LogFAQs > #979372549

• She's a nurse doctor who video chats with me every two months to check in with how I'm doing in terms of depression, mental health, etc.
• I get my anti-depressants prescribed through her

Issue: Whenever I chat with her about my mood and mention that I'm even slightly depressed, she follows with an extremely reprimanding tone of voice and tells me something invalidating like, "you need to go outside more," or "take a walk at the park." She doesn't try and listen to me for the sake of listening. I always feel like she ignores my problems, or fails to empathize at all, and tries to counter with a solution that doesn't align with my predispositions. She's carelessly mentioned that I should go to church, do some volunteer work, and even take up snowboarding classes; which I feel does not suit me at all. Every time I come to her expressing genuine grief, I get nothing but trite suggestions that make me feel like she falls a long way short from qualifying as a good therapist/counselor-whatever her role is.

I somehow get the feeling that this "all in one package" therapy program has a time limit and anyone experiencing depression beyond surface level problems gets gaslit to think all they need to do is exercise and go to church to cure their depression. Every time this nurse-doctor asks me how I'm doing, I feel a great deal of pressure to say "I'm okay" - and it leaves me feeling frustrated.

I would stop going, but my meds are paid for through this program and this doctor is the only way I could receive them for free. If I cancel my appointment, the doctor will presume I'm doing okay and cancel the meds that I've become dependent on. I'm in a catch-22 situation right?