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Yellow posted...

Anyway, how was all your experiences moving out?

At first, it was incredibly frightening. I did not have a job ready for me when I moved to Nevada. All I had to live off of was the income I got from doing DoorDash orders. At first, I had planned to find a place in which to live, citing that as my only income source. As one can imagine, the number of respectable places that would allow someone with such a meager income was very small.

For the time being, I had had to book an Airbnb room while I looked for a place to rent while working. I had no rental references, which disheartened me greatly in regards to applying for places to rent. Fortunately for me, the bloke who was hosting the Airbnb room was very generous. He allowed me to rent the room I was living in as part of my Airbnb stay. He moreover allowed me to keep a rice-cooker, which eliminated the hassle of driving out to get food. He was very generous in that regard.

Eventually, I found a job at a department store. It wasn't a great fit for me, and though it allowed me to pay rent, I eventually left the position two months after entering it. I then returned to my job-search, which culminated in my acquiring a post at an IT company. I can say very confidently that it was a job that I could not only do well, but one that I could flourish in. I hope now to advance in the organization for which I now work.

Getting groceries wasn't an issue for me when I first moved out. It was simply something I had to do while my mother was in the hospital with a brain tumor. I had had to learn much while she was incapacitated.

As for my loneliness issue... I cannot say that I really miss much of my family, since many of them were borderline abusive to me while I was growing up, and in the years after my college graduation. I do not like to talk about it. In any case, while I do not miss my family, I still feel lonely. I don't go through the effort of trying to make friends, for reasons I do not feel like disclosing on a public forum.

Overall, though my life is better in every way since I left my family home ten months ago, it still isn't perfect. I still long for a purpose in life. I still long for --- yet still feel undeserving of --- companionship. I still have psychological issues that have followed me all the way out here. Sometimes, I can find ways to manage these issues when they pop up. But on the days when I am unable to, I find myself over-often fretting over how productive I could have been without the burden of my various disorders, some of which I am only now beginning to realize I have.