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TopicDid any of your dreams involve events/achievements at an age younger than you r?
joe40001
03/31/20 6:12:07 AM
#12:


I've tried so much therapy over the years.

I think the 2 main things needed for change are "acceptance", just that you are were you are, but that reality doesn't actually limit your emotional reality. Like the past makes me incredibly sad, but the longer I pretend like it doesn't make me sad the harder it is to act.

Also you have to seek out being uncomfortable. The longer you are in a rut, the more used to that rut you are going to be. Unfortunately change is going to be very very uncomfortable, but you have to embrace that or even get excited by it, because at least it's new. And change will not come without it.

Therapists are kinda shit tbqh. Yeah they are fine with people who never look inwards, but for people with deep issues they don't really help you change, and change is absolutely what such people need. I've needed change for so long.

The days where i'm sure it's too late are the days where I have no hope and am least likely to actually change. Most days over the past 10+ years when I've looked at my feelings I've had this belief.

I'd rather be uncomfortable than depressed like this the rest of my life. But god damn when I get anxiety I get it bad. It sucks that life sucks for some people. And it's such a waste because I don't have real things holding me back. Just my own mind. My birthday is coming up soon. Such a wasted life so far.

I've got to fight like hell that it changes.

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