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MrMallard posted...

That's one reason why I couldn't take this to another platform - I can't let this leak out into her life, because she's dealing with enough at the moment.

I'm sorry for dropping this thread on an unsuspecting CE, but as you can see I don't have a lot of other options. If you've read this entire clusterfuck, thank you, and rest assured that if push comes to shove I'm aware of healthcare options I can take to protect myself, and I'm explicitly stating that I am not at risk of self-harm or suicide. There's a lot going on, but if you should take anything away from this, it's that I'm cognizant enough that I'm not going to engage in either practice.

I didn't even get to my recent self-medicalisation with alcohol, which deserves its own novela-length post. I might get to it later on.

Its all good and fwiw I think what youre feeling is at least very rational

If you cant take care of yourself right now thats one thing, but trying to help out someone else can be a problem sometimes with that going on.. If you want to talk to her and it distracts you for a bit though, why not? Its okay >_>

People can grieve together and thats not a problem at all if you want to focus on that if it helps you stay grounded to the Earth.

okay can mean different things, I know you waited on that appointment and if it helped to count the days.. well, count the days again itll feel weird or awkward, almost like youre just blowing off how you feel but thats not really true

its just how you really feel, I guess you can just forget about it and just ride the days out

do you have anyone to talk to irl?


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