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Glob posted...

You have no self-respect and no love for yourself

That's true.

Glob posted...

so why would anybody else feel those things for you?

Let's invert that. Why would I feel love for myself when no one's shown I'm worth it? I also don't let people see that side of me. Trust me, I've become a pro at hiding myself.

Glob posted...

Youve closed yourself off. Nobody else can do that.

Yes. I'm very closed off. I have walls upon walls, upon walls. It takes me such an incredibly long time grow close enough to someone to start lowering them... But I'm still friendly and kind, and honest with people. They can still get to know me, I just keep things distant emotionally so I don't get hurt. Does that make me undeserving of love? Does it make me a bad person?

I understand that it would make growing attached difficult... But that doesn't matter because no one's ever been interested in trying.

Glob posted...

I hate to say it, but its on you.

You're right, it is me. I'm the problem. Always have been, always will be.

Glob posted...

My parents were dicks too, of the highest magnitude.

I don't know the history there, but I guarantee my parents could give them a run for the money.