating anniversary was new years. Im thinking of booking a vacation - anybody here ever go on a cruise solo?

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J03can posted...

Thankfully im with friends today but this is hitting me hard. Our dating anniversary was new years. Im thinking of booking a vacation - anybody here ever go on a cruise solo?

Just remember will always have friends here if you need because youre

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9d2Gxm6nZAk

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I love the Clerks TAS reference. CE has been a major positive for me in this. Just crossed the one month threshold. Its not as hard, im spinning out less.
It will be ok. Ill be better coming out of this as a person and have to accept what it cost to learn that.

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Back to work today... back to having something normal to keep me occupied.
Its kind of freaking me out.

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It was a good day. Worked all day then went in and had a good night of training.
Impact Wrestling shared put a post on Instagram that featured a clip from the time i filled in as ring announcer for them and that feels pretty fucking cool.
Im pretty close to booking a cruise for next month.


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Nice! I always wanted to go on a cruise. I hope you have a great time.

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Just read through the whole topic, sorry you're going through this man. I went through an absolutely horrific split a few years ago, and reading this topic brought back a few memories. The dreams are definitely the worst of it, finally getting some sort of closure in your mind only to wake up to reality in the morning is super depressing. Ruins the entire day.

It took time, but I'm doing better now. I found that with really difficult times like these, it helps to make a really positive note-worthy memory. When my breakup was the most recent major event in my life, I spent months dwelling on it and had a very hard time letting go. After about 8 months of depression, I rescued a dog from a shelter. I wanted one my entire life, but never got one for some reason or another. She's my first pet of my own, and it finally started to begin like I was slowly healing from then on.

Now I'm not saying to get another cat or anything, more I'm saying to consider finding something you've always wanted to do, such as a trip or something, and work on accomplishing it. Something important to you that's been a life goal, so that it feels like a new chapter in your life.

I applied this principle to myself early last year when I lost my job super unexpectedly at a bad time, resulting in losing the apartment I was renting as well. Suddenly with a lot of time and freedom, I took a vacation to Japan as it was always a huge bucket list item for me. I felt it really helped me get back on my feet since the latest event from my life was a vacation, as opposed to dwelling on the job and apartment I lost.

It's a new decade, and I wish you the best of luck dude.

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I know how it is, Im going through a rough patch myself. Hang in there, TC. Itll pass.

https://youtu.be/bbQm-nSjuHI

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Gamefreak1000 posted...

Just read through the whole topic, sorry you're going through this man. I went through an absolutely horrific split a few years ago, and reading this topic brought back a few memories. The dreams are definitely the worst of it, finally getting some sort of closure in your mind only to wake up to reality in the morning is super depressing. Ruins the entire day.

It took time, but I'm doing better now. I found that with really difficult times like these, it helps to make a really positive note-worthy memory. When my breakup was the most recent major event in my life, I spent months dwelling on it and had a very hard time letting go. After about 8 months of depression, I rescued a dog from a shelter. I wanted one my entire life, but never got one for some reason or another. She's my first pet of my own, and it finally started to begin like I was slowly healing from then on.

Now I'm not saying to get another cat or anything, more I'm saying to consider finding something you've always wanted to do, such as a trip or something, and work on accomplishing it. Something important to you that's been a life goal, so that it feels like a new chapter in your life.

I applied this principle to myself early last year when I lost my job super unexpectedly at a bad time, resulting in losing the apartment I was renting as well. Suddenly with a lot of time and freedom, I took a vacation to Japan as it was always a huge bucket list item for me. I felt it really helped me get back on my feet since the latest event from my life was a vacation, as opposed to dwelling on the job and apartment I lost.

It's a new decade, and I wish you the best of luck dude.

Thank you so much for taking the time to write that up. It means a lot. I don't have anyone close to me that has gone through something similar, so having someones perspective who has gone through it helps incredibly.
The cruise idea is a step in the right direction i think, but i am also worried im rushing it - im very indecisive right now and am afraid of making a bad decision - although i dont think taking that vacation would be a mistake.
I hope that youre doing well now after the job/apartment setback.

Mistere Man posted...

Nice! I always wanted to go on a cruise. I hope you have a great time.

Thanks! If i do go on it, im sure ill be occasionally posting on CE.
MarshallStack posted...

I know how it is, Im going through a rough patch myself. Hang in there, TC. Itll pass.

https://youtu.be/bbQm-nSjuHI

Thanks pal!

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I booked the cruise - Norwegian Cruise Lines, Escape, Feb 1st to the 8th.

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Make sure you really escape and not bring the baggage of problems with you. Sometimes its best to be grateful for what you have, and never for what you want, and that may help humble you.

Don't worry the light is still on at the end of the tunnel you just have to look up.

You got this man!

Wishing you the best in your troubled times!

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MACisBack posted...

Make sure you really escape and not bring the baggage of problems with you. Sometimes its best to be grateful for what you have, and never for what you want, and that may help humble you.

Don't worry the light is still on at the end of the tunnel you just have to look up.

You got this man!

Wishing you the best in your troubled times!

Thanks dude, that is going to be the challange. I cant go there just to talk about my issues - im going there to have fun, unwind and relax

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I've heard generally better things about Norwegian vs Carnival as far as cruises go, have a good time. Go relax and have some time for yourself, maybe even get brave and enjoy yourself Best wishes, enjoy your getaway and keep on keeping on

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Bumping to let TC know were still here for him.

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<3
Had a good day today. Went to a pro wrestling referee seminar put on by NXT ref Daryl Sharma. Great day of learning, and im having drinks at my bud's house tonight.
Booking the cruise feels like turning the page big time. Im still hurting, but more accepting. Less of a sad sack but im still sad if that makes sense

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Good to hear.

Yeah it is going to hurt as that is the thing with love it leaves a painful scar, but thankfully like other scars they can fade with time, and become less noticeable.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=SdLs9HiEmA8

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Hope you have a nice cruise, TC

I'm sorry about all that stuff going on.

Mistere Man posted...

Good to hear.

Yeah it is going to hurt as that is the thing with love it leaves a painful scar, but thankfully like other scars they can fade with time, and become less noticeable.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=SdLs9HiEmA8

Perfect clip. Butters is my spirit animal in this. Doing my best to be positive like him. I think im doing pretty good.
Zikten posted...

Hope you have a nice cruise, TC

I'm sorry about all that stuff going on.

Thanks! I will and things will be OK

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You are doing great imo.

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Mistere Man posted...

You are doing great imo.

Thanks pal! Its not easy, and it helps how my wife and i dont hate each other. At first i thought it made it harder, but when we talk (not too often) its good - we just grew apart.

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the great thing about being an incel is i don't ever have to experience this

jk not an incel

HIMR posted...

the great thing about being an incel is i don't ever have to experience this

jk not an incel

Yeah i didnt want to go through this, but, i know ill come out of it better off - just sucks i had to lose so much

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Back to normal work schedule tomorrow. Been having some rough feelings tonight. This really is the worst, like thinking about things well never do again... stuff as mundane as going to visit family and just going to the store..

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J03can posted...

Back to normal work schedule tomorrow. Been having some rough feelings tonight. This really is the worst, like thinking about things well never do again... stuff as mundane as going to visit family and just going to the store..

Yeah, that will happen for a while. Then it will happen less often. Then a few weeks from now, or a few months, WHAM, it will hit you again. Not trying to be negative, just warning you.

But it will get better. The blow will be less devastating. The sick feelings will go away; the sadness will linger longer.

My family had a devastating event last spring. The summer was awful. I lost 15 pounds becaue I couldn't eat. Doing "mundane" things, such as grocery shopping or just driving down the street, reminded me of how things used to be. But over time the feelings have subsided. Our situation hasn't changed; the blow is still there. But my mind and body couldn't stay in that mode forever. I had to move on. And you will too.

Getting back to normal at work will help. And it will hurt. That's all normal. You'll get through this.

Have fun on your cruise!

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Sariana21 posted...

Yeah, that will happen for a while. Then it will happen less often. Then a few weeks from now, or a few months, WHAM, it will hit you again. Not trying to be negative, just warning you.

But it will get better. The blow will be less devastating. The sick feelings will go away; the sadness will linger longer.

My family had a devastating event last spring. The summer was awful. I lost 15 pounds becaue I couldn't eat. Doing "mundane" things, such as grocery shopping or just driving down the street, reminded me of how things used to be. But over time the feelings have subsided. Our situation hasn't changed; the blow is still there. But my mind and body couldn't stay in that mode forever. I had to move on. And you will too.

Getting back to normal at work will help. And it will hurt. That's all normal. You'll get through this.

Have fun on your cruise!

It almost feels worse that im feeling better - bums me out because what he had was good and its gone forever, i feel like i shouldnt be fine with that. Just a circular negative logic that i need to stop thinking about...

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