Current Events > With each passing day I get more depressed.

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I have come to accept that it is all my fault and who I am to my core, and that I deserve everything.

There's no hope for me

It's not doe. Some of it might be but definitely not all of it. You just gotta figure out how to clear your mind so you can separate what you have control over and what you don't. Then start working on the things you can control
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you were doing well clear

wat happen?
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Lost_All_Senses posted...

It's not doe. Some of it might be but definitely not all of it. You just gotta figure out how to clear your mind so you can separate what you have control over and what you don't. Then start working on the things you can control

I don't control over who I am to my core though, and I am a piece of shit through and through. People can smell it on me, I am inherently unlikable.

Parappa09 posted...

you were doing well clear

wat happen?

Just recognizing that I will eventually get fired because I'm a piece of shit, then my girlfriend will dump me because I'll be a jobless loser.

clearaflagrantj posted...

Just recognizing that I will eventually get fired because I'm a piece of shit, then my girlfriend will dump me because I'll be a jobless loser.

i'm going through some tough self esteem shit at work as well. which is starting to affect me outside of work

i know that feel
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Have you gone to therapy yet.
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clearaflagrantj posted...

Just recognizing that I will eventually get fired because I'm a piece of shit, then my girlfriend will dump me because I'll be a jobless loser.

Well, if you want to make a self-fulfilling prophecy this is the way to do it.

Get some therapy dude god damn
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http://time.com/4338947/magic-mushrooms-for-depression/
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Me too

It's the worst
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Something that may give you a boost is to interview for other jobs just to see that you have what it takes to land another job whenever you need one. That will take the edge off of performance anxiety at work and should make you more optimistic and confident.

And stashing away six to twelve months of expenses, in a regular savings account at the bank, would help a lot with general anxiety. Knowing you could lounge around for upwards of twelve months if you get laid off is a really peaceful feeling.
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Drpooplol posted...

Have you gone to therapy yet.

Nope

Hairistotle posted...

i made a bitter mean post toward u earlier clear and i hope u didnt see it. just wanna say im sorry

Well I didn't so no harm no foul

FLUFFYGERM posted...

Something that may give you a boost is to interview for other jobs just to see that you have what it takes to land another job whenever you need one. That will take the edge off of performance anxiety at work and should make you more optimistic and confident.

And stashing away six to twelve months of expenses, in a regular savings account at the bank, would help a lot with general anxiety. Knowing you could lounge around for upwards of twelve months if you get laid off is a really peaceful feeling.

I got an emergency fund, granted it's only about two months worth but I can always pull out my Roth contributions or sell my crypto if I really had to.

And I have been interviewing for other jobs. But it hurts to my core knowing my job is well paying, cushy, easy, and low risk yet I still feel anxious all the time. Like if I leave this job and take a "real" job I'll get exposed as a failure.

I have horrible imposter syndrome.

clearaflagrantj posted...

Like if I leave this job and take a "real" job I'll get exposed as a failure.

I have horrible imposter syndrome.

i feel the exact same way
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Parappa09 posted...

clearaflagrantj posted...

Like if I leave this job and take a "real" job I'll get exposed as a failure.

I have horrible imposter syndrome.

i feel the exact same way

I had to look up imposter syndrome. It seems to me everyone has this anxiety. The best way to break it in my experience is to put yourself in those situations which will occur naturally over time anyway. It may not go away but becomes a non issue.
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this is good for bitcoin
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Here is a little trick I have seen work before. When you are feeling sad and think things cant get worse just say to yourself things may be truly terrible, but at least I am not Mistere Man. That usually cheers people up a bit.

Sadly it doesnt work for me, but if it helps at all then I am happy.
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Why not work on developing your skills and career instead of hoping that your employer doesn't catch on that they're paying you too much to do too little and fire you
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