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Dungeater posted...

im not polyam, i consider myself monogamous

the extent to which i engage with the polyam community is reading books and asking questions, trying to gain insight and be supportive. i have no desire to practice it myself

regarding my partner having other partners and relationships, i feel no jealousy. i dont feel that it comes at the expense of our own relationship. i just do this thing where i compare myself with him, and i think "man it would be so easy for me right now if i was capable of doing that too"

its not even that i want to be able to date other people. its more like "man, i can turn on easy mode anytime but i just dont. because its not for me"

its difficult to explain

This sounds like a one sided open relationship with a clear imbalance then. If you consider yourself monogamous but your partner is clearly poly and engaging in it, i dont see how its going to workout for the long term without continually causing harm to the relationship.

I think you should definitely talk to your partner about this going forward