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pretzelcoatl posted...

It's one of those things where (outside of the ADHD diagnosis) I don't really know what the actual benefit of being diagnosed as an adult is + the government is supposedly tracking autism diagnoses now, so I don't really care to find out for certain.

I function in society and have a wife, house and career so it doesn't seem worth the effort to find out for sure.

I'm happy for you and wish you the best in life. I understand how you feel. Certain things happened with me recently in terms of functioning/fitting in at work and also at a recent social gatherings where I feel like I started to realize maybe I do have this disorder. Mainly feeling like I'm going to have a total shutdown while amongst people then embarrass myself because I can't keep up maintaining the "frame" I hold when socializing

Also as a youth I would become mute at certain points of times especially in school. Initially I thought/knew it was Social Anxiety but after discovering more I think it's deeper than that

Or maybe part of myself was in denial, because my peers always thought I was weird but I wouldn't accept it as having any type of mental "deficit". Even my family would call me "slow" at times though. All of those would effect my self esteem.

Maybe it's all a sign that I had this disorder but no one knew exactly what it was. Or maybe people thought I would grow out of it or unlearn/overcome it. Or maybe it was denial or I didn't want to accept it due to the stigma

Right now I rather know regardless of any stigma though because it would at least explain a lot in my life and give me more clarity

That is really concerning that the government is tracking Autism diagnosis' though, I would much prefer not to be tracked