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KogaSteelfang posted...

I don't want a relationship to use as therapy. I want to be happy, and I feel that if I can find some form of success that my line of thinking would naturally shift to match the situation.

And they can measure how distant I am, and judge me as unworthy how? By never taking the time to talk with me? By ignoring my existence until they need something?

I'm fully aware that me being so closed off could be a big problem in a situation where someone did want to be close. I mean, they'd just have to give me some time, but I do see where someone might mind. But I don't see how it matters much when there's no one.

Yes, people can pretty easily measure your attitude and emotional immaturity. Theres not no one. See a therapist. Thats literally the first step.

A success isnt going to magically change your thinking.