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Been working at this restaraunt for a pretty long time now, will be 3 years in February. I started as just a food runner, but back in May they offered me a salaried manager position. I had no restaurant experience prior to this job, but I decided to give it a go, and the pay and benefits they offered sounded solid.

Fast forward to now though and I think I'm just... not happy. The pay and benefits genuinely are really good. I'm gonna end this year with making at least twice as much than any other job I've had. I get insurance through them, including dental and vision. And it took me a minute, but I've learned all the ropes of the job and would like to think I'm doing pretty well. But the stress levels are a lot more than I anticipated, I don't particularly enjoy a lot of the day to day elements of the job, I feel fucking exhausted all the time, don't feel like I have time or energy for anything outside of work, and hell, at this point most of my dreams and nightmares are about the job and I hate that.

When I first started working here, it was meant to just be a "pay the bills" job while I pursued what I wanted to do, film and writing. But then the pandemic hit and I got... I don't wanna say trapped necessarily, but it was a stable job in a tough time so I stuck it out a lot longer than I intended. Then I got the position offer, and said "fuck it, I'll give it a go"

There's parts of the job I really like. I like a lot of my co-workers and employees, the pay and such is solid, etc. But I just already feel kinda burned out with it and I've barely had the position for 6 months. But I'm also at the point where I'm scared to just abandon such a well paying job for something that's not a guarantee. Like, if I left I'd probably try to find something in film, but that's a lot of competition for significantly lower pay starting out. Or hell, even a job where I have a little more free time so I can devote some more time and energy to writing would be nice, but again, I'd be sacrificing pay and benefits for that.

I guess I just kinda don't know what I want right now, but I know I don't want to do this forever. But I also don't wanna just bail on something that is consistently paying my bills and for things I need and want.

IDK, I get that I'm whining about having a solid job, something that I know a lot of people would kill for, but I also can feel that this isn't what I want to be doing every day indefinitely. I feel like I'd be happier doing something else, but I also know I'd be less happy making less than I currently am. :/

idk, just kinda venting I guess.