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Topic	I'm looking to leave my job.
the_pika 02/16/23 11:45:57 AM #15:	PiOverlord posted... It's my fault, but after my grandma died last week, I've been spiraling, and in public accounting, you can't spiral at this time of the year. Her dying wasn't just it, but the timing was right before my most important job of busy season (was my senior-role job to show that I can be a senior), and I missed out on getting to fly to the client with my team for that week and then I got sick at home and missed this week (still working, but not on-site, which is a big missed-opportunity). I haven't been as communicative, and my anxiety has gone through the roof as all the pressure is getting to me. My grandma dying was sad, but I think the fact that I saw her die in my own living room (she was here under hospice as mentioned in another thread) affected me more than I wish it did. It's made me realize, I either need to get a fresh start at another firm, or leave for industry. I'm going to try to ride this busy season out, but I'm already messaging recruiters. Deciding if I'd ride out the 3/31 job I'm scheduled on as well, but to be honest, I kinda just want to leave this job behind. I may even consider transitioning to finance/a job that doesn't have a busy season. Busy seasons require you to be working over 100%, but this has shown that I can't even be 100% at times, so maybe this is the sign to leave public accounting. I need a job where, if I need to be less than 100%, it won't ruin me. All the work I did this and last year, just to have two lousy weeks ruin it; I'm so mad at myself. My depression magically disappeared mid-2021, but the crippling thoughts from the depression era are starting to seep back in, and I'm trying to make sure I don't let it happen this time. I'm desperately trying to not have the mindset that I'm a failure, and that I somehow grab the jaws of total defeat from victory. It leads to some really dark thoughts. Tomorrow is my grandma's funeral, so I'm missing another day of work on top of last week. I feel like I'm about to crumble. how is your money situation? if you can afford it, and/or a relative is willing to help you, have you thought about taking a month or 2 weeks off, @pioverlord ? take some personal time, wake up late, hug your relative(s) and/or pet(s) in the morning, have a cup of coffee and stare at the sunrise or whatever and a hearty breakfast, for a couple days. Get your mind off work, or stress, and feel like youre healing. Just keep decent habits (other than waking up late) such as shaving daily, showering, getting off your pajamas, and going outside of your dwelling daily so your cocoon/healing time doesnt become depression. its ok not to be ok - it almost costed me my life to understand this <cite>the_pika posted [p:971606718] in I'm lookin... [t:80350062]...</cite> <quote>PiOverlord posted... </cite><quote>It's my fault, but after my grandma died last week, I've been spiraling, and in public accounting, you can't spiral at this time of the year. Her dying wasn't just it, but the timing was right before my most important job of busy season (was my senior-role job to show that I can be a senior), and I missed out on getting to fly to the client with my team for that week and then I got sick at home and missed this week (still working, but not on-site, which is a big missed-opportunity). I haven't been as communicative, and my anxiety has gone through the roof as all the pressure is getting to me. My grandma dying was sad, but I think the fact that I saw her die in my own living room (she was here under hospice as mentioned in another thread) affected me more than I wish it did. It's made me realize, I either need to get a fresh start at another firm, or leave for industry. I'm going to try to ride this busy season out, but I'm already messaging recruiters. Deciding if I'd ride out the 3/31 job I'm scheduled on as well, but to be honest, I kinda just want to leave this job behind. I may even consider transitioning to finance/a job that doesn't have a busy season. Busy seasons require you to be working over 100%, but this has shown that I can't even be 100% at times, so maybe this is the sign to leave public accounting. I need a job where, if I need to be less than 100%, it won't ruin me. All the work I did this and last year, just to have two lousy weeks ruin it; I'm so mad at myself. My depression magically disappeared mid-2021, but the crippling thoughts from the depression era are starting to seep back in, and I'm trying to make sure I don't let it happen this time. I'm desperately trying to not have the mindset that I'm a failure, and that I somehow grab the jaws of total defeat from victory. It leads to some really dark thoughts. Tomorrow is my grandma's funeral, so I'm missing another day of work on top of last week. I feel like I'm about to crumble.</quote>how is your money situation?if you can afford it, and/or a relative is willing to help you, have you thought about taking a month or 2 weeks off, @pioverlord ?take some personal time, wake up late, hug your relative(s) and/or pet(s) in the morning, have a cup of coffee and stare at the sunrise or whatever and a hearty breakfast, for a couple days. Get your mind off work, or stress, and feel like youre healing. Just keep decent habits (other than waking up late) such as shaving daily, showering, getting off your pajamas, and going outside of your dwelling daily so your cocoon/healing time doesnt become depression.its ok not to be ok - it almost costed me my life to understand this </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
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